- Jul 3, 2022
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I was thinking pretty hard last night about bonuses and my performance in my old department. I think I'm being a little obsessive, but here goes.
Backstory:
I got a retention bonus (everyone did, it was a "please stay in this department" incentive). It was contingent on me meeting, every month, 80% of the assigned work. Meaning, every day I was given a list of 20 patients with consults (referrals), and I had to handle at least 16 a day. Sometimes this involved very little work per patient, sometimes a patient's referral would be really complicated. But we as employees kept track of how many patients we handled in a day by just marking them off on the spreadsheet we were given each day, and turning the spreadsheet back in.
Problem:
One month I averaged exactly 80%. One less patient and I would have lost my retention bonus. I did the math myself that month, along with checking my numbers with my lead, so I know 80% is correct. But the problem I had was, there were a few patients that I feel like i shouldn't have counted for that month. Where maybe I saved work for the next day and counted it again, despite having time to complete it all one one day. Or something like that. I do remember thinking about that at the end of the month, and trying to make sure my numbers were "ethical" (Meaning, I knew i did wrong, so I was trying to make sure my false numbers didn't affect my monthly total). I worked it out somehow in my head, by acknowledging that I chose not to count a few patients that I probably COULD have counted. Meaning it probably all evened out.
Except that was a few months ago and now I'm freaking out because I don't know if I actually had accurate numbers in my head of what canceled out, if that makes sense. And of course it's Saturday so I can't go and look at old spreadsheets. It's possible I'm not even supposed to because I'm not in that department anymore.
To clarify, my freak out isn't so much "I might have to pay money back" but more like "I might not have accurately made up for something I did wrong." Who cares about the money at this point I don't want something I might have earned by being dishonest.
I hope this all makes sense.
Backstory:
I got a retention bonus (everyone did, it was a "please stay in this department" incentive). It was contingent on me meeting, every month, 80% of the assigned work. Meaning, every day I was given a list of 20 patients with consults (referrals), and I had to handle at least 16 a day. Sometimes this involved very little work per patient, sometimes a patient's referral would be really complicated. But we as employees kept track of how many patients we handled in a day by just marking them off on the spreadsheet we were given each day, and turning the spreadsheet back in.
Problem:
One month I averaged exactly 80%. One less patient and I would have lost my retention bonus. I did the math myself that month, along with checking my numbers with my lead, so I know 80% is correct. But the problem I had was, there were a few patients that I feel like i shouldn't have counted for that month. Where maybe I saved work for the next day and counted it again, despite having time to complete it all one one day. Or something like that. I do remember thinking about that at the end of the month, and trying to make sure my numbers were "ethical" (Meaning, I knew i did wrong, so I was trying to make sure my false numbers didn't affect my monthly total). I worked it out somehow in my head, by acknowledging that I chose not to count a few patients that I probably COULD have counted. Meaning it probably all evened out.
Except that was a few months ago and now I'm freaking out because I don't know if I actually had accurate numbers in my head of what canceled out, if that makes sense. And of course it's Saturday so I can't go and look at old spreadsheets. It's possible I'm not even supposed to because I'm not in that department anymore.
To clarify, my freak out isn't so much "I might have to pay money back" but more like "I might not have accurately made up for something I did wrong." Who cares about the money at this point I don't want something I might have earned by being dishonest.
I hope this all makes sense.