Turning the page

[ComesoonmyLORD]

Well, with the new year I'm turning the page so to speak. God has and continues to be AWESOME! I start my new job tomorrow, the stormy seas have calmed a lot over the last few months and things are starting to come together and it's trying to get back to somewhat normal, as normal goes for me. Last night I attended a new years eve party with our church group. At midnight I prayed for a new beginning. When I awoke this morning I felt like I'd been refueled. I'm actually thinking about the future again. I feel it's time to tighten my boot straps and get back to work for the Kingdom. I know have more witnessing tools to use and God wants me to be a worker. I know that the healing process is somewhat never ending, but I feel now I can press on towards the goal. I feel Ginger pushing me forward, she's always with me and she wants me to GET UP! As always I'm praying for all of us here. We can make it, Press On!

 

[Missinyou]

I on the other hand, awoke at five this morning to an empty house, dreading facing the new year without Patsy, and the tears started. Then came taking down the calender with all her doctor appointments on it, including the ones in June which she never had the chance to keep...and the tears fell harder. I left to help my brother cut and haul some wood some nice person gave him, but then it was back home again. When I'm away I just want to be home, and then when I walk in to the empty house, I want to be somewhere else.. Talk about a see-saw existance. I can see this is not going to be a great day for me....

 

[dily4ever]

Missinyou,

I am sorry that you had a bad day. It must be heartbreaking to take down the calendar and seeing the doctor's appointments that your wife would never be able to keep. When I tidied my house and saw my husband's left over medication, I felt very pained too. Still I could not bear to throw any of his stuff away so I kept even the medication in a box. I can also understand what you mean about wanting to go out when you are home and wanting to go home when you are out... everywhere is just not the right place when we feel so alone. But take comfort in the fact that our loved ones is right inside our heart and that cannot be taken away from us.

Hope this quote encourages you a little -
"What the heart had once owned and had, it shall never lose." - Henry Ward Beecher

Blessed New Year to you.

 

[faithgoeson]

Well, with the new year I'm turning the page so to speak. God has and continues to be AWESOME! I start my new job tomorrow, the stormy seas have calmed a lot over the last few months and things are starting to come together and it's trying to get back to somewhat normal, as normal goes for me. Last night I attended a new years eve party with our church group. At midnight I prayed for a new beginning. When I awoke this morning I felt like I'd been refueled. I'm actually thinking about the future again. I feel it's time to tighten my boot straps and get back to work for the Kingdom. I know have more witnessing tools to use and God wants me to be a worker. I know that the healing process is somewhat never ending, but I feel now I can press on towards the goal. I feel Ginger pushing me forward, she's always with me and she wants me to GET UP! As always I'm praying for all of us here. We can make it, Press On!

It is always so refreshing to see the Lord at work. Proud of you, and praying for you always!

 

[Missinyou]

Dily4ever,

Being a lung transplant, I had bottles of medicine left over that Patsy would never take, but again, I was a coward. I guess our oldest son and Patsy's sister took it upon themselve to get rid of it all. (along with one of mine that was in her case) . Our youngest son, even though I did not ask him, his wife and her mother cleaned everything out of the house that had to do with Patsy's illness before I got home from Seattle. I didn't want anything that reminded me of her illness. I wanted only those things of happier times when she could still function normaly. I have enough memories of her lying on the bed in ICU to last me for a lifetime. I wonder if the memories and visions of her last few hours and minutes will ever go away? Or if I want them to? Everyone says it will get easier... I wonder when that starts to happen???????

 

[dily4ever]

Missinyou,

I also remember clearly my husband's last few moments. And how when the doctor told me that he just stopped breathing, how I just wept and hugged him. And the days in the hospital when he was sick - all those difficult moments of suffering and pain, the memories will stay forever. But let's take comfort in the fact that we were able to take care of and support our spouses when they were sick; that God gave us the chance to be with them "in sickness and in health" and "for better or for worse"..."till death do us part".