Trying to cope with life & my place in it

[Loser82070]

If you've seen either of my posts you know how I feel about myself. Like my screen name implies, I'm a loser... always have been, always will be. I'm 46, I've got 3 kids, each with a different mother, who I can't do anything for because I don't have a "real" career and I'm broke all the time. My current wife (#3) is with me because she's 10 years older than me and doesn't want to spend the rest of her life alone. I love her with all my heart, but I understand why she's with me. Nobody could truly love a troll like me. Broke, ugly, and stupid doesn't win love... it gets pity. I'm alive today because I've never had the courage to do the right thing and commit suicide... but I'm getting more and more comfortable with doing it and I'm about 90% sure that's how I'll go out. Several people on this web site have offered their prayers, words of encouragement, or just told me that the way I see things is wrong. Maybe it's wrong to them because they have good lives and they have God working WITH them instead of against them. As much as I hate God it always makes me happy when I see or hear somebody give their life to Jesus... it didn't work for me but I hope it works for them. Every time someone tries to give me good advice or tells me that they care and Jesus loves me IT MAKES MY BLOOD BOIL!!! I'm glad their lives are working out so well but mine doesn't, it sucks and that's just the hand I've been dealt. The funniest thing about my life here on Earth is that dying is ALL I have to live for. My kids hate me, my family is embarrassed by me, and I have nobody to talk or turn to I get overwhelmed by it all and just want to start crying. I've tried praying, but all my life I've never had one prayer answered so I don't care to waste my time anymore. I know this post is nothing more than venting but maybe it'll help... as well as let the rest of you know that God does NOT love each and every one of us!

 

[sundewgrower]

That's a harder one.
I'm assuming you've had some introspection...
I'd want to almost think something has been cooking you've maybe ought to toss out instead of keep. Perhaps it's been around for decades and you've not been able to shake it--or have ignored it. If so God might be literally beating it out of you--as if we're in something that's not in the right he wants it gone.

I am not trying to judge. That's just my $0.02.

 

[S.O.J.I.A.]

well, I agree that God does not love every single person. not because of your situation but because scripture doesn't say he loves every single person but only those who are His elect.

have you ever prayed a prayer where you admitted that you were a sinner that is not worthy of anything good from God but rather that you should suffer eternally in hell, but you beg and plead for God's mercy?

many would consider me to be a 'loser'. i'm 35, not married, haven't been in a romantic relationship of any kind in almost 20 years(a good thing looking back), while working an entry-level job, with no real skills. I've been there, in fact, i'm still there. the peace I have in Christ is what gets me through everything in that my worth, value, and identity are in Christ and not in my life achievements. when the LORD saved me, he didn't change my life circumstances all that much, he simply changed my mind and my heart.

if your prayers haven't been you humbling yourself before a Holy God to seek salvation and faith in that Ezekiel 36:26-28 happens to you(as it did to me, praise God!!) then you should try that. God may very well change your life circumstances, but more importantly he'll change the way you feel about your circumstances in that you will know Him. be honest with God about your life, but pray that he would change you from the inside.

 

[nChrist]

Everyone has a variety problems, even the folks you think have a good life. Attitude can be a big problem - a problem that can be worked on with amazing results. Take a closer look at your life and concentrate on the positives. This is a good start, and you might be surprised about where things lead. Suicide isn't an answer for anything - just a burden for the people you love. I know that you probably don't want to hear this, but ask God to help you. In the meantime, you and your family will be in my prayers. May God give you peace and encouragement.

 

[gym_class_hero]

1 Timothy 1.15 This is a faithful saying, and worthy of all acceptation, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners; of whom I am chief.

I'm as bigger loser than you chief and the above scripture rings true for me. God loves you and has a plan for your life. We cant change the past, but God changes our future. Maybe you should try getting involved in some volunteer work....serving people worse off than me always lifts me up as it takes the focus from inward to outward.

God bless you.

 

[God is good]

If you've seen either of my posts you know how I feel about myself. Like my screen name implies, I'm a loser... always have been, always will be. I'm 46, I've got 3 kids, each with a different mother, who I can't do anything for because I don't have a "real" career and I'm broke all the time. My current wife (#3) is with me because she's 10 years older than me and doesn't want to spend the rest of her life alone. I love her with all my heart, but I understand why she's with me. Nobody could truly love a troll like me. Broke, ugly, and stupid doesn't win love... it gets pity. I'm alive today because I've never had the courage to do the right thing and commit suicide... but I'm getting more and more comfortable with doing it and I'm about 90% sure that's how I'll go out. Several people on this web site have offered their prayers, words of encouragement, or just told me that the way I see things is wrong. Maybe it's wrong to them because they have good lives and they have God working WITH them instead of against them. As much as I hate God it always makes me happy when I see or hear somebody give their life to Jesus... it didn't work for me but I hope it works for them. Every time someone tries to give me good advice or tells me that they care and Jesus loves me IT MAKES MY BLOOD BOIL!!! I'm glad their lives are working out so well but mine doesn't, it sucks and that's just the hand I've been dealt. The funniest thing about my life here on Earth is that dying is ALL I have to live for. My kids hate me, my family is embarrassed by me, and I have nobody to talk or turn to I get overwhelmed by it all and just want to start crying. I've tried praying, but all my life I've never had one prayer answered so I don't care to waste my time anymore. I know this post is nothing more than venting but maybe it'll help... as well as let the rest of you know that God does NOT love each and every one of us!

John 3:16"God so loved the world that he gave his one and only son, that whoever believes in him should not perish, but have everlasting life". God loves the world and that is you too and he gave his only son for you and he is so good and he will do anything for you, he gave his own son for you. I am not trying to offend you and you will hopefully find God. I will pray for you and please just try to pour your heart out to him and know that God does love you.

 

[Adstar]

If you've seen either of my posts you know how I feel about myself. Like my screen name implies, I'm a loser... always have been, always will be. I'm 46, I've got 3 kids, each with a different mother, who I can't do anything for because I don't have a "real" career and I'm broke all the time. My current wife (#3) is with me because she's 10 years older than me and doesn't want to spend the rest of her life alone. I love her with all my heart, but I understand why she's with me. Nobody could truly love a troll like me. Broke, ugly, and stupid doesn't win love... it gets pity. I'm alive today because I've never had the courage to do the right thing and commit suicide... but I'm getting more and more comfortable with doing it and I'm about 90% sure that's how I'll go out. Several people on this web site have offered their prayers, words of encouragement, or just told me that the way I see things is wrong. Maybe it's wrong to them because they have good lives and they have God working WITH them instead of against them. As much as I hate God it always makes me happy when I see or hear somebody give their life to Jesus... it didn't work for me but I hope it works for them. Every time someone tries to give me good advice or tells me that they care and Jesus loves me IT MAKES MY BLOOD BOIL!!! I'm glad their lives are working out so well but mine doesn't, it sucks and that's just the hand I've been dealt. The funniest thing about my life here on Earth is that dying is ALL I have to live for. My kids hate me, my family is embarrassed by me, and I have nobody to talk or turn to I get overwhelmed by it all and just want to start crying. I've tried praying, but all my life I've never had one prayer answered so I don't care to waste my time anymore. I know this post is nothing more than venting but maybe it'll help... as well as let the rest of you know that God does NOT love each and every one of us!

I never believed in God to make my life a success.. I believed in God to give me strengh to get through a life without success..

Being a loser in this world is hard and often demoralizing.. But with God we can have peace of mind knowing that being a winner or a loser in this world is irrelevant to Eternity... God will transform us on the day of reasurection into eternal winners and we shall sare in His Victory.. We shall be transformed into the perfect beings we always wanted to be.. With God we have Hope.. Without God we have nothing.. Why give up God when he is the only avenue you have? He is the Light at the end of our dark and depressing life tunnel.. Just keep walking towards the Light of the world.. Start to think with an eternal mindset and all the losses in this short life in this faulty world will be as nothing compared to our Eternal hope..

 

[63iam]

If you've seen either of my posts you know how I feel about myself. Like my screen name implies, I'm a loser... always have been, always will be. I'm 46, I've got 3 kids, each with a different mother, who I can't do anything for because I don't have a "real" career and I'm broke all the time. My current wife (#3) is with me because she's 10 years older than me and doesn't want to spend the rest of her life alone. I love her with all my heart, but I understand why she's with me. Nobody could truly love a troll like me. Broke, ugly, and stupid doesn't win love... it gets pity. I'm alive today because I've never had the courage to do the right thing and commit suicide... but I'm getting more and more comfortable with doing it and I'm about 90% sure that's how I'll go out. Several people on this web site have offered their prayers, words of encouragement, or just told me that the way I see things is wrong. Maybe it's wrong to them because they have good lives and they have God working WITH them instead of against them. As much as I hate God it always makes me happy when I see or hear somebody give their life to Jesus... it didn't work for me but I hope it works for them. Every time someone tries to give me good advice or tells me that they care and Jesus loves me IT MAKES MY BLOOD BOIL!!! I'm glad their lives are working out so well but mine doesn't, it sucks and that's just the hand I've been dealt. The funniest thing about my life here on Earth is that dying is ALL I have to live for. My kids hate me, my family is embarrassed by me, and I have nobody to talk or turn to I get overwhelmed by it all and just want to start crying. I've tried praying, but all my life I've never had one prayer answered so I don't care to waste my time anymore. I know this post is nothing more than venting but maybe it'll help... as well as let the rest of you know that God does NOT love each and every one of us!

You have nothing to worry about. Once God has destroyed your enemies, then you will get to know the real you. It's possible that a suicide is planned for you but most people who openly say that are too cowardly to do it. I have known several family members and friends who have committed suicide and none of them gave any warning. I have also met a few people who have talked about committing suicide and they had something happen in their life that changed their minds. Whatever happens, it is all planned by our creator.

 

[1watchman]

There is some good thoughts shared here if you are open to ponder them, Loser (sorry to use that word, for it really means one has chosen it as their path). We all might be called losers by nature, for we are born in sin from the malady of Genesis 2 & 3.

Success by the world's standards is not satisfying to one who truly wants the gift of God, which is the blessings and promise of eternal life with God and in our sojourn here in this world. When I received the Lord Jesus as my Savior and Lord of my life over 50 years ago, I entered into a walk with God. I was a loser, trying to win favor in this world, but God made me a winner when I received His gift of blessings in Jesus, the Christ of God.

Let me tell you to stop trying to be religious, pray, follow some rules; and just confess you are a lost sinner (which is owning our natural condition) and do as many of us Christians have done: "let go and let God". Scripture says: "he that has the Son, has life eternal". That is God's promise and gift to a honest seeker, and the Holy Spirit will come into that one and seal him/her as a "child of God". God will truly change you and your life.

If you will take the time to read John 1; John 3; John 14, you will hear God speaking to you, my friend. Look up always, for God cares always!

 

[1watchman]

An additional thought here, friend: When God spoke of His love for this world, He is saying He loves His creation, and that includes everyone of us. He wants us to be His children and own Him as "...our Father which art in Heaven". He did not create man as sinners, but He gave them liberty to choose Him and His path, and that liberty was and is important for us. God knew full well that Satan the allowed adversary representing ALL outside of God, would tempt Adam and Eve, and that they would fail in their weakness and then sin, but God had and has a great plan of deliverance and liberty to come back to God. You and all of us , friend, can receive it or not ---see John 1; John 3; John 14, and also note 1 Jn. 5:10-12. You can hear God speaking to you to come by faith and trust in Him through Jesus, the Christ of God. Look up always!