I've been attracted to women for a long time. Unfortunately it will probably be something that I struggle with my entire life. I feel more of a lustful attraction to women. But to be honest I don't think I'd be compatible with a woman for the other non-sexual part of the relationship.
I've come to the conclusion that falling in love with a man isn't so bad. Heterosexual marriage and a family sounds pretty nice! I don't really consider myself bisexual. I'd rather physically be with a woman. But I tend to get along really well with men and have be able to connect with them. I feel like this is the toughest part of a relationship so physically becoming attracted to the man I care about will come in time.
This is great and gets me away from my same-sex tendencies. However sometimes I feel like I'm living a lie and pretending to be straight. I do not want to be gay. I also am Christian and do not want to go to Hell for acting on same-sex attractions. But I also don't want to mislead or hurt any man that I am with. I'd want a Christian man and feel as though he would deserve a straight, Christian woman. I feel like my actions and portraying a straight woman is somewhat deceptive.
Thank you for any advice. I'm determined not to act on my same-sex attractions. Yet I know that weakness is there. I don't know if I should be upfront with any men I date letting them know my struggles. That way they can determine whether or not they want to be with me. But I be honest if I'm not acting on my same-sex attraction there is no reason to declare myself anything other than a straight woman.
Thanks for your help.
I've come to the conclusion that falling in love with a man isn't so bad. Heterosexual marriage and a family sounds pretty nice! I don't really consider myself bisexual. I'd rather physically be with a woman. But I tend to get along really well with men and have be able to connect with them. I feel like this is the toughest part of a relationship so physically becoming attracted to the man I care about will come in time.
This is great and gets me away from my same-sex tendencies. However sometimes I feel like I'm living a lie and pretending to be straight. I do not want to be gay. I also am Christian and do not want to go to Hell for acting on same-sex attractions. But I also don't want to mislead or hurt any man that I am with. I'd want a Christian man and feel as though he would deserve a straight, Christian woman. I feel like my actions and portraying a straight woman is somewhat deceptive.
Thank you for any advice. I'm determined not to act on my same-sex attractions. Yet I know that weakness is there. I don't know if I should be upfront with any men I date letting them know my struggles. That way they can determine whether or not they want to be with me. But I be honest if I'm not acting on my same-sex attraction there is no reason to declare myself anything other than a straight woman.
Thanks for your help.
