Trying but not getting it???

[mikef14020]

I thought for a bit I was a Christian, then I realized nope not sure whats going on with my belief's right now. This is what I know:
1.) I believe with my heart (I think ) that Jesus Christ died for my sins.
2.) I believe that you have to belive in him and his ressurection to you know be saved.
3.) ?????
4.) I am a christian.

I think I am missing a step or something because I have no desire to go to church, read the bible or anything anymore. I used to have a desire to listen to a christian music station, and now I turn it to some rock station. I used to watch some good quality christian television, now all I watch is junk tv. I used to read the bible a bit, but now have no desire too. I used to pray every night, and now feel its useless.

So many people tell me how well at least they think I am a christian, but then deep down I am so sad, because I know I am not. I have no desire for the word, nor do I have a childlike behaivor. I read from something that some are destined to not hear the word, and turn their hearts naturally from it and be unsaved for ever. They were just born that way thats how I feel. I usually cry myself to sleep about it.

And I feel like such a failure at my life. Stuck in a bad job, which going into the store makes my blood boil . I can't even be happy at my job, even when I try my hardest. I am going to be 19 soon, and still feel so alone.

Any advice would be good?

 

[tapero]

Dear Mike,

There's plenty of Christians that go through what you are going though. Try to develop some good habits. Read and pray everyday. God wants us to be faithful. Read a sentence or two if a chapter is too much. Try to find a church that reaches out to you. Try to make friends with a male Christian who can help you. Try falling in love with Jesus again and committing your life to Him. Don't give up. God won't let you go, but don't give up. Keep working at your faith. Take care, Tapero

 

[Whitestone]

Listen to praise music...I know this sounds funny but I don't think G-d makes us praise Him because He wants to hear it but we need to say it and be reminded of what He has done for us.

Most of my favorite songs tell the stories and remind me of my favorite stories of how our Lord works.

Also if you can find some Christian music you like this seems to have helped me alot, you can find Christian music in almost any style Rap, Rock, Alternative.

If you can try to read a chapter in the bible everyday.

I know these seem like gimme answers but I remember when I felt like I figured it out and really became onfire for G-d, I read the bible regularly and was singing worship songs to myself at work.

After this point I hit a bumpy patch in life, laid off two jobs in one month, afraid of missing a house payment that would have been our 3rd or 4th payment, hadn't even finished unpacking yet, and to top it off my dog come down with cancer and 2000$ later have to put him to sleep anyway. This wasn't that bad because I kept looking to G-d and knowing that He had a reason for this.

After this really bad few months I get a call for a job I had applied for months before and get hired I am stoked, this is where my problems kind of started. I stoped looking to the Lord as much and didn't seem to be as happy of a person. For some reason I wasn't as good at the job as I thought I would be and was let go. This didn't bother me too much because I think I was getting used to it.

However at this point I was able to get my old job back (the one that laid me off first), and things were going great however I was not really happy. I began to think when was I really happy, I remebered back when I was reading scripture and really focusing on G-d and praying to Him pretty much all the time and I was happy.

Sooooo I started doing all those things again and my disposition improved, I saw the silver lining, and all the bad things that came my way didn't seem to compare to what I had already faced so they didn't phaze me a bit.

I am sorry if it comes across gushy and preachy but this is how I found joy and happiness, I hope it helps you.

Whitestone

 

[Daughter of His]

Maybe your tears are because you miss the closeness of knowing your Father. Sometimes that longing is the Holy Spirit tugging at your heart drawing you to Himself. My thought is pray and tell God everything, all your feelings, what you have posted, He loves you in a way we cannot even understand, you are His personal creation. Sometimes, when we have difficulties that is when God seems the closest, as close as our whisper. for you !

 

[NothingButTheBlood]

You are missing a step. I was saved in 1991 and did nothing with it. I didn't read the Bible, prayed only on occasion and made no effort to do anything for God. Then I started to realize I was not doing what I needed to. I started reading the Bible and once I was sure what it was saying to me I choose a denomination and tried a church that matched what I thought. I am now attending Baptist church regularly, doing teen Bible study, sit on the board of a CEF camp and throughly enjoying serving God. I have reaped many benifits I had not expected. Both my husband and I have better jobs now and I have been able to do more for God financially because of it. Better benefits to cover my husbands diabetis costs. You are a Christian in that you know what Christ wants and what salvation is. You just have to decide you want to have that salvation and once you do that you will be able to make the changes you want. Start small. Listen to spiritual radio for 10 or 15 minutes, read a little, pray once a day at least.

 

[ChristianDude777]

I thought for a bit I was a Christian, then I realized nope not sure whats going on with my belief's right now. This is what I know:
1.) I believe with my heart (I think ) that Jesus Christ died for my sins.
2.) I believe that you have to belive in him and his ressurection to you know be saved.
3.) ?????
4.) I am a christian.

Hi and God bless you,

You have received some good advice here but no one seems to have told you what the missing step might very well indeed be. But you no longer have to be sad...there's good news.

Let me share a brief scripture with you...

1 And it came to pass, that, while Apollos was at Corinth, Paul having passed through the upper coasts came to Ephesus: and finding certain disciples,
2 He said unto them, Have ye received the Holy Ghost since ye believed? And they said unto him, We have not so much as heard whether there be any Holy Ghost.
3 And he said unto them, Unto what then were ye baptized? And they said, Unto John's baptism.
4 Then said Paul, John verily baptized with the baptism of repentance, saying unto the people, that they should believe on him which should come after him, that is, on Christ Jesus.
5 When they heard this, they were baptized in the name of the Lord Jesus. 6 And when Paul had laid his hands upon them, the Holy Ghost came on them; and they spake with tongues, and prophesied.



Now...first question...have you been baptized..?

Second, have you received the Holy Ghost..?

If not, you can be.

9 And I say unto you, Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you.
10 For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened.
11 If a son shall ask bread of any of you that is a father, will he give him a stone? or if he ask a fish, will he for a fish give him a serpent?
12 Or if he shall ask an egg, will he offer him a scorpion?
13 If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children: how much more shall your heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to them that ask him?

The best thing you can do is find youself a Spirit-filled church and have someone lay hands on you to received the Holy Ghost. It is HE that will convert and empower you.

God bless..

Tim L.

 

[dvd_holc]

Let go of your angry. It does not help you. It only destroys you bit by bit. It is not a source of power nor helpful. You have your job, life, etc....Let it all go to God. God is the source of happiness. I understand why listen to Rock. Rock is a message of angry. We can talk about the background music...but the message for the most part is angry. You seem to have issues with that and you might want to step away from "things" that tell you to be angry. God does not tell you to be angry. Remember, God is not a accuser. He is the convictor. There is a difference. A accuser is like a person who says nothing good about you but only beats you down to make you feel nothing but pain. God wants the best for you and has given the tools to live the best way possible. And the best way is not related to the work you do, but rather they realitionship you have with the person who made you and others. It is easy to look at all the times God has condemned people, but true wisdom comes from the understanding that this people that were judged by God where judged because they did not have the right relationship with him. Christianity is not a belief system of theory or easy. It is way of life that you live every moment of every day. You live it. You want to be a Christian...(Tim is right also)

John 8:31

31To the Jews who had believed him, Jesus said, “If you hold to my teaching, you are really my disciples. 32Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”

His teachings were ways to live, think, and interact.
Gal 5:13-26
13You, my brothers and sisters, were called to be free. But do not use your freedom to indulge the sinful nature d; rather, serve one another humbly in love. 14For the entire law is fulfilled in keeping this one command: “Love your neighbor as yourself.” 15If you keep on biting and devouring each other, watch out or you will be destroyed by each other.
16So I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the sinful nature. 17For the sinful nature desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the sinful nature. They are in conflict with each other, so that you are not to do whatever f you want. 18But if you are led by the Spirit, you are not under the law.
19The acts of the sinful nature are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; 20idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions 21and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God.
22But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law. 24Those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the sinful nature with its passions and desires. 25Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit. 26Let us not become conceited, provoking and envying each other.


Math 11:28
28“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

Gal 5:1
It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery.

Phil 4:4-9
4Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! 5Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. 6Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

8Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable— if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.

Grace is a huge thing that can help you understand God and how to interact with others...

 

[JJB]

mike,
are you still there? Look at all the people who have reached out to you! Isn't God's family amazing?!

God bless you, mike, as you continue in your faith walk with Jesus. He may feel distant, but He's still there for you.

 

[Zenaide]

Hi and God bless you,

You have received some good advice here but no one seems to have told you what the missing step might very well indeed be. But you no longer have to be sad...there's good news.

Let me share a brief scripture with you...

1 And it came to pass, that, while Apollos was at Corinth, Paul having passed through the upper coasts came to Ephesus: and finding certain disciples,
2 He said unto them, Have ye received the Holy Ghost since ye believed? And they said unto him, We have not so much as heard whether there be any Holy Ghost.
3 And he said unto them, Unto what then were ye baptized? And they said, Unto John's baptism.
4 Then said Paul, John verily baptized with the baptism of repentance, saying unto the people, that they should believe on him which should come after him, that is, on Christ Jesus.
5 When they heard this, they were baptized in the name of the Lord Jesus. 6 And when Paul had laid his hands upon them, the Holy Ghost came on them; and they spake with tongues, and prophesied.



Now...first question...have you been baptized..?

Second, have you received the Holy Ghost..?

If not, you can be.

9 And I say unto you, Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you.
10 For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened.
11 If a son shall ask bread of any of you that is a father, will he give him a stone? or if he ask a fish, will he for a fish give him a serpent?
12 Or if he shall ask an egg, will he offer him a scorpion?
13 If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children: how much more shall your heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to them that ask him?

The best thing you can do is find youself a Spirit-filled church and have someone lay hands on you to received the Holy Ghost. It is HE that will convert and empower you.

God bless..

Tim L.

Not trying to argue or start anything. But the baptism of the Holy Spirit comes after being saved. You do recieve the Holy Spirit when you accept Jesus, but His baptism is afterwards, not required to be saved. Just my 2 cents.

 

[he_is_risen!!]

I think I am missing a step or something because I have no desire to go to church, read the bible or anything anymore. I used to have a desire to listen to a christian music station, and now I turn it to some rock station. I used to watch some good quality christian television, now all I watch is junk tv. I used to read the bible a bit, but now have no desire too. I used to pray every night, and now feel its useless.

So many people tell me how well at least they think I am a christian, but then deep down I am so sad, because I know I am not. I have no desire for the word, nor do I have a childlike behaivor. I read from something that some are destined to not hear the word, and turn their hearts naturally from it and be unsaved for ever. They were just born that way thats how I feel. I usually cry myself to sleep about it.

And I feel like such a failure at my life. Stuck in a bad job, which going into the store makes my blood boil . I can't even be happy at my job, even when I try my hardest. I am going to be 19 soon, and still feel so alone.

Any advice would be good?

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OKay I may not be as articulate as everyone else but let me tell you this. EVERY Christian feels that way at least once in their lives. For me it was just a few months ago. Now I can't say what will help you, but for me I was able to pull myself out of that rut through fellow believers and through regular prayer and reading of the Bible. You won't want to do either everyday, but I had to force myself to for a little while and then after a week or so then I beagn to hunger for more.

I thought for a bit I was a Christian, then I realized nope not sure whats going on with my belief's right now. This is what I know:
1.) I believe with my heart (I think ) that Jesus Christ died for my sins.
2.) I believe that you have to belive in him and his ressurection to you know be saved.
3.) ?????
4.) I am a christian.

Okay for someone to be saved you must

• accept Christ as your personal Savior who died on the cross to rid usa all from sin and allow us to enter Heaven.

SO by that adn what you have said you are saved and going to Heaven. Now what you need to do is to grow in Christ. Ie prayer, reading the Bible, fellowship w/ other believers, etc. Now it'll take serious commitment and dedication to acheive this because you won't feel that fire for awhile. But if you stick to it then you will begin to notice that you are thinking of verses and stories when your in trouble or are depressed. On a side note, my youth pastor said that one good way top read the Bible is to read the story and then analize it. Find ways that you can take the values and morals there and apply them to your daily life. It is one of the best ways, I've found, to remember and utilize what you read and learn in the Bible.

Don't worry, we're here for you and I'm sure that there are believers around you who would be glad to help you. When you stand with another believer when your struggling it is SO much easier to defeat and overcome it. I'm here if I can do anything let me know.

 

[AlikhnKwizad]

I have a question for you...

Do you really UNDERSTAND why there is a Messiah...?

When I was growing up my grandparents took me to church all the time. In sunday school they drilled into our head "Accept Jesus as your savior & you will be a Christian & go to heaven." And that was it. They never explained what that meant. It was treated almost like a formula for going to heaven... 'say these words, be a good little kid, keep yourself clean & you will go to heaven. Remember, Jesus loves you.'

Honestly, it made me sick. I knew G-d exisited. I felt within my spirit that there was truth to the whole 'Jesus' thing... But I also felt that these people were REALLY missing something. Something BIG.

As I got older I began to study the Word of G-d by myself. I was not satisfied with what the preacher or sunday school teacher had to offer. And in my seeking, I found a personal relationship with the creator of the universe. I found out what the POINT of Messiah is all about. That made a big difference.

You know, Christian TV just didn't do it for me. And I really don't like most "christian" music. But for some people, it helps.

I listened to talk radio, and some good preachers on the christian radio... and I prayed that G-d would lead me to the right church, to deep thinking believers who could mentor me... And G-d did. He lead me where I needed to go... where I could gain the most wisdom... and sometimes I was VERY much alone. And it was during those "alone" times, those times of seeking that G-d deepened me.

So don't take this as a crisis in faith... but walk through it... like Israel in the desert. Pray to HaShem for guidance, wisdom, peace, understanding... and He will give you all that and more. But you might have to survive on just manna... His Word. You might be refreshed by spiritual water from a hidden or unexpected source... Keep walking. You will be tempted... you will want to go 'back to Egypt'... you may doubt your calling as a chosen one of G-d... but keep walking. You will reach the place of rest, and fullness that you desire. You must TRUST that G-d knows what He's doing with you. Read His word- Hear it, Understand it, Do it. 'Shema' it. G-d's word is Life.

People have their opnions of who you are. They will try to tell you who they think you ought to be. Listen, kindly nod your head, and then go to G-d for the answer.

Can you find another job? I know working at a place you hate is REALLY tough.

Last of my 2 cents... It's ok to feel emotion. Vent your feelings to G-d... EVERYTHING... He's big, He can handle it. Then ask Him to give you HIS perspective on the situation. Ask Him to help you work through this rough period in your life. Don't condemn yourself... just accept that you are human, you have imperfections... and strive to know G-d & stay in His will. Repent, and keep on walking...
Shalom!

 

[dvd_holc]

Nilahk81 !

 

[Pele]

I thought for a bit I was a Christian, then I realized nope not sure whats going on with my belief's right now. This is what I know:
1.) I believe with my heart (I think ) that Jesus Christ died for my sins.
2.) I believe that you have to belive in him and his ressurection to you know be saved.
3.) ?????
4.) I am a christian.

I think I am missing a step or something because I have no desire to go to church, read the bible or anything anymore. I used to have a desire to listen to a christian music station, and now I turn it to some rock station. I used to watch some good quality christian television, now all I watch is junk tv. I used to read the bible a bit, but now have no desire too. I used to pray every night, and now feel its useless.

So many people tell me how well at least they think I am a christian, but then deep down I am so sad, because I know I am not. I have no desire for the word, nor do I have a childlike behaivor. I read from something that some are destined to not hear the word, and turn their hearts naturally from it and be unsaved for ever. They were just born that way thats how I feel. I usually cry myself to sleep about it.

And I feel like such a failure at my life. Stuck in a bad job, which going into the store makes my blood boil . I can't even be happy at my job, even when I try my hardest. I am going to be 19 soon, and still feel so alone.

Any advice would be good?

Hey Mike,

I've been there man. I was one of those people that used to love to Damn God all the time. I was cursing all the time, didn't believe that there was a God, and was all together just a mess. I had a problem with going to church since I was a child because folks weren't living examples around me that were supposedly worshiping God. My mother is Mormon and my Dad is Catholic... you could just imagine what us kids were going through huh... LOL. I'm grateful to God that I endured what I had to endure as a child because it's matured me as a young woman and now a saved Christian. (btw- I still love and honor my parents no matter what the circumstances were in the past, out with the old and in with the new in Christ Jesus) You can't base things of God from things of man, understand? Plus, are you in a church that's spiritually feeding you? You know a sheep (you) that can't eat from the shephard (bishop/pastor/minister) will die (spirit). Pray and ask God to show you a church that you can eat from and be spiritually fed, enriched with His Word. Don't let your faith fail you man, pray to God, and speak to Him like you were speaking to one of your homeboys. One on one talk - be REAL. God is a REAL God so when you talk to Him, BE REAL. Don't get on your knees with no "religious spirit" *soft voice* "O Father, blah blah blah" when in reality you want to CRY OUT "FAAATTTHHHEEERRRRR, I'M A MESS FATHER, PLEASE HELP ME LORD!" So be real, He already knows.
We're all a mess whether Christian or not, that's why we turn to Him... to make us less of a mess and to help guide us throughout our days.

You will be lifted in my prayers Mike and just know you are NOT alone. Jesus DID die for your sins in Calvary, and with His stripes you are healed my friend. God can do all except for lie.

It's not on your time, my time, anyones time it's on His appointed time.

Plus, you won't succeed unless you participate, for example Bible Study, take time out to read His Word (I suggest a Nelson Study Bible New King James Version, and Strong's concordance/lexicon) or Prayer Nights/Morning with the membes @ your church (Body of Christ)

And another thing, guide your ears... check ur music/tv time. Faith is from hearing and hearing from His Word. Play some Christian music (Gospel, Christian Rock, or what have you, etc), Pray, and go to lunch with someone from your church (network).

Keep asking God okay... If you have not, it's because you ask not... so keep asking away (knock-knock-knocking)...
Alrighty then...Give it your very best Mike and let God take care of the rest.
God bless you Mike and may He shine His face upon you this day.

Peace and Blessings,
Pele

 

[lilmissmontana]

Wow! This question so touched my heart! There was a time in my life not so long ago where I realized no matter what I did or thought or believed I could never seem to have enough faith. I used to think How do you just have faith. One would think that would have a simple answer. I have to tell you those months were long, scary, lonely, and depressing. I searched and searched for the answer in the bible. I would get so frustrated. I cried alot. But I'll tell you what! God says seek him and he WILL be found. Okay, so, things started changing. And one day my daughter called me and we were talking and I said to her. I just don't get how you have enough faith. She chuckled and said. Mom, you pray for it! Like I said. You would have thought that answer would have been easy to find. So I started praying faithfully every day and every day I got stronger and stronger. Of course, eventually all was going well and I started missing a day here and there. Sure enough. I started getting more and more insecure in my beliefs. Only I didn't see it right away. What a waste of time those days were! If I'd kept praying there would never have been that issue. I try never to cease praying. And you'll be tested. You can be sure but that's the time to really pray. I truly believe that is the answer to this letter. My spiritual life and strength grow steadily with prayer. When I get lax there is never a time when things one by one start growing worse. I guess I would say that prayer becomes you're lifeline. But I can honestly say one thing I know for sure is it won't let you down. Even when you don't like the answer. In fact that is usually the time when what ever you might have done the worse damage to your life - you don't even get a shot at trying. God takes charge. You know those times, it doesn't matter what you do it just doesn't work. But if you look back later down the road you can totally see thank God we didn't have our way there! I shudder to remember how much havoc was whirling around in my world before I became a disciplined prayer warrior. We take chances at all kinds of things in life. We diet for 30 days. Why not pray faithfully for 30 days and see. Just a thought. belle

 

[PassthePeace1]

I think I am missing a step or something because I have no desire to go to church, read the bible or anything anymore. I used to have a desire to listen to a christian music station, and now I turn it to some rock station. I used to watch some good quality christian television, now all I watch is junk tv. I used to read the bible a bit, but now have no desire too. I used to pray every night, and now feel its useless.

Mike, it is important that we remove ourselves for things that distract us from God. Listening to worldly music, TV shows, in our day and age can easly tempt someone to sin. Our sins can lead us away from God, and the blessing He has for us. It is important that we keep ourselves surround by things that remind us of Jesus!

When we become distracted and start living a more worldly life, and grow cold to prayer, going to church, and bible study, red flags should be going off that something is wrong. I think this is what you are discerning now, and why you feel the way you do...the Holy Spirit is trying to lead you back home.

So, what's to do...admit your sins to God, and ask for forgiveness, ask for more strenght in order to lead a Christian life....and start praying, and reading your bible. You still might not feel like it at first, but God will bless you and let you know your back on the right track.

And turn the channel on your tv and radio!

So many people tell me how well at least they think I am a christian, but then deep down I am so sad, because I know I am not. I have no desire for the word, nor do I have a childlike behaivor. I read from something that some are destined to not hear the word, and turn their hearts naturally from it and be unsaved for ever. They were just born that way thats how I feel. I usually cry myself to sleep about it.

It you were one of this people, you wouldn't even be worried about if you were saved or not. You just need to put Jesus back first in your life, if this is hard for you, pray, pray and kept praying for help.

And I feel like such a failure at my life. Stuck in a bad job, which going into the store makes my blood boil . I can't even be happy at my job, even when I try my hardest. I am going to be 19 soon, and still feel so alone.

You are not alone, first you have Jesus with you...second many people have gone thru what you have gone thru..it might help to read some books about there struggles.

I will say a prayer for you...Peace be with you ...Pam

 

[chilehed]

Mike,

I understand completely.

Christian faith is an act of the will by which we turn away from sin and toward God regardless of how we feel. He understands our human weaknesses and is ready to give us the grace to perform the obedience of faith.

As a Catholic I believe that Christ instituted a number of physical means by which special graces are given to us; among these are Baptism, Confirmation, Confession, and Eucharist. Not mere symbols, these are efficacious in infusing us with the grace of God. They mark us as His children, fall upon our aversion to sin and elevate us, strengthen and deepen the supernatural life that exists in our souls, and cure our souls of the weariness and coldness toward the things of God.

 

[WickedServant]

I thought for a bit I was a Christian, then I realized nope not sure whats going on with my belief's right now. This is what I know:
1.) I believe with my heart (I think :scratchthat Jesus Christ died for my sins.
2.) I believe that you have to belive in him and his ressurection to you know be saved.
3.) ?????
4.) I am a christian.

I think I am missing a step or something because I have no desire to go to church, read the bible or anything anymore. I used to have a desire to listen to a christian music station, and now I turn it to some rock station. I used to watch some good quality christian television, now all I watch is junk tv. I used to read the bible a bit, but now have no desire too. I used to pray every night, and now feel its useless.

So many people tell me how well at least they think I am a christian, but then deep down I am so sad, because I know I am not. I have no desire for the word, nor do I have a childlike behaivor. I read from something that some are destined to not hear the word, and turn their hearts naturally from it and be unsaved for ever. They were just born that way thats how I feel. I usually cry myself to sleep about it.

And I feel like such a failure at my life. Stuck in a bad job, which going into the store makes my blood boil I can't even be happy at my job, even when I try my hardest. I am going to be 19 soon, and still feel so alone

Any advice would be good?

Hi, Mike

I understand your problem. Keep in mind that the following is my opinion, and also keep in mind that what works for one person not always works for another. (Just a quick nudge from me to you; I think it best to leave the question of people being destined for salvation/ruination on the shelf for now, you will be able later to refute that. Might as well say if one is destined to walk over to the store at such-and-such a time and get a gallon of milk, sitting down will also accomplish this.)

Enough about that; life is about the here and now.

You have no desire to go to church...

That's fine, and I'm sure that I understand; I feel like that all the time, especially last year when my mother passed away. (Lord have mercy) There are days, even weeks, that I do not desire to eat, but my stomach tells me I need nourishment wether or not I feel like it or will at the time enjoy it.

It takes many things for a car to run well and efficiently. Being not a mechanic, I know very little about most of these things. I DO know that commonly a car needs electricity, oil, and gas. The human body could be compared to the car in this manner, needing multiple things at once to run well and efficiently.

We have needs. We need to be fed, we need to be rested, and we need to be loved. There are parts of the machine of the human body that give warning when we are not meeting certain needs we have. Sometimes intellect can get in the way, and must be put aside by common sense which tells that something is wrong and it had better be addressed sooner than later. From a part of your body, this same warning is being sent to you.

Christians are in the know when it comes to certain needs of the body, having a history explaining how at one time there was an example of the human body running quite well and efficiently, and what went wrong with it.

In the past I have found myself not going to church (which is mostly where I find fellow believers in Christ) for days, weeks, even months, and after a time began to recognize the pattern of falling into poor running condition, far from well and efficient. I have many unbelieving friends, and though I love them, and the reverse is usually true, we do not share the common ground of loving Christ. This will always cause difficulty over time, not in them, but in us.

Within us is a need to love God, to connect with Him on a regular basis, and to do so together. I recommend going back to church, even if all you feel you get the first few times is a little bit of knowledge here and there. You have everything to gain and much to lose.

I hope you are helped in some way by my own experiences in suffering this way, that we can be well together.

If you do not feel connected at the church(es) you used to go to, and no one greets you there, please post your home state/city/zip code and I will recommend one or two you can go to where people will recieve you.

You are in my prayers.

Bless me

 

[WickedServant]

Just had to say that, for when I was in the same position as Mike, it was the Christians, the fellow believers, and their love, even just their attempts to help, that once again showed me God's love...

The body of Christ is a wonderful thing

Bless me

 

[MidnightBlue]

IStuck in a bad job, which going into the store makes my blood boil . I can't even be happy at my job, even when I try my hardest. I am going to be 19 soon, and still feel so alone.

Any advice would be good?

Working in retail is enough to depress any but the very cheeriest of people. Eighteen is a good age to change directions, think about what kind of job would be better suited to you, and start getting the necessary education or training for that job. Even if you can't leave your present job for a while, you might find that working towards a goal of something better helps to make it more bearable.

Best wishes in all your endeavors!

 

[mikef14020]

Thank you for all the posts and reading this topic. I will read them all thorougly, and will probaly read my bible tonight, and pray. Actually take out the probally and just have will do.