- Oct 14, 2012
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I have struggled my same sex attractions since I was a kid, and have had ups and downs over the years. Consequently I get extremely nervous around any guy I have not known for a long time. Now being in college, that is my everyday reality. I feel this massive gap between me and my peers, and in my head I always either am constantly judging how the treat me to see if they think I am gay, or wondering if they want to sleep with me. While neither is probably true(except for when my friends boyfriend came on to me), I still have this incoherent feeling of being separate or less of a man than they are. I have never told anyone my struggles, and the one time I tried to, it turned into a year long back and forth of him trying to be in a relationship(I refused). How can I build up that trust in other guys and get past these past experiences?