Today. What wasn't clear became crystal clear. I have been trying to live as a christian by reading the bible praying and doing the right things. All of it was leaving me encouraged, yet empty. I would continue to try and fill this emptiness with bravado (lifting weights), listening to secular music, and pride. Just living in the world and being worldly. Being accepted, if you will. I knew the Lord would have no part of this, yet I pursued it hoping to feel better about myself. I was living a double life, but wasn't sure how to break the cycle. Fear of who I was in my double life was eating me alive! In my mind a major battle ensued. I thought I was truly losing it! So I told myself that I would follow Christ all day. I planed on seeking His advice with everyone I encountered, all that I would do, and to take every thought captive. What I experienced was a miracle!!! The Holy Spirit poured into my heart like the mighty mississippi. I knew the Holy Spirit of God was in me. I was evaluating people around me while being completely yielded to the Spirit. I was amazed not so much of what I could see, but what I couldn't see with my eyes. I could see through the Spirit another world right in front of me, an invisible world if you will. I am sooo humbled from the power of God, who has chosen me to see such things. I totally understand why God gave us Christ. This world is a fallen world. Very dark forces are at work in the minds of many. Strangers who belong to God, Shine. It was amazing me. God is very real and He loves us. We need to trust Him in all things.