"Trouble Praying"

[dellinw]

I may not be in the right place to post this, but I have been widowed for over 8 mo now. I really have trouble praying, I can read the bible and study, but the words will just not come to me. My husband of 43 yrs was a Godly man and lived for him. He was my "Soulmate". He was ill for several months and I was totally a caregiver, now I don't know who "me" is. This first year is sooo hard. Sometimes I wish I could just die and go be with him. Then, I think about my children and grandchildren and I know that I need to stay on this earth for awhile longer. Please pray for me as I am not able to pray for myself. God Bless
dellinw

 

[JeanR]

It was almost a year before I could pray, or even read my bible. I talked with my grief counselor about this. He said that that is very common for christians following the death of a spouse. He said that it really isn't the time to pray, it was the time to let God carry me. God knows us thoroughly and knows what is in our hearts. He will meet our needs and when we are ready to pray again, the words will be there. We need to grieve and not fight it.. God will stand by and be there with us.

 

[InHisCare]

I have found myself on many occasions being a little envious of my husband being with our Lord in heaven. No worries, no sickness, no pain. And here I am left to care for our three children, with bills to pay, decisions to make. It is hard to pray sometimes knowing that is was God's decision to call my husband home. For right now if you are unable to pray, just continue to read God's word and surround yourself with other believers. If you can, find a support group for widows (in person not just online). It's great to get a hug from someone who understands. In the meantime, just covet the prayers that are being prayed for you.