Trigger Warning: I have BPD

[Bluerose31]

I have BPD and I have suffered alot because of it. At times it is hard to be close to God because of how much I have suffered in my life but I am trying. Do others suffer with difficulty being close to God because of BPD?

 

[alsughasoughaiuyfygh]

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[Bluerose31]

I was suspected of having BPD but it's more likely to be C-PTSD due to the close similarities of the symptoms. I was never diagnosed because my parents saw no point in getting me diagnosed.

Either way, I do have trouble trusting God and His promises half the time because of how I was treated growing up and how many authority figures failed me throughout my life. Being constantly rejected and mistreated without understanding why really does a number on you.

God understands what goes on in your mind. Everything the psychology books say, God is the one who invented it. Don't worry, He cares for you and wants the best for you.

Thank you for this response I have difficulty from mistreatment as well. I am glad to have this site and people to talk to about it. It is difficult to trust God when there is so much suffering. I hope feeling safe with God feels easier for us both.

 

[alsughasoughaiuyfygh]

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[Bluerose31]

Years ago, I think I did need a diagnoses. A psychologist has told me that he saw some signs of C-PTSD but never did any diagnostics. That was years ago. Today, I'm doing a heck of a lot better since working my current job. The most effective way of treating C-PTSD is by having therapeutic relationships with patient people. My boss and co-workers were able t give me this and as a result I improved greatly. I'm not perfect but I am a lot more stable now.

I wouldn't self diagnose because some people can be hypochondriacs. I'd say get a professional to do so and then get the proper treatment. I suffer from Asperger's Syndrome and you wouldn't believe how many people out there self diagnose that disorder to use as a way of justifying their bad behavior.

That is wonderful that you have a good boss and co-worker to help you be more stable and improve. I have PTSD that I have talked with a doctor about but Ive not yet been formally diagnosed with BPD. I have most all the symptoms. Having good support does help alot and I am glad you are alot more stable. Have you been a Christian a long time?

 

[Far Side Of the Moon]

What is bpd?

 

[alsughasoughaiuyfygh]

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[Far Side Of the Moon]

Borderline Personality Disorder.

NIMH » Borderline Personality Disorder

Okay. I thought bipolar disorder,,, I'm why

 

[Kitty Cat]

I also have BPD and I suffered a lot as well. I almost lost my life a few times, but with God's help, I managed to figure out exactly what was causing each of my symptoms and how to manage them.

You don't have to be controlled by your illness for the rest of your life. Yes, we have triggers that make it very difficult but we can change how we respond to them by practicing better responses. What we practice grows stronger.

Over the years, we have been practicing responding to our triggers in unhealthy ways (unconsciously), and that's why they became so strong and automatic. If we practice reacting in a healthy way (by use of strategies), over time the healthier behaviours become stronger. That is the power of salvation. It is a process that helps us to overcome these obstacles.

Our physical health also affects our ability to think clearly and to have the energy we need to fight against all these symptoms.

And of course, reading the Bible and praying every day gives us the spiritual energy we need from God. The Holy Spirit gives us power and a sound mind:

"For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind." 2 Timothy 1:7

 

[Bluerose31]

I also have BPD and I suffered a lot as well. I almost lost my life a few times, but with God's help, I managed to figure out exactly what was causing each of my symptoms and how to manage them.

You don't have to be controlled by your illness for the rest of your life. Yes, we have triggers that make it very difficult but we can change how we respond to them by practicing better responses. What we practice grows stronger.

Over the years, we have been practicing responding to our triggers in unhealthy ways (unconsciously), and that's why they became so strong and automatic. If we practice reacting in a healthy way (by use of strategies), over time the healthier behaviours become stronger. That is the power of salvation. It is a process that helps us to overcome these obstacles.

Our physical health also affects our ability to think clearly and to have the energy we need to fight against all these symptoms.

And of course, reading the Bible and praying every day gives us the spiritual energy we need from God. The Holy Spirit gives us power and a sound mind:

"For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind." 2 Timothy 1:7

Thank you so much for your words and encouragement