tormentors

[dynamo2283]

hi I have been badly bullied all my life for the way I look and called names so I guess I started to hate people and the people who hurt me. so when I grew into my 20,s to take offence easily to what people said to me and I started to develop mental problems, alcohol problems and have not worked in over 5 years because of them. it is like god has thrown me to the tormentors for hating other people, I am just tormented of thoughts of what people said and done to me from different periods of my life. I cant control the thoughts or make them stop. so lately I have started praying for every person that ever wronged me, I have even started to talk to some of them, I confessed to god to forgive them for what they did to me and forgive myself for hating them, I pray for them daily and wish them the best and totally forgive them but when I stop praying for them its like the tormentors make me hate them again even though I really only want the best for these people and have forgiven them. also the only thing that relieves the torment is alcohol which I hate, cause I don't want to drink at all. its like if I drink the torments will go easier on me. I was just wondering if anyone could give me some advise or maybe someone else has gone through this before and might be able help me, thank you.

 

[thesunisout]

hi I have been badly bullied all my life for the way I look and called names so I guess I started to hate people and the people who hurt me. so when I grew into my 20,s to take offence easily to what people said to me and I started to develop mental problems, alcohol problems and have not worked in over 5 years because of them. it is like god has thrown me to the tormentors for hating other people, I am just tormented of thoughts of what people said and done to me from different periods of my life. I cant control the thoughts or make them stop. so lately I have started praying for every person that ever wronged me, I have even started to talk to some of them, I confessed to god to forgive them for what they did to me and forgive myself for hating them, I pray for them daily and wish them the best and totally forgive them but when I stop praying for them its like the tormentors make me hate them again even though I really only want the best for these people and have forgiven them. also the only thing that relieves the torment is alcohol which I hate, cause I don't want to drink at all. its like if I drink the torments will go easier on me. I was just wondering if anyone could give me some advise or maybe someone else has gone through this before and might be able help me, thank you.

It sounds like you need to be delivered. Do you know of any deliverance ministries in your area?

 

[dynamo2283]

yes I think I need deliverance too but there is no one in my area, I do self deliverance and feel good after but then its like the tormentors come back again. thanks for your reply

 

[ezeric]

"make me hate them again even though I really only want the best for these people and have forgiven them."

This is the carnal mind and the Mind of CHRIST.
Flesh and SPIRIT.

Ignore and resist the flesh...kill the pride by choosing love and forgiveness.
Tell the flesh "NO" and begin to see those tormentors as 'hurting themselves, that is why they hurt others; and fearful so they 'lash out'.

That is NOT you! You and them are NOT the same!

Knowing you all are 100% forgiven and loved by DADDY/FATHER.
Who is 'not counting man's sins against them'.

May you find HIS GRACE overtake you and give you new hope and joy, thus giving you power to reach out and make a difference to those (that are hurting) around you.
And this WILL happen...Amen...

-eric

 

[dynamo2283]

thank you very much for your reply eric, I am getting better slowly and hope to be free from this torment shortly, god bless you

 

[Gods warrior 1]

Hi Dynamo

In the name of Jesus I pray for your dear son that you would heal the wounds in his soul caused by others. I command all tormenting thoughts to leave him in Jesus name. Dynamo I am battling with tormenting thoughts too. God lead me to a website which will help you I believe and Jesus will set you free. Please google expectedendministries and watch the free teaching on the glory light of Jesus as well as blocked healing. In the name of Jesus I pray that Dynamo will be set free in Jesus name amen. Also please google who I am in Christ and declare these scriptures out loud a couple a times a day it will build your faith and how you see yourself. Please also read psalm
139. God Bless you

 

[CGL1023]

yes I think I need deliverance too but there is no one in my area, I do self deliverance and feel good after but then its like the tormentors come back again. thanks for your reply

You are the first one I have seen on CF mention self deliverance which I believe to be completely valid. From what you say, it looks to me as if you go into neutral (car analogy) a little too early. I believe you would be better off to go around poised to go on the offensive at the slightest hint of even the smallest attack. It would be like continually having the attitude, "don't even think about it, Satan." I do that at the first sign of a sniffle to nip it when it is small.
I think you are far along in your self-deliverance only don't let your guard down. Remember that our Covenant, the New Covenant, has given you all power over the enemy. Satan is right there to exploit any opening you give him but you don't have to give him any openings. Recall that you have the blood of Christ, the Holy Spirit, the Name of Jesus and your faith on your side. You can resist the devil and he must flee. Satan will soon be giving you a pass and moving on to easier prey.