too seriously overwhelming

[lisawc]

I got a call t'night.....from a very close friend of mine, who is like a brother to me [he even calls me his sis]......

He shared w/me how things were goin'......he's been struggling so much...an so hard......he had lost ev'rything.....an now he's tryin' to build back up.....

Well, in the midst of his conversation.....he had told me somethin' that knocked me to floor, per se........he 'claimed' he put a contract out on a man....which he blames for ruining his life.....and of course, my response was....."that's just insane!.....why?!?!?!....it's not right, ya know"

I dunno whether or not to take him seriously.....after all, he 'does' talk 90% cow talk....but right now.......I feel like I'm in a state of shock......

Myself, I struggle w/so many things.....and I'm not in the best of stability [mentally].....and since havin' my baby 6 mths ago....depression has hit me extremely hard....I haven't left the house.....and barely socialize w/my friends anymore......avoid people, altogether...................but w/this 'news' that he informed me of.....just tears me up inside......I wanna do the right thing.....an I'm torn.....so very torn inside.......questions are just boiling over in my mind......."what if he's not serious [cuz over half the time, it's "just talk"]......an if i report him, but it all turns out to be a lie?......I've ruined his life even further".....I will be talkin' to him again, t'morro.....but this is SUCH a TREMENDOUS burden on me......he has so much confidence in me......since I've never been one to blab other people's business......but THIS is very serious!......I've spent many nights....talkin' to him.....coaching him out of his depressive spells and away from suicidal thoughts......he's not a young person.....he's 40 yrs of age......so, I'm sooooooo beside myself right now......

T'morro.....I intend to get to the bottom of his statements......an if he insists he's being honest with me.....then I'm gonna hafta draw the line w/him.....an inform him that I can't tolerate, nor condone his intents.....and do my best to convince him that this is not the way........

Also.....I question his honesty, due to the fact that he mentioned a tremendous amount of money involved, of which I KNOW he doesn't have.....nor would he be able to get his hands on......'less he robbed a bank......but he's not one to really be capable of that.....an besides.....there hasn't been any news on bank robberies in our area........

Oh.....I feel so so VERY awful right now........


with love an sincerity,
lisawc.....sister in Christ

 

[lisawc]

i'm terribly sorry, if my post seems unbelieveably shocking......but I just didn' know where else to turn with this......my dear friend needs serious serious prayer.....and I pray the Lord changes his heart and mind.....as well as give me a peace of mind, that ev'rything's gonna be ok......I can't stop shaking......

I dunno if I'm thinkin' or doin' things right, right now.......ya know?

 

[lisawc]

this all sounds so crazy.....and I know how the internet is not always to be taken seriously......I'm quite the skeptic, myself.....I have such a hard time believing anybody, now-a-days.....I've seen people fake their lives, an even fake their own deaths......it baffles me to see people go to such lengths, all for attention.....

i'm quite angry w/my husband right now.......how can he sleep??? i know I sure can't......he knows 'M' as well as I do.....how can he be so content right now?!!?

i'm sorry.....for rambling....and i'm beginning to feel as tho, mebbe i shouldn't have ever mentioned anything, in the first place.....

i'm extremely worried 'bout 'M' and the man he has targeted.....and I feel so hopeless......my heart and mind are goin' a billion directions......

i tried praying just a few mins ago.....took a bath even, hopin' it'd calm my nerves......

I can't even focus on anything......and "if" 'M's" lying to me 'bout this......this was the cruelest thing he could've done to me......well, taking my children away would be crueler......but right now.....wut his s'posedly intents are for someone else, an then tellin' me about it, is just unbearable.....I can't deal w/this.......and i hate it......i hate that he feels the way he feels.......told me he's heartless and doesn't wanna love anymore.......told me that love hurts too much......an that he has no remorseful thoughts or considerations for wut he wants to do w/another man's life......i hate that!! now i'm growing angry.....

who do i have to talk to?......i feel like there's just not anybody out there...and definately not anyone who knows 'M', myself, and my family well enuff to know what we're dealing with......

i dunno......this just felt like a safe place to let go an get somethin' off my chest.....

 

[Quiet Storm]

Sorry, but what does "put a contract on a man" mean?

 

[lisawc]

oh....sorry for not bein' more specific......he was saying how he "apparently" paid someone to kill some guy whom he believes has ruined his life....

i just don't know whether or not to believe him.......he's not one to be very honest 'bout things.......and tends to "just babble" for attention......he suffers from depression and has to take medications for that, as well as for anger and anxiety.....

 

[Quiet Storm]

I think that in a case like this it is better to be safe than sorry. There have been a few times where I felt a pulling at my heart to do/say something, and when I didn't, what I thought what would happen did. Example: Although this isn't nearly as serious as someone killing someone else, I once had a dream that my friend was really distraught about something and when I woke up, I felt that I should call her, but brushed it off because I thought it'd be foolish to just call and say "are you alright?". The day afterwards, she called me and told me that the day before, she was going through something and wanted to talk to me about it. The way that I see it is the worst that can happen is you're wrong, and will have a peace of mind. The best that can happen is you're right, address it and will be used to prevent it, and you'll have a peace of mind you did the right thing. I strongly encourage you to talk to your husband about it and above all PRAY!!!!! I'll pray for you as well.

 

[A Sheep]

That must be very stressful. It's would be difficult for you to know if "M" is being serious with you about the contract or not, either way people are being hurt and/or going to be hurt.

I'll pray for you and your friend.

 

[lisawc]

I talked w/my husband 'bout our friend, this mornin'......he seems to think he's bluffing about it.......an told me that it was his gut instinct......I was too upset, during the night, to feel any sort of gut instinct of my own..... altho I did do a lot of praying.....and I was able to catch a nap this mornin'......now, I feel more at peace.......I'm startin' to feel the same gut instinct my husband has.....I feel bad that I brought this issue to anybody's attention......because things like this are rather serious...and if he's bluffing.....this very well may have upset and disturbed so many people, due to my discussion on the matter...

thank you, kind ones.....for your prayers and concerns....I'm goin' to get to the bottom of this an clear things up w/my friend 'M', this evenin'......I feel like slappin' the tar out of him, tho, and knockin' some sense into him.....he has too many issues w/in himself......and I've tried to help him seek help.

I've prayed an prayed an prayed for him, for quite some time......he's come a long ways, so far.....he's quit drinkin' [hasn't had a drink in a mth]....and his 'bisexual' lifestyle has changed [hasn't been sexually involved w/anybody in cpl of mths now].....he says he no longer desires those things anymore.....and has been wantin' to get his life back in touch w/God....

Please keep in your prayers, if you don't mind......along with ev'ryone else in the world...we all need prayers.....ev'ryone needs prayer.....this world has become a struggle, for ev'ryone, I'm sure.....

with love and sincerity,
lisawc - your sister in Christ

 

[Bruno]

Lisawc,

Please remember that anger will not solve anything. (Anger is one letter away from danger)

Love is the way!!!

 

[lisawc]

that's true.....an you're right......

again, i apologize to all, for overreacting.....

thank you and God Bless
with love and sincerity,
lisawc - sister in Christ

 

[carmen]

Dear Lisawc,

I have been in a simular situation with someone. First and most important
hand this over to God. Allow the Holy Spirit to be incontrol of your emotions
donot allow this person to have control of your emotions.
Second pray that your husband being your spiritual authority to submit
to will have the wisdom and knowledge of what to do. Also then if he is
concerned can therefore go to the pastor of your church to ask from someone who is given Spiritual Authority over you both. I strongly would recommend getting under your covering with this it is the only way to have protection
against anyone male or female that would have this kind of Spirit.

In my case the pastor was sought and it wasn't the first time the person
had done it to others. Trust God that God will work through your Spiritual
heads to resolve this. Pray for this person that they would put all of their
trust in him leaning on him to heal all their hurts and that they would have
a forgiving spirit to those that have cause hurt and offences.

 

[GraftMeIn]

I'll be keeping you all in my prayers Lisa, I would say you have very good reason to be concerned. It's hard to know when someone is bluffing about something like this or not. Just keep praying about it and the Lord will see you through.

 

[lisawc]

I dunno how to thank you all enuff......and tyvm Carmen for the advice....very well put, an very well taken.....ty....and I'll do that......

with love an sincerity,
lis' - your sister in Christ

 

[renee67]

Abba Father:  I give you thanks and praise for a concerned believer such as Lisa.  Bless her efforts to reach out to her friend in this sticky situation.  Help her to be an effective witness for the Kingdom.  Soften the heart of this man, who perhaps even in jest, speaks of harming another.  Convict him of his errors, and let his thoughts be turned towards the Rock of his salvation.  In Jesus name ... Amen!

YSIC, Lisa Renee

 

[wvmtnkid]

Praying for the situation lisa! I pray that your friend is just bluffing. I am concerned about someone who would actually even think about doing something like this. Please, keep you and your family safe.

 

[lisawc]

I talked w/my friend t'night.......he seemed to be in a better mood........and while tellin' me how his day went [again]......an how he had talked w/his ex gf....the discussion of this other man's life was brought up......he mentioned how he didn' have the money to do wut he was seeking out to do.....an that he "just might" [his words] do it himself.......I told him he was a better person than that, esp to sink to that low of a level, for revenge.....an then I proceeded to tell him to just let God take care of it......it's like the law of nature......"wut goes around, comes around"......God will do wut He see's fit.......he agreed.......but I'm still worried 'bout him.......he went out to go to a bar t'night......I was hopin' he wouldn't go back to drinkin' again......

anyway.......if you don't mind.......to keep him in your prayers......I intend to update on him.....I don't want him to give up on life [like he keeps tellin' me he's wants to do].......he's lost his home, his job, and his fiance' left him.......and w/that, it makes him feel worthless.....I try to use my words w/tact....an do my best to be compassionate and understanding....but it's hard to find the right words, that are uplifting.....he gets angry w/God, wondering why He's letting him go thru this.....it's just very hard to find the right words to say......I spend more time just 'listening' to him.....rather than talking.....I can tell he likes to get things off his chest.....but I wish I could say somethin' to make him feel better.....
he started a new job this week......but he's staying in a motel.....and the only thing he owns, are the clothes he has in two bags.....I know this is tuff on any person.....and I've noticed it seems to be harder on a man, than a woman, to hafta go thru somethin' like this......he keeps tellin' me he doesn't feel like a "complete man"......and since he suffers from depression....ev'rything is waying heavy on him......

If any one of you or someone you know, is struggling and/or suffering.....my heart, as well as my prayers, is w/you and them,......I just hate to see people struggle an suffer [from ANYTHING]......and wish an pray w/all my heart that ev'ryone is uplifted......if I could take on the burdens for ev'ryone, I'd do it in a heart beat....

anyway......thank you so much for the prayers....i truely appreciate that.....and they've really given me comfort......

with love,
your sister in Christ,
lisawc

 

[wvmtnkid]

I will pray for your friend Lisa. Sounds like he is in a tough place right now. Does he attend church? It sounds as though he could benefit from counseling from his pastor. That is a lot to happen to a person. I am sure he feels quite a burden. But I also think God has placed you as a good influence in his life at this time. I'll pray for you as well as you reach out to him.

 

[lisawc]

thank you soooooooooo much, wv......I'm forever grateful......

unfortunately, he doesn't attend a church.....but I'm tryin' to hook him up w/my therapist [he's a minister, as well as a therapist].....and I'm also tryin' to get him to go w/us to the support meetings our church provides....for those w/alcohol/substance abuse and disorders....I feel these areas would be a good start for him.....

 

[Blade]

Originally posted by lisawc
that's true.....an you're right......

again, i apologize to all, for overreacting.....

thank you and God Bless
with love and sincerity,
lisawc - sister in Christ

Hay Lisawc, if you can't turn to your family then who?