As I woke up this morning with my mind having about a thousand thoughts all at once, regret was one of them. I felt regret for having "wasted" so much of my life under depression: this includes not having formed meaningful relationships, not having challenged myself academically, not growing closer to my family, not having fun, etc. I felt the gloom and doom creeping over me once again. But as I started to pray for peace, another thought popped up. This one being more realistic, I think. I thought about not only forgiving myself for feeling this way about life, but also about being able to mature in the name of Christ. I seriously believe everything happens for a reason. Therefore, I think my experiences have value and worth. This is my story and thankfully this journey of suffering and pain has brought into the steps of a life in Christ. It has also taught me about my identity in Christ and not in this sinful world. I have come a long way. I have grown as I've gained wisdom...indeed I have matured. To me maturing means being able to recognize what has worked and what has not worked in your life. With this knowledge you are then able to rightfully decide to incorporate those things that are working for you slowly but surely on a daily basis. Maturation allows you to be grateful for all the good things in your life: family, friends that have stuck by your side through the good and bad, your education, etc. Being able to mature also means trusting the timing of your life and most importantly, trusting God. Trust God that He has your best interest and favor at hand. You have made the hardest and most precious decision of them all: recognizing and praising Jesus as your savior. Your best days are ahead, don't give up. Its all a matter of perspective. We are blessed and highly favored. Have a good day 
