Today started out okay for me. I got up and got ready for my early class and thought that today would be better than the past two depressing days that I have had. Things were going on fine until I checked my phone and read the last text messages that Karl sent an hour before he died. As I read them memories of us being silly together flood my thoughts and my heart began screaming at God with rage for taking my first love, my all. I realize that I have been hiding away from things that remind me of him, because then I won't have to face the fact that he is never coming home again. I keep asking why was God so cruel to take Karl from me. We had so many plans and hope and dreams. I know God has a purpose for everything, but I can't see it all!
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Today is a tough one
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noko, this is where your faith in God comes in. I know its hard and I'm so sorry, you are so young to have to face this trial. Just take one day at a time and trust in him. You will be in my prayers today. God Bless
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Dear Nyoko,
My heart was so broken when I read your post. I lost the love of my life almost 6 months ago (after 19 years of a wonderful marriage). I not only lost the joy of sharing my life with him, but had to give up all our hopes, dreams, plans together, and even my own identity as his wife. Through all this grieving I'm learning to accept that we aren't going to understand "why" in this lifetime, and that's okay. But someday God promises He will wipe every tear from our eyes -- that is our HOPE, eternal life without pain, grief, and suffering, and forever in the presence of our precious Savior, Jesus Christ. No matter how we FEEL, God never changes. So for today I pray God will bring you the comfort and strength you need. He promises that widows have a special place in His heart and that He is near to those who are brokenhearted. Fall at His feet, not afraid to scream and cry out loud all your doubts and questions. He loves you and cares for you, even when you can't feel His presence. I'll be praying for you.
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My heart was so broken when I read your post. I lost the love of my life almost 6 months ago (after 19 years of a wonderful marriage). I not only lost the joy of sharing my life with him, but had to give up all our hopes, dreams, plans together, and even my own identity as his wife. Through all this grieving I'm learning to accept that we aren't going to understand "why" in this lifetime, and that's okay. But someday God promises He will wipe every tear from our eyes -- that is our HOPE, eternal life without pain, grief, and suffering, and forever in the presence of our precious Savior, Jesus Christ. No matter how we FEEL, God never changes. So for today I pray God will bring you the comfort and strength you need. He promises that widows have a special place in His heart and that He is near to those who are brokenhearted. Fall at His feet, not afraid to scream and cry out loud all your doubts and questions. He loves you and cares for you, even when you can't feel His presence. I'll be praying for you.
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God allows these things, but remember that when sin entered this world it became a place where disease and sickness as well as old age take our loved ones from us. The true hope is that God sent His only Son to die for us and take our place so that we could live forever, He conquered death so that we who accept Him will live forever with our loved ones again. I too miss my wife dearly but I know that this separation is temporary and I will see her again soon. A day is as a thousand years and a thousand years is as a day when we are in heaven, so our loved ones wont even be getting started before we join them. I will pray for you as I do all of you who have lost loved ones, may God stregthen you and give you peace-
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Thanks for your words of comfort. In my head I know all that you are saying, but then my heart is another story. Last night when I went to where I am staying now, I showed someone his picture online and that got me very emotional. I realise that only God can take me through this so I really appreciate your prayer support.
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Hi there,
I recently lost my mother...today will be one week. We had to watch her suffer tremendously in the hospital for 3.5 weeks before she died. I have always had a very strong faith in God and I think that is what got me through this, and I too have been asking myself why....She was such a strong dedicated Christian woman who did not have much and never asked for much....
All I can lend from my experience is that your husband is now in Heaven ...in Paradise....closer to you than you can ever imagine. You WILL be with him one day again, and I am SURE that he would want nothing but your happiness and new life beginnings and healing. I have been praying for wisdom and strength from God to get me through this. I have also been reading the book of Job and Tuesdays with Morri to try to understand death. It has helped a bit, but I think talking with people like yourself who are going through loss too is more helpfull.
If I can do anything...lend an ear...grieve with you or heal with you, please let me know. You are in my prayers.
I recently lost my mother...today will be one week. We had to watch her suffer tremendously in the hospital for 3.5 weeks before she died. I have always had a very strong faith in God and I think that is what got me through this, and I too have been asking myself why....She was such a strong dedicated Christian woman who did not have much and never asked for much....
All I can lend from my experience is that your husband is now in Heaven ...in Paradise....closer to you than you can ever imagine. You WILL be with him one day again, and I am SURE that he would want nothing but your happiness and new life beginnings and healing. I have been praying for wisdom and strength from God to get me through this. I have also been reading the book of Job and Tuesdays with Morri to try to understand death. It has helped a bit, but I think talking with people like yourself who are going through loss too is more helpfull.
If I can do anything...lend an ear...grieve with you or heal with you, please let me know. You are in my prayers.
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Hi Outsidethebox,
God has been so faithful to me to provide tremendous support from friends, family, his word and this site. I have been told that the grieving process comes with highs and lows and right now I am feeling okay. Yesterday I went to the place where Karl died and sat on the seat where he collapsed. This was good for me because I felt as though I had started to really realise that he is gone from this world. I cried my heart out and it was good to have a friend there with me (who lost her husband three years ago). Before I have been hiding away from things that reminded me of him and just holding everything inside so this release provided some form of comfort.
Deep inside I know that God is in control and that he has a purpose for me even in this time. My desire is that I will submit myself to the Lord's will and cling to the destiny that he has for me.
Thanks for your words of comfort and you too are in my prayers. Please feel free to PM me or send me an email if you wish.
Blessings!
God has been so faithful to me to provide tremendous support from friends, family, his word and this site. I have been told that the grieving process comes with highs and lows and right now I am feeling okay. Yesterday I went to the place where Karl died and sat on the seat where he collapsed. This was good for me because I felt as though I had started to really realise that he is gone from this world. I cried my heart out and it was good to have a friend there with me (who lost her husband three years ago). Before I have been hiding away from things that reminded me of him and just holding everything inside so this release provided some form of comfort.
Deep inside I know that God is in control and that he has a purpose for me even in this time. My desire is that I will submit myself to the Lord's will and cling to the destiny that he has for me.
Thanks for your words of comfort and you too are in my prayers. Please feel free to PM me or send me an email if you wish.
Blessings!
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