Hello, last night I considered killing myself or rather hurting myself very badly. I was supposed to go into clinic but I was worried about college. I had messaged my academic adviser in case I did go into clinic. I have been diagnosed with BPD and PTSD. I reached out to Jesus last night, and he made a miracle happen. my academic adviser called, and told me not to go to class anymore. He said I was one post away from not being able to drop a class. I did not know I could do this, and I almost posted in class again last night but something stopped me. Now I am dropping a class that I probably would not have passed because my focus has been off sense my medication has not been stable(cannot afford it). He amazed me! Now I am not worried if I go into clinic because I don't have a chance to fail if I miss to many days, so I can get help without worrying. Also the dropped class is going to be fully paid for from outside services now! I am poor, so this is a great benefit. I wish I had reached out to Jesus earlier! Can you imagine one more post and this would not have been possible? The college also let me schedule a week off after I finish my other class. During that week I can seek more medical attention.