Today GOD is helping me

[peacechild4]

This is going to be different then most other posts here.. but hopefully also it might encourage someone else..

My husband and I have been married since we were 20 and 19.... had our first child at 21.. I was older.. a backslidden believer who married an unbeliever..

Married 18 years and he walked out in 2009...

We have had an up/down marriage for many many years.. raised five children lost a baby boy two months too..

I rededicated my life to GOD when I was 21... and have grown in faith ever since.. my husband started coming to church a bit.. but then stopped and has not come back.. becoming rather anti-God and now does not even acknowledge HE exists..

I have prayed for him ever since coming back to GOD.. in the last few years things got much worse.. and now he is living in his own house.. happily single..

It has been an extremely hard time coping as a single mother and also facing the break down of our marriage.. being with someone so long and hanging in there through much verbal and emotional abuse.. crying myself to sleep more times then I could count..

But slowly GOD has drawn me to HIMSELF.. and away from this man.. step by step.. and the messages I am hearing.. scriptures and such.. quotes.. a message anoymously through CF just today.. is that GOD has something better for me..

This morning my husband came to visit and we were able to make peace.. had a dreadful argument last weekend about the children... sigh.. very hurtful I do not like being angry with anyone.. and in front of kids.. so sad about that.. but we made peace today over that.. praise GOD..

He has been adament that our marriage was just a piece of paper and we were living our own lives anyway.. but I said you are still my husband.. I will honor you despite this.. He would not even consider anything said it did not matter..

Today though he came and we made peace and he said that he would begin divorce procedings.. I had the most amazing peace in my heart.. no fear.. no anger.. no sadness.. just joy sprung up and for many years even through the worst I would never ever ever have considered this...

It was a GOD thing.. I would have hung on and keep hanging on.. but GOD is leading me forward so I can heal and move on to a new direction..

I just want to praise GOD..

I want a man of GOD beside me.. I have always wanted that.. I am lonely and I need someone to help me raise our children.. I have peace.. and know GOD is with me.. please if you too are going through this.. I know how hard it is.. how much we want different things.. but GOD comforts us.. and even through the valley of the shadow of death HIS rod and staff they comfort us.. YES sometimes we have to go through but I know HE will be with me on the other side..

 

[selah139]

peace, thank you so much for this. It's so important for all of us, regardless of our issues in life, to remember who is on our side!!! To think that the Creator of the universe not only knows my name but LOVES me just blows my mind!

I had the BEST day I've had in months and owe it all to God and His amazing love and goodness. I'm in a similar situation that you were in as far as my husband not being a serious believer. I crave a marriage that honors God but don't have it (yet...??) I wrote just a while back that I was confused and not feeling the peace I usually do. Well, things have smoothed out some and the peace is back. I should say, the peace returned...then things smoothed out. ANYWAY, God is awesome.

Perhaps your peace will become an irresistable fragrance to your husband? Wouldn't that be wonderful? God bless you, peace. Thanks again for these uplifting words!!

 

[peacechild4]

Thank for your responding.. I really hope so sis.. We have a good FATHER don't we.. who wants the best for us.. just like a human father would.. GOD richly bless you..

So very very glad you had a good day.. the best day you have had in months.. praise GOD..

 

[FaithPrevails]

My prayers for you have been on-going, peacechild. I am glad to learn that you have peace in your heart about all of this. I know it's been a long, difficult road for you.

&

 

[peacechild4]

My prayers for you have been on-going, peacechild. I am glad to learn that you have peace in your heart about all of this. I know it's been a long, difficult road for you.

&

Thank you so much.. your prayers are very very precious to me.. as is your response and care..

You know the amazing thing about this.. GOD can still work through this man.. LOL..

He is away for the week fishing with one of our sons.. I was a bit put out.. he was flashing money around before he went.. and I have been struggling all week with little money.. I did speak to him about it.. but then repented because I realize I have to look to GOD now not my husband..

Anyways he kindly gave me his house key.. I will bring in his mail while he is away but he has said I can use his internet and computer for the week while he is away.. wow.. I don't have internet... for some reason hard to pick up where I live?? Anyway this is a very good thing he did for me... he does trust me.. and he didn't have to do this..

I just praise GOD.. focus on the good things.. and leave my future to GOD..

 

[FaithPrevails]

That's awesome.

 

[peacechild4]

Yes it is.. I just listened to an awesome sermon with text on it.. hallelujah!!!