To learn about Jesus

[thisduckthatluck]

I just read elsewhere that "Jesus is not waiting to stomp you with some holy boot". Do you think this applies to everyone? I mean, if you're getting pleasure from hurting others, then there's something wrong inside of you, and you need help, right?

That's not my problem, and I thank God for that.

However, I believe Jesus empathizes so much with everyone, except me. I think I have PTSD and I know I have schizoaffective, which is bi-polar PLUS schizophrenia. It hurts to live a lot of the time, emotionally and physically. It's hard for me to believe in a loving God when I am under stress.

I have a psychiatric doctor and some case workers that are working with me. I am going to try to find a therapist ASAP. I do not have a church nor have I been in awhile, because I thought my appearance prohibited me from it. Now, that belief is changing, and my appearance is being addressed too (thank God!!!). I have tattoos on my face, ugly stuff. It's hateful. I got it worked on last night, but it didn't come out right. So I'm going to try again today. I think maybe this time it will be a success.

So what can I tell myself to know Jesus loves me? I know He rose from the dead. I know He died on the cross for everyone. But I don't believe He loves me, and to be honest, I blame Him for much of the way my life has gone. My dad died of alcoholism. There have been other things. I have this mental illness. How do I let go of the blame and let Jesus embrace me or let me embrace Him, whichever it is, especially in the midst of suffering?

Thanks for reading,
R

 

[ForJesusChrist]

Jesus will only love you if you love him and believe in him with all of your heart.

 

[1watchman]

You need to never challenge God, but believe on Him and receive His beloved Son --the Lord Jesus into your heart to be saved and blessed. Those who are not "born again" by faith in Christ will perish and be cast in Hell when they leave this world. Be sure of your salvation, friend!

As to your mental health condition, one should realize that most of us are born with some physical or mental imperfections (because of sin in the nature of man from the beginning of mankind). Not many people are born in perfect condition, and we must accept our place, trust God and honor Him. Everyone of us can honor God and be a bright testimony for Him if we will. God says: "them that honor Me, I will honor". There are rewards for being faithful while here in this life.

 

[Bjornke]

Many are born with defects, and are still called to greatness.

Moses couldn't talk correctly / properly. Yet he lead Israel out of Egypt.

David struggled with lust and depression. Yet he still ruled, and Christ was born of David's linage.

God has a habit of calling the least to the greatest. Don't let your mental or physical imperfections prevent you from doing the great works of God.

It sounds like you may need to forgive yourself, and God. I know how hard forgiveness can be, and it's truly something you have to work on, and pray about.

But whatever you do, don't lose faith and don't believe you can't go to church because of appearances. The past is not who you could be today, or tomorrow.

Look up to heaven, and don't be afraid to ask for help, and cry. An honest man's moans and cries are sometimes a better praise then the righteous man's praise.

Trust God, and see, that He loves you.

 

[thisduckthatluck]

Many are born with defects, and are still called to greatness.

Moses couldn't talk correctly / properly. Yet he lead Israel out of Egypt.

David struggled with lust and depression. Yet he still ruled, and Christ was born of David's linage.

God has a habit of calling the least to the greatest. Don't let your mental or physical imperfections prevent you from doing the great works of God.

It sounds like you may need to forgive yourself, and God. I know how hard forgiveness can be, and it's truly something you have to work on, and pray about.

But whatever you do, don't lose faith and don't believe you can't go to church because of appearances. The past is not who you could be today, or tomorrow.

Look up to heaven, and don't be afraid to ask for help, and cry. An honest man's moans and cries are sometimes a better praise then the righteous man's praise.

Trust God, and see, that He loves you.

Thank you. This is what I needed. I am going to save your words to a text file.

 

[toastwithbutter]

I do believe I can't go to church because of my appearance. I have VERY visible tattoos (on my face). I could easily tempt someone weak in the faith, well, I could be used to tempt someone. So, I have got to be in this solitude.

 

[ForJesusChrist]

I do believe I can't go to church because of my appearance. I have VERY visible tattoos (on my face). I could easily tempt someone weak in the faith, well, I could be used to tempt someone. So, I have got to be in this solitude.

If you are at the right church, no one should judge you for who you are on the outside!

Good luck and

God Bless

 

[sunshineforJesus]

Many are born with defects, and are still called to greatness.

Moses couldn't talk correctly / properly. Yet he lead Israel out of Egypt.

David struggled with lust and depression. Yet he still ruled, and Christ was born of David's linage.

God has a habit of calling the least to the greatest. Don't let your mental or physical imperfections prevent you from doing the great works of God.

Thanks so much,I needed that