Tired of being sad and scared

[Angeleyes7715]

Feeling sad scared and alone this morning and last night. I listened to scripture a little while and prayed in my head it helped a little, but then I remember I live in this world and depression and fear cof me back. I battle self destructive thoughts constantly. I am on Zoloft 100mg my psychiatrist just increased my dose about 3 to weeks ago from 50mg guess it helps but does nothing for this anxiety. Feel like the older I get more bad will keep happening. It's so bad I don't have energy to interact with other people because im too busy feeling miseable and scared. Sometimes I just want to shut myself off from everyone and everything and wait for the world to end so I won't have to care about anything. My existence feels so forced and it's not the existence I want.

 

[eleos1954]

Feeling sad scared and alone this morning and last night. I listened to scripture a little while and prayed in my head it helped a little, but then I remember I live in this world and depression and fear cof me back. I battle self destructive thoughts constantly. I am on Zoloft 100mg my psychiatrist just increased my dose about 3 to weeks ago from 50mg guess it helps but does nothing for this anxiety. Feel like the older I get more bad will keep happening. It's so bad I don't have energy to interact with other people because im too busy feeling miseable and scared. Sometimes I just want to shut myself off from everyone and everything and wait for the world to end so I won't have to care about anything. My existence feels so forced and it's not the existence I want.

No doubt we live in a world of a lot of terrible things ... try and focus on positive things, no matter how small. If you keep doing this every day pretty soon it will become more your norm.

Philippians 4:6-7 do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Matthew 6:25-27 “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?”

You are Gods child and so important to Him. He will go through all your trials with you and He is with you always.

May the Lord bring you peace in your heart. Amen

God Bless.

 

[Tolworth John]

I don't have energy to interact with other people because im too busy feeling miseable and scared. Sometimes I just want to shut myself off from everyone and everything and wait for the world to end so I won't have to care about anything. My existence feels so forced and it's not the existence I want.

Sometimes the hardest thing is to get out and get busy.
Please see if you can volunteer somewhere or find a part time job where you can be active.

One of the worst things anyone can do is to think about how sad and unhappy they are.
If you can't find work, concentrate on counting your blessings, the good things in your life.

Go for a walk and take pictures of the world, of anything lovely.

If the news worries you, don't watch, listen or read about it.

 

[Porpoise]

Feeling sad scared and alone this morning and last night. I listened to scripture a little while and prayed in my head it helped a little, but then I remember I live in this world and depression and fear cof me back. I battle self destructive thoughts constantly. I am on Zoloft 100mg my psychiatrist just increased my dose about 3 to weeks ago from 50mg guess it helps but does nothing for this anxiety. Feel like the older I get more bad will keep happening. It's so bad I don't have energy to interact with other people because im too busy feeling miseable and scared. Sometimes I just want to shut myself off from everyone and everything and wait for the world to end so I won't have to care about anything. My existence feels so forced and it's not the existence I want.

Sorry you're going through this, it sounds awful. I also struggle with depression and having no energy to do the things I used to be able to do. But remember that God loves you, even like this, and he'll never abandon you. Even in the deepest pits of depression, he is with you. He knows the number of hairs on your head. He wove you together in your mother's womb. He takes good care of us, even in the times when we can't see it. When we're suffering like this, sometimes our inclination is to shut down and close ourselves off from God, maybe even doubt his love for us or that he'll be there enough for us, but it's times like these when we can reach out and draw closer to him. I'm praying for you. If you ever need someone to talk to, feel free to message me.

 

[John Bowen]

Try this instead cause what you are doing now isn't working .Say your prayers out loud with conviction to give them authority . God didn't think God said " Let there be light ! " Call to Archangel Michael for protection he battles the devil .Fear depression is a projection of the devil. Realize meds will just mask over your problems . By getting therapy you are actually dealing with your beliefs that cause you fear .You look at the beliefs one at a time through therapy and see they aren't real and dismiss them .Fear is just a illusion Jesus told us to "Fear not "

 

[Basil the Great]

There are many ways to fight depression. The best method that I have found is to find some way to help others in need. You could volunteer at your local hospital or a homeless shelter or a food pantry. You might rather do some work to help a disabled or elderly neighbor or a shut-in member of your local church? If none of this is possible, then try and give some money each month to a charity that helps those in need. May God help you to see that every day is a gift and that we must do our best to fight the good fight every day.

 

[Jeshu]

So sorry to hear how you are are struggling down there. It is about establishing good things in our hearts instead of bad ones. So consider practising love, kindness, long suffering, gentleness, compassion, caring and sharing. Endeavour to love those who are hurting whatever the cause. Pray for those who are hurting.

God is serious when He says what you sow you shall harvest - so please fight your depressive thoughts with God's promises and see for yourself that faith in God''s love makes us strong and rebuilds us much better equipped to fight depression.

Please understand that rebuilding ourselves takes time, so expect depression to fight back hard against any attempt to break free from its power, but know that Jesus will build you stronger yet. Try keep focussed on Jesus and the truth of His words and focus away from yourself. i know very hard to do when we are depressed but well worth while.

Each time you have a victory with Jesus you will become stronger than you were before.

Be of good courage.

 

[Angeleyes7715]

Sometimes the hardest thing is to get out and get busy.
Please see if you can volunteer somewhere or find a part time job where you can be active.

One of the worst things anyone can do is to think about how sad and unhappy they are.
If you can't find work, concentrate on counting your blessings, the good things in your life.

Go for a walk and take pictures of the world, of anything lovely.

If the news worries you, don't watch, listen or read about it.

I have 3 jobs... I don't have the depression where I sleep all day. My depression and anxiety is worsened by feminine monthly cycle and at night. I think part of it is serious grief over losing family too. I've had 2 family members die around the holidays and my mom's in a rehab facility sickly so I'm worried I'll lose her and my grandpa and dad soon too. I feel like I can't handle it. I don't want to be in this world without them. I don't tell my family these things because I feel dumb and it's embarrassing to care but I do care and I'd rather be gone myself then lose anyone else and be stuck in this terrible life alone.

Sometimes the hardest thing is to get out and get busy.
Please see if you can volunteer somewhere or find a part time job where you can be active.

One of the worst things anyone can do is to think about how sad and unhappy they are.
If you can't find work, concentrate on counting your blessings, the good things in your life.

Go for a walk and take pictures of the world, of anything lovely.

If the news worries you, don't watch, listen or read about it.

 

[Tempura]

I'm sorry you're going through all that. Said a prayer for you, for peace to come your way and into your heart. One day at a time.

 

[Porpoise]

I have 3 jobs... I don't have the depression where I sleep all day. My depression and anxiety is worsened by feminine monthly cycle and at night. I think part of it is serious grief over losing family too. I've had 2 family members die around the holidays and my mom's in a rehab facility sickly so I'm worried I'll lose her and my grandpa and dad soon too. I feel like I can't handle it. I don't want to be in this world without them. I don't tell my family these things because I feel dumb and it's embarrassing to care but I do care and I'd rather be gone myself then lose anyone else and be stuck in this terrible life alone.

Sorry you've had to go through the loss of your family members, especially around the holidays. And to have family members in poor health right now as well must be so hard to deal with.

It's okay to feel sad and grieve, there is nothing to be embarrassed about. But also try not to trust your feelings. Sometimes your feelings will tell you you're alone, no one cares, that things won't get better, that something bad is going to happen, etc. Sometimes feelings even tempt us to despair, to distrust God or be angry at him, to think he's not there for you and won't get you through this. But that's so far from the truth!

And I know it's really hard to manage these feelings when we have depression, it can make these moods just seem to take over out of nowhere. I think even if we can't snap out of it, even if it were all biological (so many theories out there about what causes depression - who knows), we can still try to fight it and resist what it's doing to our mind and will. We have to fight back, right? And we can do that because God is our rock, our strength, and our helper. I think he doesn't want us to run away when things get tough or when we are feeling low, but to lean on him all the more.

Death will not deliver you from your troubles. It is God who delivers. "When the righteous cry for help, the Lord hears and delivers them out of all their troubles. The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit. Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the Lord delivers him out of them all." (Psalm 34:17-19) He won't leave you alone in your depression and grief. He may or may not cure depression, but he'll be there with comfort and support, he'll sustain you. "Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me." (Psalm 23:4)

I heard some really good advice once, at least it was helpful for me. The person said she also struggled with depression and what helped her was to basically rewire her thinking to be in line with her faith. She used a book about God's promises to do this. It's kind of like cognitive behavioral therapy in the sense that she was changing her thoughts in order to heal her depression. I personally find that prayer books and inspirational readings can help lift me out of a low mood at times. Anyways, maybe you can try things and find what works for you?

 

[whereloveandmercymeet]

I think part of it is serious grief over losing family too. I've had 2 family members die around the holidays and my mom's in a rehab facility sickly so I'm worried I'll lose her and my grandpa and dad soon too. I feel like I can't handle it. I don't want to be in this world without them. I don't tell my family these things because I feel dumb and it's embarrassing to care but I do care and I'd rather be gone myself then lose anyone else and be stuck in this terrible life alone.

I think that’s quite a common response to going through such loss. Especially if you already had depression. I don’t know if it’s properly linked to the grieving process or not (you’d have to ask someone who really knows that stuff from a proper psychology POV) but it certainly felt a bi my like that to me. I lost 3 close family members in 4 years. (Mum, first child (stillborn), dad) and I remember the huge fears I had for a while after that I was going to lose the rest of my family too. It went in time but still creeps up around the time of their death.

Talking to my grandma really helped me, and her I think but I felt in a position to do that. Have you a good friend you can talk to about it if you don’t want to talk to family? It’s not dumb and they won’t think it is either.

I also had bereavement counciling (not with a Christian councillor but someone who was very respectful and understanding of my faith) and I found that really helpful in not thinking that those thoughts and feelings were invalid, but also learning to lose the anxiety over them. Is that something that might help you?

I also found Jeremiah 29:11 really helpful when I was feelin really bad. Still do actually. (Sorry I have no idea how to cleverly do the scripture linky).

I’ll keep you in my prayers especially through the holidays.

 

[Angeleyes7715]

I think that’s quite a common response to going through such loss. Especially if you already had depression. I don’t know if it’s properly linked to the grieving process or not (you’d have to ask someone who really knows that stuff from a proper psychology POV) but it certainly felt a bi my like that to me. I lost 3 close family members in 4 years. (Mum, first child (stillborn), dad) and I remember the huge fears I had for a while after that I was going to lose the rest of my family too. It went in time but still creeps up around the time of their death.

Talking to my grandma really helped me, and her I think but I felt in a position to do that. Have you a good friend you can talk to about it if you don’t want to talk to family? It’s not dumb and they won’t think it is either.

I also had bereavement counciling (not with a Christian councillor but someone who was very respectful and understanding of my faith) and I found that really helpful in not thinking that those thoughts and feelings were invalid, but also learning to lose the anxiety over them. Is that something that might help you?

I also found Jeremiah 29:11 really helpful when I was feelin really bad. Still do actually. (Sorry I have no idea how to cleverly do the scripture linky).

I’ll keep you in my prayers especially through the holidays.

Thank you for your comments I feel like you hit the nail on the head.

 

[Lost4words]

Just remember that as you carry your heavy cross, Jesus is carrying you. Offer up your sufferings to God. God bless you.