Sweetheart you DID NOT send God away from you. If it's a thought that's one thing, it's what you allow your mouth to speak that changes things. I promise you, the more you ignore this, the better it will get. The way to cause something/someone to simply leave you alone is to ignore it. Do not give it any recognition at all. Act as if it didn't happen. The next time the thought crosses your mind and I understand it is not your thoughts. Simply open your mouth and say PRAISE THE LORD, I LOVE YOU JESUS. Truth be told that really really angers satan to hear you say that, so the more he see's you saying (speaking) something good about our Lord, the less likely he's gonna throw those nasty thoughts your way, WHY? Because he does not wanna hear you Praise the Lord, he wants you to feel abandoned, depressed and afraid. That's just a trap and bait he uses. But wise up on him, and every single time, just open your mouth and throw up your hands and start praising the Lord. Try it, it works. You gotta reverse his tactics that he's using on you, and eventually he will get tired of hearing YOU praise the Lord. Much love and prayers for you.
