It is true to say that in terms of the effectiveness of my ministry, I am going through a discouraging phase. You see, in the end, it doesnt matter how many bible verses I share, how many prayers are offered, people are still free to do stupid, ungodly stuff. And it is paining my greatly to see people having to struggle with the consequences that they were forewarned about. It is tiring to try to help people pick up the pieces of what were wholley avoidable situations, and where the only prayer that seems to make sense is 'Lord, please can I wake up and it be six months ago, so I can have another go at stopping people doing stupid stuff.' I feel a bit like Cassandra (do you know who I mean- the ancient oracle of Delphi whose curse what that she always prophesied correctly, but no one ever believed her)
Yet here's the thing. I understand that I cant make people behave in a biblical way. I understand that even God cant/doesnt make people behave right. I see that my bible is stuffed with warning, advice, rejection of Godly ways, and of people having to face the consequences. I know this ministry thing isnt about me. And yet, there we have it, I feel like a failure.