This sexual immortality is trying to consume me :(

[TeloQue]

Alright I'll try to keep this short and simple. I'm 16 years old and struggling with what I would call a pornography addiction. I started watching straight pornography at the age of 10 out of pure curiosity. I never masturbated to it yet I was just so interested... For 5 years I would keep watching it on and off and I never really saw what all the fuss was about it, and then I decided to touch... This was about a year ago... Now, after straight porn I seem to have found myself struggling with watching and pleasuring myself with transsexual porn..

I've always been straight all of my life but I've developed a new fascination for transsexual females. My discovery of them happened when a friend asked me which woman I found more attractive out of 2 women. Since I didn't know anything about either woman I went on google images to see and I saw that both of these women were transsexual. I don't know why but at the time.. I was just aroused by this.. Then after having watched maybe 3 videos it hit me. I thought to myself for a minute and became disgusted... "Have I really been doing this...?" I said to myself. I CANNOT believe this has happened to me.

Now, don't get me wrong, I am not at all attracted to men.. I don't find gay men having sex arousing at all, nor have I ever... But now I'm just so disgusted with myself I don't know what to do.. I feel sick to my stomach and I'm disgusted with what I've done..

What should I do?

 

[Dr.Laheeb]

you are a very good person because you try to struggling the sin in your life and my suggesting to you is to read the gosple and listen to the speech of jesus He said "every think is possibl to the one who faith"

 

[Criada]

You are obviously unhappy with what you are doing, and desire to change.
That is repentance, and when we repent God forgives us and makes us clean.
Don't keep beating yourself up about this... tell God you are sorry, accept His forgiveness, forgive yourself, and move on.
If you fall again, repent again - as many times as it takes.
God loves you, and He will give you the strength to fight.

 

[Toronto]

Don't go beating yourself up! Plenty of people struggle with homoerotic imagery - you are not alone! You feel disgust, which shows that you understand that this behaviour is wrong to you. You're showing a desire to change - and the recognition of the problem and a desire to change are the first steps!

I agree with above posters; repent. Before you repent, though, it may be a good idea to sit down and have a think about exactly why you feel disgusted by this behaviour, and list more than 'God doesn't want it' - if you can find personal reasons, then list them all! No matter how silly or obscure - only you and God will read the list, and God already knows. Getting to the root of your disgust at this might make it more sincere if you repent.

Alongside this, is it possible to apply a filter to your personal computer? If you want to make sure that you don't just disable it, have a friend set the password so that you'll never know it.

Eliminating your ability to expose yourself to pictures and videos of transsexual women will make it much easier to combat this, simply because the thing you're trying to combat will no longer be present in your life.

It's placing undue pressure on yourself, I think, to try to stop while the possibility of looking up transsexual women is right there in front of you. You don't need the stress - set up a filter. *hugs*

 

[december1990]

I've experienced this in my life to except not with the transexual porn thing. <staff edit> The fact that you know it's wrong makes you fall victim to these torments.

I want to tell you, I'm going through this problem. Your not alone. Millions of people get wrong thoughts that they wish they never had. Thoughts that are perverted that stifle their ability to live normal without having weird thoughts.

<staff edit> You are not alone (many are suffering with you)


<staff edit>
I want to say that God loves you regardless... know this that you will be a conqueror!

Romans 8:37
No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.

Remember you don't want to give into those things.. <staff edit> Remember Ephesians 6, wear the Armor of God or pray.

God bless you, you aren't alone!!

 

[Leftfield66]

Know that you are not homosexual at all. Your first sexual experience is with yourself and that causing you brain to identify with the "parts" on a transsexual. If you continue you are training your brain to become aroused with certain situations that you will not want to repeat in the real world. You have to find other activities and do your best to avoid porn. The more guilt you feel the worse it is. Your human you have human drives learn to control them.

 

[nautical999]

teloque

In order to get rid of this addiction you need to find the roots of it. What happened before you started looking at it. For many it was sexual abuse. Getting healing from this issue and forgiving the one who sinned against them is the key to there healing.
I can see you have the desire to stop, You just needs the tools.

 

[Edmond89]

I have the same problem, I had prayed and I asked the Priest and I confessed my sins to him , he guided me and also I got help from a Psychologist and from a help line for this problem.

we have to control our thoughts, to think these thoughts are disgusting so much, are evil and deceiving us, it's the sex we are looking for, it's just an misleadment for our sexuality.

God will forgive you if you really repent and ask God's protection upon you, he will surely save you to avoid the porn, you have to enter the website setting captives free.

if you converse about this problem with friends, priests and a help lines , it will work out and you will be free because the Truth will set us free as Jesus said.


Good Luck,
Edwar

 

[jmsclayton]

Hi

For me it is easier if I respond below your responses.

Alright I'll try to keep this short and simple. I'm 16 years old and struggling with what I would call a pornography addiction. I started watching straight pornography at the age of 10 out of pure curiosity. I never masturbated to it yet I was just so interested... For 5 years I would keep watching it on and off and I never really saw what all the fuss was about it, and then I decided to touch... This was about a year ago... Now, after straight porn I seem to have found myself struggling with watching and pleasuring myself with transsexual porn..

sharing what has helped me in my healing process from not that
Judith: Curiosity can kill a cat. YOu need accountability, prayer, Bible, Pastoral Counseling that has cognitive mind aspect to it. It helps you to get to the bottom of the root as to why you continue in it. It is a strong hold that you ahve to break. It is chooseing to change to stop and have accountability to learn new habits of not going there. There is computer filter you can put on your computer that alerts you to what your doing and others to keep you accountable.



I've always been straight all of my life but I've developed a new fascination for transsexual females. My discovery of them happened when a friend asked me which woman I found more attractive out of 2 women. Since I didn't know anything about either woman I went on google images to see and I saw that both of these women were transsexual. I don't know why but at the time.. I was just aroused by this.. Then after having watched maybe 3 videos it hit me. I thought to myself for a minute and became disgusted... "Have I really been doing this...?" I said to myself. I CANNOT believe this has happened to me.

Judith: That is what Satan does. Use that disgusted feeling to motivate you to seek help and stop

Now, don't get me wrong, I am not at all attracted to men.. I don't find gay men having sex arousing at all, nor have I ever... But now I'm just so disgusted with myself I don't know what to do.. I feel sick to my stomach and I'm disgusted with what I've done..


Judith Seek the above things to help you stop

What do you think?

Judith