this my storyyyy

[ayeess]

I was not born or raised in a Christian home. I live in Canada,my parents are from the east and I was raised with a different religion. I never doubted the existence of God but I did not truly know him like I do now and I did not know the truth and the way. I was a typical kid in grade school and high school. Pretty outgoing people liked me. But THEN, I kind of went through a depressive state...My mom had bipolar mania for a lil bit and my"best friend"totally just forgot about me since I had moved and he saw me and basically just said HI gave me a quick hug and walked away and was walking with some other girl. AND I WAS DEPRESSED. I began to pull myself away from people,I remember just thinking in my head a lot and never sayinganything and thinking that whateverI have to say is dumb and stupid.I felt worhtless.

THEN I began my search. My search for something deeper and biggerthan this world. I really wanted to know GOD, i wanted to be happy and fulfilled again. SO yea I was reading like crazy and I actally did start reading the bible, BUTalso the quran,gnostic bible and ESPECIALLY new age stuff like Oprah stuff,Sylvia Browne's Novus spirtus and science of mind and other "NEW AGE" things. I was convinced that I was doing better,I had begun to get out there more and I was feeling slightly better.


I then, had this amazing dream that I can now try to type out and relay its effect and its depth but words really fall short. It was basically me in my spirit form i guess.AndI was travleiing down a long tunnel and then I made a turn into open space. and There in front of me was this great big light (the consumingfire). I began to immeaditaly float towards it. I still had all my cognitive proccesses intact, I could think. But I didnt even think to go towards it it was like how magnets worked. I was instanly attractedand compelled to go towards the light.and o my gosh.. the feelingg.. IT was love.All around me. See in this world we cantjustfeel lovesitting in an empty room we ususally need someonethere to show itto us. But there wasjust LOVE in the air and its a overwhelming I CANT EVEN HANDLETHIS feeling,it was overflowing..my goodness... as I was going towards the light I was getingg faster adn faster and then all of a sudden I felt myself pull back. I had the thought in my headto go and HIDE because I did not feel good enough and then I proceededto wake up andI was amazed.


Atthis point, I focuseed only on the loveI felt in the dream and I thought that I was on the right path with the new age stuff NOT EVEN paying attn. to the fact that I did not feel goodenough in front of god. I thought that this was a huge step and it was after much prayer and talkinto Christain friends and being introducedot a certain woman and Now friend, who took me to her Church and instilled in me the WORD and howto talk to and praise GOD THAT MY DREAM makes sense.

1 John 2:28-3:10


28 And now, little children, abide in Him, that when He appears, we may have confidence and not be ashamed before Him at His coming.

I WAS not abiding in him, so when I came before him I shrank away. I ACTUALLY experiecned the shrinking away and the greatt love the lord has for me and I feeel so blessedto have experienced this. It did notmatter that I was a fairly good person and did theright thigns. I did not ahvefaith in Christ. SINCE THEN, GOD has proven himselfreal to me over and over again and I just hope that I can be an instrument for his use. and I am honored to have come to know him.

Thanks for reading.

 

[andreha]

Whoa. What an amazing testimony. To see how the Lord drew you to Him, in a way that you'll never forget. He is amazing.

 

[Hass2be]

wow thanks for that. That is really beautiful, thank you so much for sharing no need to look for love when ur carrying it with you now wherever you are!

Hass

 

[SpitfireOverThames]

Wow! Great testimony! Praise God for revealing Himself to you! God bless you more and more, sis! ~Sean

 

[Matthew-59]

Awesome testimony! I love it!

It amazes me how God works in people's lives. Yes, He does use dreams too. I had a dream about two years ago that I will never forget. Even though I still don't understand it's entire meaning, I know it was a message from God to me. I know some day He will reveal what it all means. I'm so eager for that day to come.

Thank you for sharing your testimony on your profile page and giving the link to this thread for the continuation. It makes me feel good and encouraged to read such things that God has done.

May God bless your heart today and every day! ...is my prayer for you.

 

[amandatea]

Nice! I know what you mean by the "I can't handle this" feeling... In a good way. I feel that when I get close with God in prayer and bible study. I want to laugh and cry at the same time.

I'm glad you wanted to know what that dream was about!

 

[Anthc90]

Thankyou for sharing

 

[Searchfor1]

Hello and congratulations, what an amazing story!

If you don't mind me asking, how did you family and larger community respond to your conversion?

 

[ayeess]

Hello and congratulations, what an amazing story!

If you don't mind me asking, how did you family and larger community respond to your conversion?

Well my family was not and is not pleased, they are unhappy, my dad tried to kick me out, they both did not talk to me for a very long time and still now they get upset when they know im going to church but Jesus knew this would happen and he said :

34 “Do not think that I came to bring peace on earth. I did not come to bring peace but a sword. 35 For I have come to ‘set a man against his father, a daughter against her mother, and a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law’; 36 and ‘a man’s enemies will be those of his own household.’[e] 37 He who loves father or mother more than Me is not worthy of Me. And he who loves son or daughter more than Me is not worthy of Me. 38 And he who does not take his cross and follow after Me is not worthy of Me. 39 He who finds his life will lose it, and he who loses his life for My sake will find it.