This is Crazy...

[Aldrin25]

I didn't tell this to my close christian friends.... I don't know. Let me share you something first of my story a little bit. Btw

2015, I was an atheist, I saw Jesus in my dream, He's in front of a woman, reason why I became a Christian. I always remember the word appeared in front of me "SAVED" after woman died.

One time I had a dream twice. First one, I saw a light, then there's some words there says "Jesus, the Crucifixion" that light a man in front of him "Do you know Jesus?" a man says No. Then the light said "Ask Aldrin", that's my name.

Then I had a dream again... Someone's controlling my legs to walking towards to my mom, and controlling also my mouth. My mouth says "Mom I want to be a Pastor"

I ignored that dream... I'm really afraid of getting into a ministry of preaching... but here's the thing, I notice to my self... I get addicted to study the Bible.. sometimes it's taking me 2 to 3 hours... Then I love evangelizing people and helping those who are baby in faith...

I didn't notice much that I disciple 12 plus people(not include evangelizing). I always have a phone call everyday and chatting evangelizing and discipling.. I didn't know I'm doing that for long...

One time I tried to watch some seminary videos like pastoral counseling, leadership seminary, it helps me a lot...

Sometimes If I will study again, I want to go in Bible school... But I know there's no money in ministry

This cycle is almost 5yrs..

Right now, I want to stop again, or just run away u know. ... I did this before many times, but it keeps coming back, the desire sometimes, let's say I my mind is always full of God's Word again, desire keeps coming back.. this is crazy, I don't want to this... I'm just playing video games now always, watching tv series, and spend less time with God, so the desire would not coming back..

You know, I want to know if there's anyone there also experiencing this? I can't qualify myself in preaching ministry.. I touch 2x a day.. I easily get addicted to video games... and I just want to save money and earn big...

This is crazy you know...

 

[Amittai]

Get more rest. Instead of video games know some straight history * sciences, logic etc, that's the context of our lives, and don't be afraid to carry on helping people in need; if we have pure time we'll survive better. (Midnight Cry.) I want to help people as well but I probably come over too crabby (and that's not going to deter me from trying again ). If you don't, just thank God.

We've got keep getting away from the screen before we come back to it.

Elijah said "That's it - I'm dead". I don't see God shaming him for that. He got double meal and double sleep out of that deal.

That's my 3p worth!

* I found out who the Amorites, Elamites and Hittites were & weren't but that was just me.

 

[John42]

therapy, bro (Christian therapy)