This has been on my heart for awhile now.

[ww2pigeon]

OK, here it is, I have been in A.A. for many years and at one time believed that A.A. is all the church I would ever need. But lately God has opened my eyes to the fact; for me it is not where He wants me. I struggle with this because A.A. has saved my life. And I have run through the pros and cons. I struggle with my self will about this, because it is a new way of thinking and I always question it. That saying my best thinking got me to A.A. And No just because I have a lot of time in the fellowship doesn't mean my head can't get squirrelly. I am trying to take it slow to make sure that I am not making the wrong choices.
I am not getting what I need from the rooms any more and maybe that is how it should be. My heart is hungry and it is not being feed at A.A. I don't plan to stop my meetings just reduce them to less....No I don't know what less means, of yet. And I know that stopping meetings all together is big NO. I am taking it slow and moving in a direction that, God has put on my Heart.
It doesn't mean that I don't believe in A.A. A.A. is awesome to use as a tool but I can't help but feel that the wind is a blowing and I need more tools that are more of a spiritual nature. I am just putting this out, to see if it is making sense and that My best thinking, isn't going to get me drunk.
Would like to here from anyone that has long time (meaning more than 15yrs.), in the fellowship and how they handle this or if it has ever come up. God Bless.

 

[DRL]

I belong to a 12 step program and Celebrate Recovery. CR is a Christ centered 12 step program. Go to a search engine and find a CR near you. I pray God lets you know where He wants you.
Diana

 

[FaithfulWife]

Hey pidgeon~

I have not been in A.A. for a long time like you requested but I think I might still be able to relate in a way.

When my first husband cheated and decided to leave me, I went to a Divorce support group (for those who's spouses had affairs or had a divorce that they didn't want), and I stayed there for YEARS! I mean YEARS AND YEARS, years. At first especially, it was really good for me and helped me recover from the broken heart AND learn how to have a healthy relationship! So that was ! After a bit, I stayed to help pass on some of what I'd learned--like a mentor you know? But after almost a decade I came to realize that it wasn't really helping me to be there. In fact, if anything it was keeping me from moving ahead in my life and kind of kept me triggered remembering the hurt of the divorce. In order to REALLY learn what I'd learned... I had to move on somewhere new...and I did not know where that was.

So have I forgotten my lessons? Nope. Do I still go back--yes now and then to keep it fresh. But I had to be willing to step out and go somewhere new that G-d was leading me. It'll be okay pigeon! G-d will show you where He wants you!

 

[BobW188]

Some of us are meant to stay in AA as our ministry, others are not. I haven't been to a meeting in years. It may indeed be time for you to broaden out. I'd suggest starting with activities at your church.
And, of course, it doesn't have to be an either/or choice.
One thing I think you'll find is that the lessons you learned in AA apply whatever you're doing, and whomever you're doing it with.

 

[ww2pigeon]

Thank You all for commenting, I have started on this journey this week. And I feel a lot of peace about it. I have made some commitments to God about what I am going to do with church and A.A. meetings. And I feel that I am doing the right thing. It hasn't allowed me a lot of time for computer, but maybe for now, that is Gods will. God Bless all of you.