@True Counterphobia maybe you just don’t want to work at the average boring job all day, etc, etc. maybe you don’t have any aggressive ambition. Are you on the street? I can be poor or be well taken care of. Things will probably change or an opportunity will occur. You will be tested in other areas. But what are you doing now? As the person said different is not wrong. You are smart and full equal with all. Put the real you out there if you want circumstances to grow. Art, independence, self employment, music, writing, proof reader, if you need money. Disability income and entertaining yourself. Different circle of friends. I had a good job once and it fueled a lot of good things. It didn’t last but it was worth sacrificing for. And now I’m retired but you don’t need to wait until then to do your own fun.