Theme chnaged Suicide Pure O

[dabro]

Okay Guys I know suicide is wrong but why am I getting the thought's so much. I know it's OCD don't give it any validity but it makes me sick to my stomach like I'm tempted to do it. It's just like every other pure o type accept I'm a child of God why would I want to do this and now I'm getting the fear that I'm going to do it. Ya I thought the theme was never going to change but it did to THIS. Oh well IDK anymore there has been alot of pressure on me and I have felt I time or two that it felt like the only way out. Now those reacurring thoughts plague me am am not just the same old crap different day.

 

[seajoy]

See your psychiatrist, and quickly. This could be more depression than the OCD. I've been where you are - get help, please.

 

[shelovesChrist]

praying for you dabro . the Lord hasn't called you Himself, so until then we have to continue to push through . He's with us . We're not alone . Fasten yourself to Him .

 

[dabro]

I think it's the Luvox cos I have never thought like this ever in my entire life. IDK whats causing all my depression. Sure I still obsesse but I never thought about suicide it's crazy. Sometimes I can't pin point whats causing it. Depression could be but as I read the side effect's one is worsening of depression or suicide may occure. Now I keep having horrible nightmares I've tried telling them this. I'm tired of these nightmares over and over. IDK guy's.

 

[seajoy]

Call your doc, and get to the bottom of it. Promise????

 

[dabro]

Ya he's gone tho so I guess I'm going to have to go to the ER or something.

 

[seajoy]

Ya he's gone tho so I guess I'm going to have to go to the ER or something.

Good idea. I used to work in an ER - they will help you there.

 

[LoveAdoni]

Praying for you. If you think it is a serious thought and not HOCD then go to the ER. They will probably put you in a Behavioral Health unit but if you go on your own it is better than a 5150 (basically committed to the unit). Go to a nice hospital in your area and walk into the ER. I did it. It is not bad. You'll get help there. Pray for guidance and will I pray that the Lord guides you and protects you.

 

[dabro]

Why did you call it HOCD? I guess just a typo? I don't deal with that. I'm just dealing with very frustrating dreams that go on and on the same crap everyday. I need to talk to my Pastor first because to be honest just me putting this on here has freaked me out even more and made the thoughts that much stronger. IDK why? it just has. I got to wait until my roommates wake up. I went thru a schizophrenic episode back in 05. Then pure O in 08 and have dealt with it ever since then. It's these irrational fears that get me. I don't know if it's serious or not but waking up to these dreams I feel like I'm in shock.

 

[LoveAdoni]

Why did you call it HOCD? I guess just a typo? I don't deal with that. I'm just dealing with very frustrating dreams that go on and on the same crap everyday. I need to talk to my Pastor first because to be honest just me putting this on here has freaked me out even more and made the thoughts that much stronger. IDK why? it just has. I got to wait until my roommates wake up. I went thru a schizophrenic episode back in 05. Then pure O in 08 and have dealt with it ever since then. It's these irrational fears that get me. I don't know if it's serious or not but waking up to these dreams I feel like I'm in shock.

I'm sorry. HOCD stands for HARM OCD (fear of harming yourself or others). It is a subcategory of Pure O.

I see some use the acronym HOCD as meaning Homosexual OCD which is not what I know HOCD to mean.

Sorry for the confusion.

 

[shelovesChrist]

those are the side effects of the medicine ? suicide and depression ? thats ridiculous , they have so much medicine thats for the relief of something but at what cost , like various side effects . i just never heard of those kind of side effects . im praying for you bro . Gods not going to let you do anything to yourself especially when He knows you don't want it . i used to think about suicide when i was in the peak of blashemous thoughts . but it didn't linger . just like those others thoughts they will come and go . talk it out with the Lord and your pastor would be a good idea like you said . ask the Lord to guide you into what He wills for you at this moment . might be confusing hearing Him but remember He's not going to say anything that contradicts His word . and SeaJoy is right , talk yo your doc about those meds . pray that God puts on His heart the right decision concerning you okay .

 

[dabro]

OK my roommates left to the city while I fell asleep. So I'm prolly not going to the ER no worries seajoy!!!! I believe it was just another OCD strain that popped up. Well right now I feel fine. No OCD or anxiety or anything really. It's a testamony of prayer that God hears us. Thank you all!!!!

 

[kaykay9.0]

Praying for you, Dabro. It could be the Luvox. Luvox is one of the drugs I have taken for OCD and didn't find it a problem but that doesn't mean it isn't affecting you this way. Sometimes SSRI's can do this I understand. Yes, please contact your dr as quickly as are able to do so.

It sounds like this is probably just a passing thought and your OCD issues have grabbled onto it but like the others said, if you are serious, please get some help. ASAP.