Hi, I think being a Christian doesn't necessarily being happy and faithful all the time. Sometimes there are down times and sometimes there are up times. Sometimes we have doubts and sometimes we have a strong faith. I used to have doubts too and still do. I have felt that God is just making fun of me for telling him these weird problems. And I have felt that I'm a hypocrite , because what I did was a total opposite of what I said I would do and also I felt that everyone else is also a hypocrite and that noone has a good heart, but that was because of my issue with trusting someone. But like someone already said, feelings changed, it may not chaged for awhile, but it change. The fact is God loves you and God listens to you. God may does certain things we may not understand right now, or in the near future, but we will understand it when the time comes. When you pray to God, don't expect an instant response. The response you get may not come for a long time and it may come in a way that you wouldn't expect at all. Isn't there a phrase saying "God moves in a mysterious way". When you pray, don't expect a certain answer, because God's answer maybe different from yours, but it's for the best, it may not be the best right now, but it's only a part of a big plan. For example, My mom always prayed that I would do great at my education, but I ended up failing for a year and almost expelled from the school, a totally different answer than expected, right. But wait, there's more, the thing is I have always been lazy on my study and God thought that I needed a kick on the butt to get me started, and it did, Right now, I have a pretty good grade and all thanks to God. And another thing is people don't always have a wonderful and heart-felt testimony. You know what was my testimony, my testimony was that I grew up in a Christian family, that's it, no big life changing experience . Being a Christian, will be a lot tougher than being a non-Christian, because now satan are trying to deceive you because you're not on his side anymore, he deceived you by putting guilt over past sins and putting doubt on your salvation. Being a Christian is having a relationship with God and this can be done by talking to God, but listen too. You can talk by praying, just think of praying as you talking to someone that's close to you, but also listen to God. But don't expect God answering by a booming voice or a burning bush, but He will answer in His own way and in His onw time, just be patient in waiting. Sorry, if the post is too long.
