The Walls

[RaydonRaven]

Just something I wrote a long time ago. Feel free to tell me what you think of it. And don't be afraid to be blunt, I won't mind.


The Walls

Self-inflicted pain,
Caused by self-destruction,
Caused by deep depression,
Caused by self-inflicted pain.
It would seem a never ending cycle,
But for the knowledge that I can
Stop the perpetuation.
And the walls stare at me...

But do I want it to stop?
Or am I happy in my despair?
Do I take joy in my own frustration?
Why do I revel in my depression?!
The perpetuation runs rampant,
But only if I let it.
And the walls are staring...

It would seem most of my pain is
Self-inflicted, but why?
Why, why must I let it go?
Why can't I hold onto it?
Why won't you let me anymore?!
Oh God, oh God, why did I allow myself to
Continue on for so long?
Why did I not see it earlier?
Besause I couldn't, or because
I allowed myself to be blinded...
And the walls disappear.

Every once in a while,
I discover the cycle started anew.
And I can feel the walls closing in again...

 

[goldenviolet]

Raydonraven... sad, but excellent. sounds like you have alot to share.
you wanted an honest and blunt opinion: don't stop writing!

 

[Hidden face_Hurting heart]

Let me just say that I feel like I've been described in your poem. How long ago was it that you wrote that? I agree with rdee- don't stop writing!

 

[jobstears]

WOW, so moving and emotionally deep...loved this!

blessings,
jobstears

 

[RaydonRaven]

Wow...now I feel bad for not coming back here for so long. Sorry about that, life got REALLY hectic there for a while. Anyway, I'm glad that you liked it. To sum up my reponses here quick: I haven't stopped writing, in fact I have a lot more stuff now if anyone wants to read it, that depends on what you mean by "a lot to share" I guess, and I wrote that about 4 months before I posted it here.

Oh, and thank you for your comments. Normally, when I post a poem or share one with somebody, no one says anything about it.