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First and foremost, I apologise if this is not in the correct section. I'm fairly new here and was confused as to where this topic would be best placed. That being said, if a moderator would feel it is better suited in another sub-forum, please feel welcome to move this thread.
TLDR: I have put the most important part/question of this thread in BOLD. So if you don't want to read the wall of text and want to get straight to the point/question please just read the BOLD text.
Hi all.
OK, I don't want to make this thread a HUGE wall of text, while I have no doubt it will be fairly long regardless, I will try and keep things as brief as possible.
So I used to be confident to call myself a Christian. I grew up never not believing but my family weren't religious so I didn't grow up having religion forced upon me. I remember being about 7 or 8 and hearing Christian music (Hillsong) for the first time and just crying, I don't know why it just overwhelmed my soul.
In school assemblies the local vicar used to come in and give talks. Every time he spoke about the Bible and Jesus it just made sense I never even questioned it.
When I became a teenager I got involved with a local Christian youth group and became a Christian. It all just made sense, I can't say the concept of God was ever doubted, even to this day I have always believed in God and could never be considered an atheist or even agnostic.
Anyway, I got baptised and everything went well for a few years I was heavily involved with the church and what not, then I began to majorly backslide. Sex, drugs, rock and roll, that kind of lifestyle you could say.
I stopped reading the Bible and living a Christian lifestyle. I NEVER stopped believing I just used to kid myself and cherry pick what I believed because I KNEW I was living against God's word.
Anyway fast forward I'm 26 now last year I started looking at religion again and reading the Bible and taking things more seriously. Cut a long story short I ended up exploring Islam and so much made sense to me.
Reading the Bible it was clear to me a few things.
* Jesus proclaimed there was ONE God. (He was Jewish after all)
* Jesus said that God was greater than him.
* Jesus said why do you call me good for no one is good but God.
* Jesus prayed. (If Jesus prayed how can he be God? Who was he praying too?)
Now before you try and answer all of those questions, not to be rude but I had studied and probably read just about every answer from every Christian and Islamic source. I probably know the answers you're going to give and Biblical references. Nothing satisfies (before you say pray, I really have and still no clear guidance or answer)
To me it all seems to boil down to faith. There's no solid historical or theological evidence or answer. Both Christians and Muslim scholars have amazing arguments for and against the divinity of Christ. It seems to all come down to who you're willing to put your faith into.
Studying deeper into Islam, them not believing Jesus was crucified which is almost a historically confirmed agreed upon event amongst most scholars, amongst studying the life and history of Mohammad it seemed to me that on the balance of probability my faith was best placed in Christianity.
Now here's the biggest struggle.
For me the issue comes with the Holy Spirit. None of the early Christians seemed to believing in the trinity or understand/accept this concept. Jesus didn't preach it, nor did Paul and historically the earliest Christians did not have the concept of the trinity in their faith.
While you may point out to me many verses that mention the holy spirit or the trinity i.e. Go forth and baptise in the name of the father, the son and the holy spirit etc none of these verses actually specifically teach the concept of the trinity clearly, it's all subjective and open to interpretation and A LOT of these verses are not found in the earliest translations of scripture available and have been added.
That's a HUGE problem for me, because how can I claim to be a Christian when I can not accept or believe in the concept of the trinity? No matter how much I pray, search, seek or study I can't grasp the concept of the trinity.
I suppose a lot of that comes from the fact when I was younger seeing people in Church roll around on the floor, praying in tongues etc etc first of all that always felt alien and not of God to me, but when my pastors spoke how it was a gift for Christians who are really blessed, I prayed and prayed for the gift of tongues and this Holy Spirit and I never ever once spoke in tongues, fell on the floor or was overcame by such a force.
Please help me understand I am so confused :\
Thanks for any replies in advance.
Richard
TLDR: I have put the most important part/question of this thread in BOLD. So if you don't want to read the wall of text and want to get straight to the point/question please just read the BOLD text.
Hi all.
OK, I don't want to make this thread a HUGE wall of text, while I have no doubt it will be fairly long regardless, I will try and keep things as brief as possible.
So I used to be confident to call myself a Christian. I grew up never not believing but my family weren't religious so I didn't grow up having religion forced upon me. I remember being about 7 or 8 and hearing Christian music (Hillsong) for the first time and just crying, I don't know why it just overwhelmed my soul.
In school assemblies the local vicar used to come in and give talks. Every time he spoke about the Bible and Jesus it just made sense I never even questioned it.
When I became a teenager I got involved with a local Christian youth group and became a Christian. It all just made sense, I can't say the concept of God was ever doubted, even to this day I have always believed in God and could never be considered an atheist or even agnostic.
Anyway, I got baptised and everything went well for a few years I was heavily involved with the church and what not, then I began to majorly backslide. Sex, drugs, rock and roll, that kind of lifestyle you could say.
I stopped reading the Bible and living a Christian lifestyle. I NEVER stopped believing I just used to kid myself and cherry pick what I believed because I KNEW I was living against God's word.
Anyway fast forward I'm 26 now last year I started looking at religion again and reading the Bible and taking things more seriously. Cut a long story short I ended up exploring Islam and so much made sense to me.
Reading the Bible it was clear to me a few things.
* Jesus proclaimed there was ONE God. (He was Jewish after all)
* Jesus said that God was greater than him.
* Jesus said why do you call me good for no one is good but God.
* Jesus prayed. (If Jesus prayed how can he be God? Who was he praying too?)
Now before you try and answer all of those questions, not to be rude but I had studied and probably read just about every answer from every Christian and Islamic source. I probably know the answers you're going to give and Biblical references. Nothing satisfies (before you say pray, I really have and still no clear guidance or answer)
To me it all seems to boil down to faith. There's no solid historical or theological evidence or answer. Both Christians and Muslim scholars have amazing arguments for and against the divinity of Christ. It seems to all come down to who you're willing to put your faith into.
Studying deeper into Islam, them not believing Jesus was crucified which is almost a historically confirmed agreed upon event amongst most scholars, amongst studying the life and history of Mohammad it seemed to me that on the balance of probability my faith was best placed in Christianity.
Now here's the biggest struggle.
For me the issue comes with the Holy Spirit. None of the early Christians seemed to believing in the trinity or understand/accept this concept. Jesus didn't preach it, nor did Paul and historically the earliest Christians did not have the concept of the trinity in their faith.
While you may point out to me many verses that mention the holy spirit or the trinity i.e. Go forth and baptise in the name of the father, the son and the holy spirit etc none of these verses actually specifically teach the concept of the trinity clearly, it's all subjective and open to interpretation and A LOT of these verses are not found in the earliest translations of scripture available and have been added.
That's a HUGE problem for me, because how can I claim to be a Christian when I can not accept or believe in the concept of the trinity? No matter how much I pray, search, seek or study I can't grasp the concept of the trinity.
I suppose a lot of that comes from the fact when I was younger seeing people in Church roll around on the floor, praying in tongues etc etc first of all that always felt alien and not of God to me, but when my pastors spoke how it was a gift for Christians who are really blessed, I prayed and prayed for the gift of tongues and this Holy Spirit and I never ever once spoke in tongues, fell on the floor or was overcame by such a force.
Please help me understand I am so confused :\
Thanks for any replies in advance.
Richard
I'm sorry, but God doesn't need to pray to God, so I understand your question. I now rest in an answer which 'fundamentalist' translators never imagined. Why? Because they weren't tongue talkers either, so they could only translate out of their understanding and their 'lack of that spiritual experience'.