The struggle

[Mollykathryne]

I was suggested as bipolar a couple of years ago by a psych and my dr didn't agree with the diagnosis. I clearly know I have it, especially this past year. I am having a hard time finding a different dr to get treated. So I am left unmediated and struggling.
I cycle rapidly... On here I am reading that people only have depressive episodes a few times a year. I get severely depressed about once a month, if not more. But, I think I have depression on top of bipolar. I get manic less often, it's different than my normal, but not always obvious to others in my life. I do milder things like spending money I don't have, and being more reckless. I'll also say stupid things or send emails I wish I hadn't to friends.
I've had a social anxiety that recently came about. It happened last year when there was a lot happening in my life, and it hasn't gone away.
I am only on an anti depressant, which is really tough right now. I can't take it all the time or my mania goes through the roof; but when I get depressed I just don't take them.
I am at a bit of a rut in my life right now, and I am just glad to have this kind of place where people might understand. I don't want to feel like crap, it's not a choice I make.
Recently I've been having a tough time in my spiritual life, and I am asking anyone out there to pray for me. I am anxious about what's going to happen. I just wish with all my heart that I was a normal person.
-Molly

 

[CraftyTurtle]

I have you in my prayers. I also prayed for God to give me the right words to say to you that might help you.

Who prescribed the antidepressant? How long ago? This is often the first step in a med regimen ("cocktail" colloquially) and your next step is probably a mood stabilizer, eg Lithium.

Yes, and antidepressant (AD) can easily send a Bipolar person into mania/hypomania, which is where the stabiliser comes in. The AD prevents you going to low, and the stabiliser prevents you going too low or too high.

For what it's worth, this is the path I took in my initial diagnosis and medication.

I suggest you go back to whoever prescribed the AD, or find a new doctor/psychiatrist if needed. It is always best for the patient when the GP and the specialist can agree, and form the basis of your Wellness Team.

Hopefully something helps. Blessings.

 

[Kristen.NewCreation]

Will definitely be praying for you. I was finally diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder about 3 years ago, and it has taken quite a while to get stabilized. I get the depression side of things much greater than the manic side. So I can relate.

 

[Loven God]

I have rapid cycling and go through depression and maina servel time a day . I hope you can find a doctor that will treat you .