- May 26, 2018
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I'm seeking for insight on the purification of a scope that was rendered heavily adulterated. To give some background, before I became a disciple of Jesus, I kept a dirty secret to myself throughout seven years of adolescence; I masturbated to horses. Because of that sin, I can no longer see horses without remembering many images I wish I had not seen, along with the adulterated perspective of them that I rendered myself in. Since leaving that sin around a year ago, I have dealt with temptations in my mind that would have been impossible to overcome without God powering me, which I should know from spending at least three years trying to cut off that sin on my own.
I am on what I like to call a detoxification program, which is really just continual repentance of the sin and clinging onto God and all things related to Him to stay away from temptations. This process includes praying for purity frequently and developing convictions to steer clear of any cracks. What I would like to know is if there are any disciples out there who have faced a scenario like this and, through many years in following Jesus and having a relationship with God, seen to fruition a cleansed perspective, beit about horses or whatever was viewed with an adulterated perspective. My question boils down to this: can the adulterated perspective be undone, or am I fighting this self-induced perspective for the rest of my life?
Repentance of this sin was impossible without God and I never want to go back down the sinful road again. It took me seven years until I finally confessed this sinful way to a trusted friend, and even though I have talked about this and become transparent with others since the confession, I still feel uncomfortable writing/talking about this. I appreciate insights given. What I must pray for in this case is to completely surrender this to God and trust Him, leaning not on my own understanding in the long run. Also, praying for purity is paramount.
Thank you for reading this; simply writing this out, as awkward as it feels, partially alleviates me as I unload the weight from my system.
I am on what I like to call a detoxification program, which is really just continual repentance of the sin and clinging onto God and all things related to Him to stay away from temptations. This process includes praying for purity frequently and developing convictions to steer clear of any cracks. What I would like to know is if there are any disciples out there who have faced a scenario like this and, through many years in following Jesus and having a relationship with God, seen to fruition a cleansed perspective, beit about horses or whatever was viewed with an adulterated perspective. My question boils down to this: can the adulterated perspective be undone, or am I fighting this self-induced perspective for the rest of my life?
Repentance of this sin was impossible without God and I never want to go back down the sinful road again. It took me seven years until I finally confessed this sinful way to a trusted friend, and even though I have talked about this and become transparent with others since the confession, I still feel uncomfortable writing/talking about this. I appreciate insights given. What I must pray for in this case is to completely surrender this to God and trust Him, leaning not on my own understanding in the long run. Also, praying for purity is paramount.
Thank you for reading this; simply writing this out, as awkward as it feels, partially alleviates me as I unload the weight from my system.