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I do not know if this is going to help anyone, but I just needed to get a lot of things of my chest and hopefully possibly warn someone else if it isn’t too late. I made a post about a month ago about what I was going through. You can go back and read it if you want but it really won’t be of use.
So I’ll try and make this short and sweet. About 3 years I had a pulling in my heart that made me question my life. At this time, I was living with my mom and I believe that I just moved back in. We’ve had problems and we could never agree on much. I started going to a church that my aunt was going to and it wasn’t bad. I established my church home there.
Fast forward scripture was revealed to me little by little but I still didn’t have an understanding of the gospel. I ended up losing my job at the end of September of 2019 and started at a management company in November. I thought that it was God you know who gave me this job (because I wasn’t looking and I tried to not stress myself about). I ended up meeting this woman who is a follower of the Lord God. And every so subtly she was dropping hints of the “end times” she eventually revealed some pretty mind-blowing information about us, Jesus and this “WORLD” that we live in. With this new found information things changed. But not a lot. I was converted but I was still in my old ways not heeding to Holy Spirit.
Around the New Year I felt God may have been telling me now its time to get serious. But as evil and wicked as we are, I shrugged it off. January 11, I made a decision to do something I know that I didn’t need to do. I went upstairs and I was getting ready to watch a movie when a notification for a podcast came up called “The Day of The Lord” I clicked on it and they were talking about a passage in Exodus, I flipped to it in my bible and I read the footnote and that footnote lead me to Hebrews 10:26. If anyone doesn’t already know this passage is saying that if we deliberately sin knowing the truth then there then remains sacrifice for sins and one cannot be brought back to repentance. (which is true but this was referring to the Christian-Jews. Look it up) I was broken. It hit me that I was going to hell.
I know the truth but the truth is not in me. I see the world for what it is. I did not surrender willfully to the Holy Spirit. So only thing that remains is an “Fearful expectation of Judgement v. 27. I can tell you that I am not the same. I cannot eat anymore I only eat hear and there and when I do I feel guilty. Life now is worthless and pointless. I only see heaven and hell and I know where I’m going. I don’t have a reprobate mind or a seared conscious. I didn’t trust in the Lord and know I know my end. Even if I’m not saved Jesus is still Lord.
If anyone reading this doesn’t know who Jesus is I would recommend you get to know him. He is our only hope and the things that are happening in the world is only going to get worse. The door of His grace is closing and this world is going to go through some serious trouble. Please Please Please don’t be like me and keep putting it off. Seek Him while he may be found. God’s word is the Truth and the ONLY truth.
I hope this helps someone out.
So I’ll try and make this short and sweet. About 3 years I had a pulling in my heart that made me question my life. At this time, I was living with my mom and I believe that I just moved back in. We’ve had problems and we could never agree on much. I started going to a church that my aunt was going to and it wasn’t bad. I established my church home there.
Fast forward scripture was revealed to me little by little but I still didn’t have an understanding of the gospel. I ended up losing my job at the end of September of 2019 and started at a management company in November. I thought that it was God you know who gave me this job (because I wasn’t looking and I tried to not stress myself about). I ended up meeting this woman who is a follower of the Lord God. And every so subtly she was dropping hints of the “end times” she eventually revealed some pretty mind-blowing information about us, Jesus and this “WORLD” that we live in. With this new found information things changed. But not a lot. I was converted but I was still in my old ways not heeding to Holy Spirit.
Around the New Year I felt God may have been telling me now its time to get serious. But as evil and wicked as we are, I shrugged it off. January 11, I made a decision to do something I know that I didn’t need to do. I went upstairs and I was getting ready to watch a movie when a notification for a podcast came up called “The Day of The Lord” I clicked on it and they were talking about a passage in Exodus, I flipped to it in my bible and I read the footnote and that footnote lead me to Hebrews 10:26. If anyone doesn’t already know this passage is saying that if we deliberately sin knowing the truth then there then remains sacrifice for sins and one cannot be brought back to repentance. (which is true but this was referring to the Christian-Jews. Look it up) I was broken. It hit me that I was going to hell.
I know the truth but the truth is not in me. I see the world for what it is. I did not surrender willfully to the Holy Spirit. So only thing that remains is an “Fearful expectation of Judgement v. 27. I can tell you that I am not the same. I cannot eat anymore I only eat hear and there and when I do I feel guilty. Life now is worthless and pointless. I only see heaven and hell and I know where I’m going. I don’t have a reprobate mind or a seared conscious. I didn’t trust in the Lord and know I know my end. Even if I’m not saved Jesus is still Lord.
If anyone reading this doesn’t know who Jesus is I would recommend you get to know him. He is our only hope and the things that are happening in the world is only going to get worse. The door of His grace is closing and this world is going to go through some serious trouble. Please Please Please don’t be like me and keep putting it off. Seek Him while he may be found. God’s word is the Truth and the ONLY truth.
I hope this helps someone out.