The joys of emptiness
Feeling empty, alone and bored. I use to hate it, now I'm trying to find it. It was when everything was nothing, and the very insignificant something was everything. Whatever revolved around my life, all melted away. All reasoning became no reason, and what was important to me wasn't worth my two cents. When all those passed away, there was something. Something out of the nothing, it was the light. A narrow path that I had ignored for so long, so narrow and small that the things that use to be in my life was shading it, and now that it has all melted away I finally saw it. God was there waiting for me, and so my journey started by walking towards the start of the path.
When we are empty, our natural instinct is to avoid it. Find someone to talk to push away our feelings, to close our eyes as our whole world melts away. I wanted to have my eyes closed when I felt empty, but God didn't let me, now I thank God for it.
When my friends talk about themselves feeling empty, I cannot help them. No one can help them, except by being there you're helping them have their eyes remained closed.
At the time I felt empty, my friends were not around. My church at that time, had a deaf ear on teenage words. They condemed suicide, and the pressure was placed on those who were already pressured.
Then my world melted away, my reasons for living were as weak as a grain and the reasons for death over inflated.
Day by day, the emptiness closed in, I could feel it touching my skin, burning my eyes because it was closed...and when it all became unbearable I opened my eyes. My eyes that I didn't know existed, but from within I saw throughout, what this world all means. It melts just like ice.
God created this world, yet this world won't last forever, and just like ice it melts away and then we'll see the glory that has been there from the very start. If my arrogrance had held me one step back from opening my eyes, death would have held me captive years ago since.
Does it speak any sound, that the smallest of all actions is what evil has tried to overcome to bring me away from God. From all the smallest, my life on earth could have ended, but now it's extended.
Open your eyes of what convention has done to you. The true path is not convention, but Jesus. Convention is a blanket used to cover the human, it provides warmth and comfort, yet outside the blanket lies the cold and harsh truth. We cannot see through the blanket, but from within the blanket we can see light travelling in and we all know that the truth is the light. The one that gave us the blanket, is one that hid us from the light, the truth, the love and the salvation.
The Blanket was there to provide us a Want, we want to be warm and feel comfortable, but it is not our Need.
We need God, we need the light to see, we need the truth to survive.
It is hard to get out of the Blanket, and see the truth and feel freedom that your not blind by having the blanket covering the whole, but to know that the want's in your life is what kept you from experiencing freedom.
All in all, emptiness. What is it for me?
All it is, is about the blanket removed by Jesus and having me freed. Cold and alone was when I found Jesus.
And it was Jesus that showed me the light in my heart, glistering on the surface of the blue calm ocean. Jesus helped me find me, and who am I is the truth that I couldn't find and the one that gave the blanket tried to cover up. Yet all that time Jesus was sitting there, with the truth, my truth of who I am, and the truth that God loves me forever.
When we are empty, our natural instinct is to avoid it. Find someone to talk to push away our feelings, to close our eyes as our whole world melts away. I wanted to have my eyes closed when I felt empty, but God didn't let me, now I thank God for it.
When my friends talk about themselves feeling empty, I cannot help them. No one can help them, except by being there you're helping them have their eyes remained closed.
At the time I felt empty, my friends were not around. My church at that time, had a deaf ear on teenage words. They condemed suicide, and the pressure was placed on those who were already pressured.
Then my world melted away, my reasons for living were as weak as a grain and the reasons for death over inflated.
Day by day, the emptiness closed in, I could feel it touching my skin, burning my eyes because it was closed...and when it all became unbearable I opened my eyes. My eyes that I didn't know existed, but from within I saw throughout, what this world all means. It melts just like ice.
God created this world, yet this world won't last forever, and just like ice it melts away and then we'll see the glory that has been there from the very start. If my arrogrance had held me one step back from opening my eyes, death would have held me captive years ago since.
Does it speak any sound, that the smallest of all actions is what evil has tried to overcome to bring me away from God. From all the smallest, my life on earth could have ended, but now it's extended.
Open your eyes of what convention has done to you. The true path is not convention, but Jesus. Convention is a blanket used to cover the human, it provides warmth and comfort, yet outside the blanket lies the cold and harsh truth. We cannot see through the blanket, but from within the blanket we can see light travelling in and we all know that the truth is the light. The one that gave us the blanket, is one that hid us from the light, the truth, the love and the salvation.
The Blanket was there to provide us a Want, we want to be warm and feel comfortable, but it is not our Need.
We need God, we need the light to see, we need the truth to survive.
It is hard to get out of the Blanket, and see the truth and feel freedom that your not blind by having the blanket covering the whole, but to know that the want's in your life is what kept you from experiencing freedom.
All in all, emptiness. What is it for me?
All it is, is about the blanket removed by Jesus and having me freed. Cold and alone was when I found Jesus.
And it was Jesus that showed me the light in my heart, glistering on the surface of the blue calm ocean. Jesus helped me find me, and who am I is the truth that I couldn't find and the one that gave the blanket tried to cover up. Yet all that time Jesus was sitting there, with the truth, my truth of who I am, and the truth that God loves me forever.