~ THE INNER ROOM ~ A Place to Withdraw To - WELCOME! (please read the OP) (2)

[Moriah_Conquering_Wind]

Kewl. I shall endeavor to honor this hospitality with pure authenticity -- being nothing more nor less than precisely what I am.

Warts and all.

 

[Moriah_Conquering_Wind]

OK I suck. If I really wanted to give it the highest honor, I'd simply leave, and spare you all the insanity!

 

[foreveramanda]

OK I suck. If I really wanted to give it the highest honor, I'd simply leave, and spare you all the insanity!

but insanity makes life fun

 

[Moriah_Conquering_Wind]

Hehehe a girl after my own heart.


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.......... Or a fool who does not know what she is invoking!!

 

[Bondman]

hi everyone please read this
http://www.christianforums.com/t5769841-please-pray-for-me.html
im so going to miss everyone.
i love u all. it may mean im back in future i dont know but i have to hear god clearly in this. please pray for me.

love Jo

Dearest Jo! I hope you know how much you are loved and apreciated here!

In my reasonably long life, many times I've experienced that when God takes something away it seems to always be for our very best! - part of Him teaching and training us towards making us a true Woman or Man of God. And that's a WOW! It can be hard, but the rewards of obedience can be great indeed!

Thankyou for all you've done in The Inner Room! He loves you and we love you. Go in peace, and we hope to see you back soon should that be His will for you!

Much love!

- Bondman and his Lady

 

[J4Jesus]

[move][sign]BONDMAN IS HERE!! [/sign][/move]



[move][sign]BONDMAN! BONDMAN! [/sign][/move]

 

[Moriah_Conquering_Wind]

*growls*

i hate people.

no seriously, i do.

i wish i could say exactly how i feel but it would probably freak out some geek who would look up my IP and send the cops around for a "nice chat" about my state of mind.

 

[Moriah_Conquering_Wind]

see that's the problem with your species. you condemn anger and hatred and violence but then you don't even permit people the outlets they need to diffuse the intensity of their emotions so that it WON'T build up and explode and cause them to do stupid hurtful things of a permanent nature to others that they will regret.

you say confess, open up, ask for help and then the minute someone gets real about how dark it is inside, you can't handle it -- you take counsel with the worst imaginings of your own fears and try to PUNISH them for doing what they actually SHOULD be doing -- TALKING about how they feel so they WON'T implode and lose control and do something stupid.

because of this, no one with any real darkness inside feels safe to talk about it or ask for help dealing with it anymore because they know they will be punished for their THOUGHTS as IF those thoughts were already ACTIONS. so you CONDEMN US to isolation from the rest of society by what YOU ALL do. and THEN you want to condemn us for BEING isolated from society at all as if that was OUR choice. WHY DO YOU CREATE YOUR MONSTERS SO METICULOUSLY and then blame the works of YOUR hands for what YOU have FORCED them to become? do you know what happens to a tree that is shut off from fresh air and sunlight? do you know what happens to a wound that is NOT allowed to pus out and bleed??? do you have a CLUE at ALL???

(*note this is not directed to anyone personal here in this thread, i don't even know you personally, it is in general how i feel about human beings*)

 

[Moriah_Conquering_Wind]

people tell you, stand up for yourself, define your boundaries, don't let others push you around or abuse you or walk over you or disrespect your boundaries. what they don't tell you is that those determined to do so will do so anyway and will find ANYTHING in the world they can find to make a nuisance of themselves over. If they can't find fault in the substance of what you say they will nit pick at words. if they can't control you and push you around they will drive you insane making an insistent nuisance of themselves until they have aroused Murder in your heart toward them and made you desire to destroy them utterly and then they will blame YOU for being such an evil horrible wretch that you have feelings like that, that you get angry, that you feel violent, that you want to destroy what annoys you. WHY are there misery makers and HOW DARE THEY CLAIM TO BE AGENTS OF JESUS CHRIST. You know once upon a time I would have sacrificed myself to bring Hitler or Satan into heaven but now I'm trying to figure out how I can get out of eternity because I don't want to spend it with these jerks that apparently God is hunkydory OK with because He SURE LETS THEM RUN AROUND pushing their arrogance on sensitive spirits that have genuine spiritual worth, needling and provoking relentlessly making a nuisance of themselves until you can't stand it anymore and want to just smash their faces in. But hey somehow that makes THEM God's wonderful chosen cherished MOLLYCODDLED diapered little bundles of joy and YOU are (I am) the villian because you want to destroy them even though they are the ones making themselves worse than worthless to both God AND humanity.

 

[Bondman]

Our ever-wise Amanda has given you some good responses MCW!

Hi, Moriah_Conquering_Wind, and WELCOME to The Inner Room!

Are you offering me bread and salt with that?

Definitely! Will throw in some Tomato Sauce as well! (Aussie for Ketchup).

This thread is an amazing one - the people in it I mean! We love and care MUCH!

In that case, maybe I should leave before I end up destroying it.

If we can't love and care for you just because you appear to be a little, well, may I say 'different', then I tend to feel we may as well all pack up and go home!

In your profile you sound to have had it really tough.

Goes with the territory.

Lot of truth in that - same for many of us here! Some of your experiences do sound pretty horrendous tho.

At this point anyone who doesn't live inside my citadel is likely to misinterpret anything I say or do, as well as hold it against me. I want to speak the truth, but no one can hear me. I'm shouting loud and no one can actually hear me, because they are all dwelling at the Blasted Tower where language was divided. I would rebuild the tower that was struck down and cause all the peoples of the earth to HEAR one another in their own tongue -- but -- cannot be done without their conscious cooperation. (There's always a catch, isn't there.)

Not sure I can agree:

Hearing what you say. I would be surprised if we could not 'hear' you. I find the Believers here astonishing, and one of their many strengths is that they LISTEN!

Misinterpreting. Well all of us have this problem. Part of being human! But if we do misunderstand, then just EXPLAIN! I can promise you that we will do our very best to listen, and aim to get on your wavelength. If we still misunderstand, explain again - till we're "together"!

Hold something against you. Again I'd be surprised if this happened. To date I cannot recall even one instance of this here.

We would just want to support and care about you. Many of your prayer points you wrote are things that people find help with, here in The Inner Room.

Really? Are you well protected here? Can you give me your assurance that if I were to hang around here for a time, you would not feel the need to destroy me to preserve what you have and you would not be threatened by what I am?

Similar to answers above. I've been around enough years to know that there can be no assurances of anything in this world - EXCEPT for God, and the THINGS of God. HE is totally unchangeable and 'reliable'. We're all human! Having said that, no one that I know here (to date) would ever want to hurt anyone let alone 'destroy' you!!! (perish the thought - pun intended!)

Preserve what we have/feel threatened? Are you wanting to 'test' us perhaps?? If you're genuine - and I've chosen to give you the full benefit of the doubt that you are (I'm sure you know about 'trolls') - then yes, it's possible some could feel 'threatened' and feel like The Inner Room is being 'changed'.

Here, as the one who started this thread I'll speak just for myself. The key for me is RESPECT. If people treat each other respectfully, then it's amazing what we can share from incredibly differing viewpoints - without this 'destroying' anything! Maybe to put this another way, anyone coming here to try and destroy The Inner Room and us, I would request a Moderator to remove that person tout suite! But all we need is to treat each other with decency and respect.

Finally, on this, The Inner Room has been built on God's Word and that is where we stand as serious Christians ('fair dinkum' Christians in Aussie parlance, i.e., those who seriously mean business with the Lord!) Doesn't mean someone cannot disagree; does mean this needs to be done in a non-disruptive way, or that would ultimately destroy what God has built here - and therefore again I would take immediate action on this.

I ask because I'm in need of a place where I don't have to pretend. Doesn't mean I need a stage to dance on -- not looking for one -- just a place I don't have to pretend and then worry everyone is putting me under some scrutiny to find all the flaws and build a case from them.

If not, best we shake and part ways now. But I had to at least acknowledge your welcome message.

You need NOT pretend here! We all aim to 'be ourselves', warts n all, like you said (we all have warts!!! *haha*), and that's a major reason why/how people find love and acceptance - and help - in the thread. The day 'acceptance' gets lost from here, again is the day we may as well give up.

Finally, and as a sort of 'summary', building on something you said on another forum, I reckon we can be okay for each other here!!

Love and blessings!

- Bondman and his Lady



EDIT! When writing this, I hadn't read your other posts above this. Where did people/Christians do all of those dreadful-sounding things to you. I know it can happen. But surely not here on CF? What do you feel that you most need to help you with this situation?

- BM

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The Inner Room - INDEX of Bondman Messages! ​

 

[Moriah_Conquering_Wind]

I am many things. But "troll" is not one of them.

I could post my rules (i.e. "101 guide to getting along with Moriah") if you are interested?

 

[AllForJesus]

Moriah_Conquering_Wind
I just have a curious question can i?

 

[Moriah_Conquering_Wind]

I could post my rules (i.e. "101 guide to getting along with Moriah") if you are interested?

But not this morning. I need some sleep. Even though I'm working from home tomorrow -- I mean later today -- I still have to work.

Between 3, 12, and bona fide insomnia I am gonna die of chronic sleep dep before the year is over. I swear it.

 

[Moriah_Conquering_Wind]

Moriah_Conquering_Wind
I just have a curious question can i?

can you what?

 

[AllForJesus]

But not this morning. I need some sleep. Even though I'm working from home tomorrow -- I mean later today -- I still have to work.

Between 3, 12, and bona fide insomnia I am gonna die of chronic sleep dep before the year is over. I swear it.

sure ok.
You need to sleep...

"Dear God,
As they lie there seeking another good night of restful sleep, give them the peace of mind and the ability to relax.
Fulfill their needs for mental and physical restoration so they may wake up ready for another beautiful day which I hope You will allow them to live to enjoy with praise and thanks to You and our Lord Jesus.
Amen."

 

[AllForJesus]

In peace I will both lie down and sleep, for thou alone, O Lord, dost make me to dwell in safety.
Psalm 4:8

 

[Moriah_Conquering_Wind]

EDIT! When writing this, I hadn't read your other posts above this. Where did people/Christians do all of those dreadful-sounding things to you. I know it can happen. But surely not here on CF? What do you feel that you most need to help you with this situation?

- BM

oh god. everywhere. all over. all sorts. everywhere i've gone, and for all the years all the long long hundreds of thousands of years (it feels like). i'm not exaggerating (about the everywhereness) and yes here on CF as well. everywhere. it would be EASIER if you asked me to name anywhere this has NOT happened.

i HATE it, i HATE it, i HATE it. no one understands how painful it is, what it feels like, this constant tension, this exhausting continual expenditure of energy to try to "be good" -- that is, to not utterly destroy them, drain every last drop of hope and faith from their lives, break their spirits, shatter their cores, fling them into the flaming pits of because and disfigure them with heart splintering sorrow and the most pointless, futile forms of madness.constructable. or on a simpler level to have to keep one foot in some bizarrely incongruous left-brain ditch to make sure i don't post common vocabulary that will make some nosey-derrier'ed overzealous moderator type have caniptions and impose their freaking anal gnats upon me and stir Murder's fire even hotter in the process.

it is exhausting. STOP TRYING TO CONTROL ME. you don't have my sign or my seal or my number; you have no authority, place or power, you won't DO me the SIMPLE courtesy of even TRYING to get it RIGHT you are a HUMAN you are my INFERIOR you will NOT presume to command ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and if that's not bad enough -- i at least see the logic and necessity for moderators on a board and can respect the job they do enough to tolerate them and cooperate with them -- but there are all these arrogant sorts who want to try to presume to say what your words "actually" mean (when they mean nothing more nor less than what you said) and try to pass judgment on your integrity or other traits of character just because you don't FEEL like entering some intense debate over something they're worked up about at 2:30 a.m. when you haven't slept for half a week. ARGH its enough to give me contortions

 

[Moriah_Conquering_Wind]

ack cross posties. you can ask what you wish. that other bit was musing tacked on to another thought. my brain is crashing and needs a reboot LOL

 

[AllForJesus]

 

[Moriah_Conquering_Wind]

WHO ALL IS IN THIS THREAD ANYWAY.

There had better not be SPIES here.

You know, people who watch, scrutinize, and then report their speculations and conjectures to others. And call it doing the Lord's work or "praying for" someone! My hind END!