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The One what does something for/about SINNERS, not pretends to and claims to but in reality can only be bothered helping those who have become righteous enough temporarily to "choose" to be saved. So Moriah believes God has His purposes in letting her be daimonizomai. And when He bes ready to change that, He will enable her to desire freedom and bring her to those what can help her obtain it.
Agreed! Thinking of changing my username to CF Apostate.It has about given up on CF though. Very disappointed & sad at the direction the site has taken recently.
M_C_W said:
Precious One,
I'm believing God with you on this... He works in us 'both to WILL and DO of His good pleasure.'
It began at a young age for me as well. Funny, I have those words, "The Big Bad Wolf" tattooed on my left rear shoulder.Oh my Iz this brings back memories!! As early as the age of somewhere between 4 and 6 it began identifying with the "villians" in films instead of the heroes. It remembers distinctly perceiving that the hostile, nasty attitudes toward them coming from the so-called "good" people bes at least partially to blame for them going the route that they did. Pretty astute for a 4-6 year old, eh? Though it had quite the teacher at 3 ... some late night chats with the Big Bad Wolf taught it some interesting abstract moral reasoning beyond that of most adults at that exceedingly premature age. LOL.
Awesome post! Jesus truly has a hold of you!Have always identified with the so-called "rebels" ... it actually prefers the term "revolutionaries" actually, as "rebel" implies the System bes good and should not be bucked whereas "revolutionary" implies the System sucks and SHOULD be not just bucked but overturned and ousted! Have always found far more heinous and objectionable "traits" in those priding themselves on being the bread 'n' butter of society than in those marginalised or pushed to its fringes. Seems ppls whats got "no vices" (so to speak) have tremendous internal vices which blacken and sour their hearts and make them cold, judgmental, cruel, or eternally obsessed with trying to police and correct everyone whose "vices" bes visible. Whereas those with "visible" vices turn out to be deeper thinkers with clearer view of things and hearts of gold ready to accept and embrace anyone. By this it bes easy to see how/why it bes said JC preferred the company of the prostitutes, publicans, and other overt "sinners" to that of the so-called "righteous". Those ppls with no obvious exterior sins bes the ones with the nastiest hearts full of hypocrisy, selfishness, deceit, oppression, etc. while those caught in obvious sins had better interior qualities for they bes them poor in spirit what JC callsy BLESSED.
This one here have a unique sense of calling that no one else comprehends: it believes God has ordained its current configuration and keeps it like this for purposes of His own. Not easy to walk and it means spending a lot of time away from God and genuinely believing itself lost for all eternity. But when He makes His reasons known it bes exceedingly sweet. It believes in the Romans 5 God/JC and accepts nothing less, nothing else, than that One. The One that helps the HELPLESS, not "only those what helps themselves."
It has about given up on CF though. Very disappointed & sad at the direction the site has taken recently.
Honestly it bes not sure one can do "wrong for the right reasons" (though it feels fairly certain one can do so-called "right" for VERY WRONG reasons, and delude oneself into thinking one BES "right" and therefore HAS all "right" to do that) but it does know JC sez the prostitutes and publicans would enter the Kingdom before the Pharisees. Must be that "Blessed be the poor in spirit" clause again....those who imagine themselves spiritually/religiously the cream of the crop blessed with all the blessings go around trampling down those they perceive to be "sinners" and beneath themselves. The kinds of things they do and say to just TWO classes of people alone -- daimonizomai (those afflicted with demons) and the mentally ill (especially those who bes depressed and/or suicidal) -- bes so utterly, shockingly appalling and astonishing in their stark levels of utter insensitivity and cruelty it makes you wonder whether such persons have EVER ONCE in their lives encountered the true and living God or for that matter, their own true selves.
That bes interesting -- never looked at it that way before. Only looked at it the other way -- that the mask bes imposed by society's expectations and demands (outward conformity of behavioral and interactive forms, etc.) hiding true self & true feelings, etc. and thus it has never identified with ppls what wore them because it bes never able to wear one itself. It bes so ill-fitting it bes constantly slipping off even if it tries, and even if it manages for 5 minutes to get the durned thing properly placed so that it should be seamless going over the nose, with the eyeholes where they belong, etc. it NEVER seems to work, never convinces anyone, really, so why bother even to wear the darn thing.
Moriah tends to identify with evil geniuses turned bitter and villianous due to lack of well-earned recognition and appreciation by others, or else tragically misunderstood and therefore mistreated or in some other way cast out from places of warmth, nurture, connectivity, etc. and thus rendered mad by having been backed into a corner what pitted their own internal integrity against whatever tru-ism had to be upheld externally to satisfy whatever powers that be. Lucifer comes to mind here.
...So Moriah believes God has His purposes in letting her be daimonizomai...
It has about given up on CF though. Very disappointed & sad at the direction the site has taken recently.
I found this blurb from a long defunct profile while rummaging files for something else. I wouldnt be likely to say such things now that I'm so much more mature <insert eyeroll here>Anyway, you should see my sons' looks of shock when I cheer on "The Green Goblin."
but it sheds some light in its way....Anyway back to what you said, BlackFyre -- it can certainly see that, in a kind of "curse of the magus" fashion. In other words given that others cannot perceive the truth of one's being by having said truth displayed openly, because others bes prone always to passing judgments, then filtering perceptions through those judgments, as well as just general misperceiving / misconstruing / misinterpreting -- then the mask becomes that which hides the lie that OTHERS read from the TRUTH and becomes a kind of template upon which to attempt to convey that TRUTH ironically through a "lie" of sorts. Which does not work either, but at least that way, with the mask, one feels a layer of insulation against the pain of misjudgment because, after all, it bes the mask them humans bes mucking about misperceiving and not the actual true being of oneself! Oh if only Moriah had such a layer, but as stated, it has never worked for her, so she must bear the full weight and full impact and full scale cutting and bleeding of it entirely upon her own face.
