The hardest time of the month?

[ulais0205]

The hardest time of the month....just after finding out I am not pregnant.

I am pretty pessimistic towards pregnancy right now...I don't believe I ever will be...blah blah...

So I tell myself all month "I'm not pregnant I'm not pregnant I'm not pregnant!" To make it easier when AF arrives....but for some reason I am still crying as I root around in the bathroom drawer for a tampon...

Anyone else been staring mutinously at your tampon/pad box? :o

oh yes! even shopping fo the stupid things is enough to send me into bucket loads of tears!

I went through a stage of not wanting to have intercourse with my husband cos then at least there was no doubt that af would arrive and there was no point being hopeful...