- Jun 28, 2004
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Until lastnight I was a TOTAL perfectionist. Whenever I made, wrote, or did things they had to be JUST right! If they weren't I'd start over. Once I wrote a note to my best friend 4 times before I was satisfied enough to give it to her. I've been praying for some relief for sometime now and it never came. UNTIL LASTNIGHT!
I sat down at my desk with a bunch of beads and wire....i was going to make a beaded lizard for a friend. I worked for an hour, carefully making sure that each strand was in a perfect row. I got down the the last toe and began to tie it. But as soon as I tied it the whole leg mysteriously broke off and beads flew all over my bed! I starting crying. Yea...I cryed. Because I worked so hard and it was frustrating!
After settling down I gathered all the beads and realized that I was missing two of my long beads...the ones that I needed. After looking all over i realized they were gone completely. I could never make a lizard that color again.
I slumped down against my bed and cried. As I cried I prayed "God I don't know why I'm crying but I need comfort" The second I said Amen it began to rain on my roof. I looked at the radar on the weather channel but there wasn't a cloud on the radar in site. It was just over my house. I heard a voice in my head "I'll cry for you...look at your desk." I walked saddly over to my desk and realized that there were long beads...but instead of Red they were clear, pure, white. In another compartment of my organizer i noticed the separated white and gold beads a week before to make a beaded angel. I smiled, dryed my tears and made the angel. When I finished, I looked outside and the rain was gone.
You guys...God is truely there...and he truely cares and loves you. Stop the doubt if there is any and have faith. You don't need a reason. Just believe. Watch for signs that God's there....it could be the most unusal things...even a beaded lizard.
Abbey
I sat down at my desk with a bunch of beads and wire....i was going to make a beaded lizard for a friend. I worked for an hour, carefully making sure that each strand was in a perfect row. I got down the the last toe and began to tie it. But as soon as I tied it the whole leg mysteriously broke off and beads flew all over my bed! I starting crying. Yea...I cryed. Because I worked so hard and it was frustrating!
After settling down I gathered all the beads and realized that I was missing two of my long beads...the ones that I needed. After looking all over i realized they were gone completely. I could never make a lizard that color again.
I slumped down against my bed and cried. As I cried I prayed "God I don't know why I'm crying but I need comfort" The second I said Amen it began to rain on my roof. I looked at the radar on the weather channel but there wasn't a cloud on the radar in site. It was just over my house. I heard a voice in my head "I'll cry for you...look at your desk." I walked saddly over to my desk and realized that there were long beads...but instead of Red they were clear, pure, white. In another compartment of my organizer i noticed the separated white and gold beads a week before to make a beaded angel. I smiled, dryed my tears and made the angel. When I finished, I looked outside and the rain was gone.
You guys...God is truely there...and he truely cares and loves you. Stop the doubt if there is any and have faith. You don't need a reason. Just believe. Watch for signs that God's there....it could be the most unusal things...even a beaded lizard.
Abbey
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