This is just one of those things where I need to vent.
I've been doing really well on being content with being single, there have been some ladies that I had an interest in getting to know better, but I was really doing ok. Last weekend I went backpacking with a guy I'm friends with and a couple of ladies, one I knew a little bit and the other I just met when we left for the trip. We had a great trip, it was a lot of fun. However, coming back this week I've found that I really dug the gal that I met on the trip. It really took me by surprise. I'm guessing it comes from the part of me that still isn't really content and false intimacy created by spending a few days of intense time with a small group of people. She seems to be a great gal with a real love for Christ, but I can't say that we really connected in any way. It just really caught me by surprise. My prayer this week has been that I would desire God the way that my heart desires this woman and that if He does have more plans for this woman in my life that He would bring our paths together. I figure I'll make some effort to get to know her better, but I don't believe that it's right for me to purposely "hit on" her. I trust that if God has something planned then He is going to provide opportunity for us to get to know each other better as friends before a romantic relationship develops.
It's one of those things where I don't expect anything to go anywhere, but I guess God revealed to me that I still need to grow in my contentment. Just needed to vent on that some.
I've been doing really well on being content with being single, there have been some ladies that I had an interest in getting to know better, but I was really doing ok. Last weekend I went backpacking with a guy I'm friends with and a couple of ladies, one I knew a little bit and the other I just met when we left for the trip. We had a great trip, it was a lot of fun. However, coming back this week I've found that I really dug the gal that I met on the trip. It really took me by surprise. I'm guessing it comes from the part of me that still isn't really content and false intimacy created by spending a few days of intense time with a small group of people. She seems to be a great gal with a real love for Christ, but I can't say that we really connected in any way. It just really caught me by surprise. My prayer this week has been that I would desire God the way that my heart desires this woman and that if He does have more plans for this woman in my life that He would bring our paths together. I figure I'll make some effort to get to know her better, but I don't believe that it's right for me to purposely "hit on" her. I trust that if God has something planned then He is going to provide opportunity for us to get to know each other better as friends before a romantic relationship develops.
It's one of those things where I don't expect anything to go anywhere, but I guess God revealed to me that I still need to grow in my contentment. Just needed to vent on that some.
