I had to get this off my chest. I found it was the last chance I had at redemption and forgiveness and to let the Lord into my heart. It is very detailed but I feel that the background is needed for what I felt in my heart and prayed.
1. I can't remember the details of the early events well, however, my former friendship group were at my dealers house for the night. we are upstairs using while downstairs the dealer is scoring. at this moment I feel like the person selling to my dealer is evil, even more so than the dealer who is right into witchcraft. Im closest to the window and after hearing the door close which never happens the dealer comes upstairs. we are told of the new score. I look out the window as there is still some light but see nothing of the person. I think that whoever it was is evil inherently and relectant to try what was scored. Earlier that evening I saw the grim reaper standing on top of the dealers house waving those below inward.
2. after hours at this house and the night starting to do my head in my friend tells me that they dont feel well. thinking nothing of it they rush into the bathroom. the rest of us think nothing of it and disregard it. shortly after they come out and ask for more of the new score however have no money. the dealer refuses but the friend takes more anyway. claiming they need to come down to slow their heart beat the friend takes some anyway. the dealer gets angry and argues. the friend leaves for the bathroom a second time and remains there for about an hour. I go in to check and find that my friend is slumped by the toilet and covered with vomit. I ask to call and ambulance but the dealer refuses saying it will bring police aswell and that it is not an option. we learn that the friend has had two different drugs and is not coping, vomit, throwing up blood, not responding I feel that in this state of mind we will all end up in jail.
3. After arguing with my dealer I went back to the friend on the floor. The dealers girlfriend was tapping on their stomach and talking to them trying to wake them up. I knelt down on the left side of their body and started praying and remembering Bible verses' and pieces of religious text to recite and pray over them. The dealers girlfriend was crying as I said this and then trying to rebuke what I was praying. After saying the Lord's prayer I propped the friend up against the toilet and held their head up next to the toilet bowl. I remember it being the most intimate I had ever been with someone. I kept praying and asking the Lord to save this persons life that they don't die. I had their blood and vomit on me but in my mind the Lord told me not to care. I was saying that if they die I will have the blood on my hands forever. Begging and pleading for the Lord to find a solution after please help us, please do something, I said I praise you my Lord and Savior and instantly the head in my hands opened its eyes, was no longer a head, but a friend.
4. I stayed in the bathroom as we both rode out the duration of the effects and the time I kept praising outloud and in my head. I was so thankful.
The days that followed this were a time for repentance and prayer. I thank the Lord for my life and the life of the friend. We are but a mist that appears for a little while which rings true for me.
-eckhart
1. I can't remember the details of the early events well, however, my former friendship group were at my dealers house for the night. we are upstairs using while downstairs the dealer is scoring. at this moment I feel like the person selling to my dealer is evil, even more so than the dealer who is right into witchcraft. Im closest to the window and after hearing the door close which never happens the dealer comes upstairs. we are told of the new score. I look out the window as there is still some light but see nothing of the person. I think that whoever it was is evil inherently and relectant to try what was scored. Earlier that evening I saw the grim reaper standing on top of the dealers house waving those below inward.
2. after hours at this house and the night starting to do my head in my friend tells me that they dont feel well. thinking nothing of it they rush into the bathroom. the rest of us think nothing of it and disregard it. shortly after they come out and ask for more of the new score however have no money. the dealer refuses but the friend takes more anyway. claiming they need to come down to slow their heart beat the friend takes some anyway. the dealer gets angry and argues. the friend leaves for the bathroom a second time and remains there for about an hour. I go in to check and find that my friend is slumped by the toilet and covered with vomit. I ask to call and ambulance but the dealer refuses saying it will bring police aswell and that it is not an option. we learn that the friend has had two different drugs and is not coping, vomit, throwing up blood, not responding I feel that in this state of mind we will all end up in jail.
3. After arguing with my dealer I went back to the friend on the floor. The dealers girlfriend was tapping on their stomach and talking to them trying to wake them up. I knelt down on the left side of their body and started praying and remembering Bible verses' and pieces of religious text to recite and pray over them. The dealers girlfriend was crying as I said this and then trying to rebuke what I was praying. After saying the Lord's prayer I propped the friend up against the toilet and held their head up next to the toilet bowl. I remember it being the most intimate I had ever been with someone. I kept praying and asking the Lord to save this persons life that they don't die. I had their blood and vomit on me but in my mind the Lord told me not to care. I was saying that if they die I will have the blood on my hands forever. Begging and pleading for the Lord to find a solution after please help us, please do something, I said I praise you my Lord and Savior and instantly the head in my hands opened its eyes, was no longer a head, but a friend.
4. I stayed in the bathroom as we both rode out the duration of the effects and the time I kept praising outloud and in my head. I was so thankful.
The days that followed this were a time for repentance and prayer. I thank the Lord for my life and the life of the friend. We are but a mist that appears for a little while which rings true for me.
-eckhart
