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Testimony of a Hater
Enter a Demon
When I was a very small child my fathers alcoholism had brought a Demon into the lives of our family. In time an evil spirit attached itself to me and thus would begin a lifetime of demonic oppression and harassment.
One of my many obsessions as a child was swearing at God. It did not last long, just one of many that came and left.
Enter Nazism
During High School I became obsessed with Adolf Hitler. Hitler would remain a force in my life for many years.
One time myself and two others walked into the town Catholic Church wearing Nazi armbands and I saluted the priest. I would wear armbands from time to time and I hung Nazi flags in my apartments.
I wrote many short essays on Hitler and each year celebrated his birthday. I did not believe in the Holocaust and tattooed myself with swastikas.
The Christian persecutor
I came to hate Christians and the church. I used to shoot for target practice small statues of the Virgin Mary and Jesus. We would harass the local Christians in town by going to the meetings and be disruptive.
Later on, we would make harassing phone calls to the ministers wife, scream and holler that we were demons coming to haunt them. After I burned a cross on their front lawn they moved out of town.
Visions of the Demon
At times in my life, I saw this demon. My future wife one time during a tender moment screamed and started crying. She said that my face changed and for a minute I looked as a frightening creature.
Just before I was married I decided to quit drinking and be more responsible. This demon haunted me for a whole month by showing itself to me with just its face, which looked normal except it was the brightest red Id ever saw and sometimes just a profile or eyes. I started drinking again and it vanished.
Beside drinking like my father I also was drawn into pornographic pictures and later porno on the internet. I was unable to really enjoy healthy sex and solo masturbation seemed to please me more and what an addiction that had become.
The hate grows
I became a racist and hated people of color and Jews. I joined the Ku Klux Klan and was a member for many years. I made rank in the organization and recruited members in my hometown and started a small group.
We armed ourselves for a coming race war. Drank in bars and harassed local blacks we came across.
Never an Atheist
I was never an atheist and though believed in God, I did not attend church. At times I hated my life and when coming home drunk I would lash out at God and say Just show me a sign, just a small sign and I will follow you, well that did not happen.
Now in my 50s I was certainly heading into a black abyss I might never be able to come out of. Something seemed to be beckoning to me to come, I had no clue to what it was.
The Knock
In 2009 at age 56, I knocked on the door of Jesus. He let me in and my life changed before me. I repented my past sins and life and told Jesus I would follow him for the rest of my life.
The hate vanished like in a single moment. My eyes were now open to a beautiful light for the first time. Jesus accepted me with open arms and complete love and I was a new babe again in a new life.
As a new Christian I had many rough roads but on June 26th, 2011 I experienced a powerful conversion.
Not sure why, but I prayed the Rosary.
The Blessed Virgin Mary had been all my life waiting for me. I now pray the Rosary every day (does not matter that I am Presbyterian) and now devoted to the Virgin Mary.
I cant seem to get enough knowledge about Jesus, his life and the bible, I am reading two or more books at the same time. I love going to into churches and love looking at all their splendor and awe.
I try to repent the sins I commit (I am of course still a sinner), I loathe this world and its evil works and pray many times a day.
The demon has now fled from me and I know he hangs close and how he must howl that I am now a Christian, it is still a constant battle with this evil but now I know he is a defeated foe and though it tests my faith in Christ, I must remain strong and obedient to Jesus.
I am now sure where my life is going, as of yet Jesus has not let me know. A few times Jesus and the Holy Spirit had have come to me by thoughts which has helped me at that time very much.
Peace and love for Jesus now fill my heart.
Peace and love be with you all, always.
NLTRay
Enter a Demon
When I was a very small child my fathers alcoholism had brought a Demon into the lives of our family. In time an evil spirit attached itself to me and thus would begin a lifetime of demonic oppression and harassment.
One of my many obsessions as a child was swearing at God. It did not last long, just one of many that came and left.
Enter Nazism
During High School I became obsessed with Adolf Hitler. Hitler would remain a force in my life for many years.
One time myself and two others walked into the town Catholic Church wearing Nazi armbands and I saluted the priest. I would wear armbands from time to time and I hung Nazi flags in my apartments.
I wrote many short essays on Hitler and each year celebrated his birthday. I did not believe in the Holocaust and tattooed myself with swastikas.
The Christian persecutor
I came to hate Christians and the church. I used to shoot for target practice small statues of the Virgin Mary and Jesus. We would harass the local Christians in town by going to the meetings and be disruptive.
Later on, we would make harassing phone calls to the ministers wife, scream and holler that we were demons coming to haunt them. After I burned a cross on their front lawn they moved out of town.
Visions of the Demon
At times in my life, I saw this demon. My future wife one time during a tender moment screamed and started crying. She said that my face changed and for a minute I looked as a frightening creature.
Just before I was married I decided to quit drinking and be more responsible. This demon haunted me for a whole month by showing itself to me with just its face, which looked normal except it was the brightest red Id ever saw and sometimes just a profile or eyes. I started drinking again and it vanished.
Beside drinking like my father I also was drawn into pornographic pictures and later porno on the internet. I was unable to really enjoy healthy sex and solo masturbation seemed to please me more and what an addiction that had become.
The hate grows
I became a racist and hated people of color and Jews. I joined the Ku Klux Klan and was a member for many years. I made rank in the organization and recruited members in my hometown and started a small group.
We armed ourselves for a coming race war. Drank in bars and harassed local blacks we came across.
Never an Atheist
I was never an atheist and though believed in God, I did not attend church. At times I hated my life and when coming home drunk I would lash out at God and say Just show me a sign, just a small sign and I will follow you, well that did not happen.
Now in my 50s I was certainly heading into a black abyss I might never be able to come out of. Something seemed to be beckoning to me to come, I had no clue to what it was.
The Knock
In 2009 at age 56, I knocked on the door of Jesus. He let me in and my life changed before me. I repented my past sins and life and told Jesus I would follow him for the rest of my life.
The hate vanished like in a single moment. My eyes were now open to a beautiful light for the first time. Jesus accepted me with open arms and complete love and I was a new babe again in a new life.
As a new Christian I had many rough roads but on June 26th, 2011 I experienced a powerful conversion.
Not sure why, but I prayed the Rosary.
The Blessed Virgin Mary had been all my life waiting for me. I now pray the Rosary every day (does not matter that I am Presbyterian) and now devoted to the Virgin Mary.
I cant seem to get enough knowledge about Jesus, his life and the bible, I am reading two or more books at the same time. I love going to into churches and love looking at all their splendor and awe.
I try to repent the sins I commit (I am of course still a sinner), I loathe this world and its evil works and pray many times a day.
The demon has now fled from me and I know he hangs close and how he must howl that I am now a Christian, it is still a constant battle with this evil but now I know he is a defeated foe and though it tests my faith in Christ, I must remain strong and obedient to Jesus.
I am now sure where my life is going, as of yet Jesus has not let me know. A few times Jesus and the Holy Spirit had have come to me by thoughts which has helped me at that time very much.
Peace and love for Jesus now fill my heart.
Peace and love be with you all, always.
NLTRay
