Temptation to go back

[flowerforever7]

Hey,

Please pray for me as I have been struggling with thoughts of dabbling in drugs again. I have been feeling depressed as I have no job/income, no car and I am sleeping on someone's couch. I have been to 6 interviews where mostly all went well but could not take the jobs for some reason or another such as the hours being before or after available bus service, etc. There are some other stressors I have going on compiling everything. Please pray for my situation? As a Christian I know I cannot commit suicide, so the next thing that seems like it would bring relief is drugs. I know this seems illogical but it seems better than suicide. Even though I know drugs are not a Christian thing to do; the pull to do them is just so strong right now. Thank you for your prayers.

 

[NoelAsa]

Praying for you. I hope that you are seeing some one about your depression. Things do get better. Trust in God.

 

[reuben123]

I know you know this but Drugs are not your answer! The answer is Jesus and you need to hang in there and continue to pray and God will open doors for you. I will pray for you for sure!




I just joined this site and i am looking for guidance if you could give some. I fought addiction for years with almost all drugs, i have now started a christian recovery center in Washington state and i want to talk to people and try to help them for free and if they are interested i would tell them about my recovery center as well. Is there a better forum or way to do this?
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Thanks
Reuben

 

[LilPeaceful1]

Praying for you, Flowerforever7. God loves you so very much.

God is not mad at you, He wants to help you. He would say:

"Oh my child, come to me, let's firgure out why you turn to drugs in this situation rather than me?"

Flowerforever7, if you need to send me a message please feel free anytime. I am here to listen. We serve also a gentle God who is willing and able to help us, comfort us and love on us during recovery.

Sometimes relapse is part of recovery, but I am praying you don't get stuck in relapse. God is able to deliver.

 

[Kristen.NewCreation]

Hang in there flower - you've come so far! What has helped you get through the tough times in the past?

 

[flowerforever7]

Thanks for your prayers and words of encouragement; I am in a better state mentally right this moment. I think what helped me get through tough times in the past when I was tempted to use drugs to cope, was just refuse no matter what, not even allowing myself to have a glass of wine or a beer when feeling that way. I know for me, all it takes is just one small compromise then things just start to spiral downward from there. Thanks for your prayers, like I said I am feeling better right now, but I know right now in my life I know it is very easy to tip over the edge in feeling like doing drugs to cope. Someone and I were talking about negative coping patterns like drug use, negative self-talk, etc. We were talking about how in our pasts if we built habits of using those bad ways to cope, that sometimes our minds will kind of default back to seeing those things as options because they were ways we coped in the past. The trick may be to realize that this may happen and to tell ourselves that those things are no longer options to us anymore. It may be choosing other (healthy) coping habits no matter what; as if those bad coping mechanisms (drug use, etc,) are not even options to choose from. I know this is easier said than done when in a situation difficult to cope with and feeling really tempted to cope that way. I think in those times prayer, having faith in God (even the size of a mustard seed), and going on forums like these for support can help us through difficult moments. One thing I try to remember is how bad drugs messed up my life, and even my brain. I am not the same after doing drugs mentally, and have to deal with the consequences of the effects using drugs had on my brain. It sobers me to think about how if I start again, I may end up having more problems and therefore a worse life. It's motivation to salvage the rest of the brain that God gave me, that I have left. Another thing I think about is that God redeemed me from all that drug use, and even though I have problems because of using drugs, by God's grace I still have my life. I feel like it would be like spitting in God's face to go back after all that He rescued me from. I just need to mentally vow to remember these things when emotionally I feel like I can't cope. Writing this for me, was even theraputic. Thank you all for your prayers and support. Much love.