telling lies

[Lily76_]

You must must must must.... STOP LYING.

Pray to G-d that he does whatever he must do, to help you stop lying. Go to your church, and ask for help. Do whatever it takes.

Don't make any excuses. Don't say anything about mental illness. Don't talk about blaw blaw blaw, and your past, and when you were 5, your mother said something mean.

You must stop lying. Lying will ruin every single good thing your life. You must stop.[/QUOTE] I already ruined my life I can't stop I tried to kill myself but I didn't die just got ill for a few days I cannot get my head to think right I have tried to say the truth I find it difficult to do it sorry I am evil

 

[Southernscotty]

No No No Lily, Remember what we talked about yesterday Sister. This is a heath issue and you see your Dr tomorrow. We all love you and want you to get better so go see him and tell him what is wrong. I am about to have church but will contact you when I get back K :]

 

[Southernscotty]

Lily I private messaged you, I am praying for your Dr's appointment tomorrow and do not worry, Do not be afraid, Just talk to the Dr and tell him what you told me. You are NOT a bad person and you are NOT evil, You just have some confusing thoughts ok. It will be fine :] I am here if you wanna pray again.

 

[St_Worm2]

I'm in complete agreement with what Southernscotty just said above, and I'm continuing to pray for you as well Lily.

--David

 

[Lily76_]

what if am not herd anymore by God maybe its just the devil that hears me now...

 

[Anhelyna]

Lily - where have you been hiding - I've not seen you in ages !

God knows you have problems and He's listening to you ALL the time.

He's with you - He's watching over you .

When do you next see your Psych ? Is it today ?

 

[Lily76_]

hi Anhelyna i see my psych on the 4th i see my dr on the 3rd not well tried to kill myself but didnt work went to A and E was in hospital over night my husband gave me some money for a few days and then i bought pills and took them all i not been posting so much because av been unwell

 

[Anhelyna]

Is it time to contact the Crisis Team Lily ?

 

[Lily76_]

no, i see my pych on friday all they can do is get me to take extra medication ( under drs orders ) yet to take my morning ones i took bought pills last sunday went to hospital husband was mad but he ok now he sleeping

 

[Anhelyna]

Does your husband keep your pills safe Lily ?

When do you take your morning ones ?

 

[Lily76_]

yes my husband keeps my pills safe he locks them away i can ask for them now its 8 am my husband wants to sleep until 10 am but i better wake him up and get him to give me them

 

[Anhelyna]

Sounds a good idea

Will you go out later and get some fresh air ?

I've not been in Edinburgh for ages - how is the mess doing at the bottom of Leith Street by Picardy Place and the Cathedral.

Reports of what they are doing there seem to be making it look as if it's going to be a nightmare.

Now my breakfast is over I'll need to go and do the washing up and get ready for a visitor and his lovely little shiny black dog who are coming in a couple of hours.

I'll be back later Lily - take care

 

[Lily76_]

yes i have my groups today i can go for a nice walk with my husband and i can see my friends
i hope you have a good day take care too

 

[Bobber]

Am telling lies again , i cant seem to stop
told my husband but he dont believe i lie
he says am confused...maybe i am
been unwell...mental health not good
seeing psych in a few days

You don't have to answer but I'm curious just what is the nature of your lies? Knowing what your lies are about reveals whether it's understandable that you would tell them. Example....one spouse may lie about some money they spent....the lie because they're afraid of their spouses response. Another, one may lie about liking something so as not to hurt another's feelings and the list can go on and on. Usually one lies because of fear BUT what exactly are you afraid of?

 

[Lily76_]

am scared ill be abandoned by everyone including Jesus and that i'll end up in hell i have a lot of fear about being on my own dont want to hurt anyone by it i want love

 

[Southernscotty]

Jesus says He will never leave you nor forsake you Heb 13:5. Trust in God :]

 

[Lily76_]

i have to trust God ...i havent been praying very much am finding harder and harder to focus on Jesus even though i go to church every week and see my pastor nearly every day because he works at one of the mental health drop ins my faith seems to waver and change i have gone from one faith to another faiths but its makes me ill to do so my pastor and my husband have to help me stay christian and not waver i find it hard to trust in God i need help with that

 

[Southernscotty]

You can rest assured if you have accepted Christ that you are never alone. He is with you and loves you very much. Doubt is sowed by the enemy and he is a liar and a deceiver, Tell him to get behind you and stay away in Jesus name :]

 

[Lily76_]

I believe in Jesus ...can i start another thread in new Christians about this i was born christian but i went to other faiths and i think ill learn about Jesus there and i kinda feel like am a new christian now thank you all for posting back to me can i please have this thread locked if that ok thank you

 

[Danielwright2311]

am scared ill be abandoned by everyone including Jesus and that i'll end up in hell i have a lot of fear about being on my own dont want to hurt anyone by it i want love

I would never abandon you , ever. So if I would not nor will God ever.