Significant other, I remember sending you a message years ago saying that if you found everything with me too difficult to handle you can talk about what you are going through with me to other people. This is because I was concerned that what is going on with me is extremely burdensome for you or any other one person to handle.
Last night Jesus Christ allowed me to hear you quarreling and complaining to somebody on the phone about me, you were very angry.
What you and others forget to realize that I have no support whatsoever, nobody that I can talk to about anything I am facing, but fortunately you have people like that.
Additionally people around me do everything to make it clear how much they hate me etc constantly, whenever possible. This has affected me in a massive way as I am constantly under attack, and always feel the need to defend myself all the time from people cruel remarks and actions so I get angry and snap back at persons.
Then I see you being friends with these persons who hate me and are cruel towards me, and I wonder how could you continue to be friends, feeling comfortable with those around me who hate me, and be in constant contact with them. If things were in reverse how would you want me to react to people like that?
My only comfort in all of this is Jesus Christ who has never left me and is there for me every single day. He understands exactly what I am feeling, he doesn't hate me or is cruel to me constantly. Jesus Christ knows I have serious problems because of what happened to be as a baby and a child. He knows why I find it difficult to talk to people, because of how people have rejected me and used me from the day I have been born until know, and he truly cares for me.
Last night Jesus Christ allowed me to hear you quarreling and complaining to somebody on the phone about me, you were very angry.
What you and others forget to realize that I have no support whatsoever, nobody that I can talk to about anything I am facing, but fortunately you have people like that.
Additionally people around me do everything to make it clear how much they hate me etc constantly, whenever possible. This has affected me in a massive way as I am constantly under attack, and always feel the need to defend myself all the time from people cruel remarks and actions so I get angry and snap back at persons.
Then I see you being friends with these persons who hate me and are cruel towards me, and I wonder how could you continue to be friends, feeling comfortable with those around me who hate me, and be in constant contact with them. If things were in reverse how would you want me to react to people like that?
My only comfort in all of this is Jesus Christ who has never left me and is there for me every single day. He understands exactly what I am feeling, he doesn't hate me or is cruel to me constantly. Jesus Christ knows I have serious problems because of what happened to be as a baby and a child. He knows why I find it difficult to talk to people, because of how people have rejected me and used me from the day I have been born until know, and he truly cares for me.
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