Suicide.

[ProverbsLady]

Hi all --

Last weekend I tried to take my life.
I have clearly upset a few people/family around me.
I dove right into the Word and Christian books in the hospital and recovering at home.
I feel ashamed and I feel a lot of darkness still but this is my question/concern.

So many people know me as the only Christian in their life and I'm scared my suicide attempt has given them the impression that Christianity isn't the answer.

Thoughts? Suggestions?

 

[Blain]

Hi all --

Last weekend I tried to take my life.
I have clearly upset a few people/family around me.
I dove right into the Word and Christian books in the hospital and recovering at home.
I feel ashamed and I feel a lot of darkness still but this is my question/concern.

So many people know me as the only Christian in their life and I'm scared my suicide attempt has given them the impression that Christianity isn't the answer.

Thoughts? Suggestions?

christians are just as human as anyone else so just because you messed up that shouldnt have any effect on what being a christian is about. if you dont mind me asking what led u to attempt this? do you not enjoy living especially since you have god?
for me the love god and i share makes life livable. but you also have this to ask yourself since you have stumbled and fallen will u stay down or get back up and keep walking?

 

[stormdancer0]

Just because you are Christian doesn't mean you don't get depressed. I have major depression, and sometimes, it's almost more than I can handle. I understand.

 

[timf]

Here is a link with some interesting perspectives of suicide for the Christian;

Christian Pioneer - Thoughts of Suicide?

If you were an alcoholic who was a well known Christian and you had a relapse, most people would understand that you are only human.

There is a little more shame for those whose have promoted themselves as superior because they were Christian and not realize that promoting oneself is of the flesh.

Jesus came to heal those who were "sick" not those who were "healthy". Paul tells us that God has chosen the weak and foolish things (us).

Christianity is not a weight loss program where those who have achieved success can strut around as an advertisement. We are saved by grace through faith so that no one can boast.

If you need to, you can PM me.

 

[woodpecker]

First a big cyber space hug from me.

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I suffer with chronic depression and anxiety, it is an illness the same as diabetes, heart disease, cancer etc.....that is how you explain it to people.

 

[hihi55]

The fact that you have attempted suicide and are worried about how that will affect others says a lot about you. You are being very hard on yourself.

 

[TheyCallMeDavid]

Hi all --

Last weekend I tried to take my life.
I have clearly upset a few people/family around me.
I dove right into the Word and Christian books in the hospital and recovering at home.
I feel ashamed and I feel a lot of darkness still but this is my question/concern.

So many people know me as the only Christian in their life and I'm scared my suicide attempt has given them the impression that Christianity isn't the answer.

Thoughts? Suggestions?

Explain to your Friends that even Christians struggle emotionally with many deep issues and that you realized the big mistake it was by trying to end your life prematurely. Apologize to them for the grief you have put them thru, tell them how valueable they are to you, and that you have gotton victory over this bad intention now. Tell them that you are looking forward to being with them more , getting to know them deeper, and healing from your Past. Let this be a time to move closer in relationship to those who love you. Realize too that God is there to help you walk thru ANY and all struggles for this short earthly life we live .. and one day soon... we will exist in a place that is vastly different as a further expression of Gods love for us. Keep focused on THAT and let God use you mightily in your earthly life, for, that is where true joy and fulfillment occurs.

Thank you for seeing your intrinsic worth and dignity because youre a Child of God .... and rejoice in that from now on every day. Blessings to your life.

 

[Kristen.NewCreation]

Struggling with suicide isn't uncommon for Christians. Having the struggle of depression and suicidal ideation or even attempts aren't shameful. They are struggles. Try not to let the thoughts of condemnation take the forefront in your thinking. Those thoughts are used by the devil to hold us down.

Take heart that your witness continues. It's not over one incident, but over our life walk. David struggled with depression in the Psalms. One moment he was woeful, and the next he praised God. Yet he was considered favored. He failed miserably at sinning, yet he always turned back to God. When you're feeling discouraged about the darkness that surrounds you right now, remember you aren't alone. God saw fit to allow us to see that struggle in David's life.

We daily are being molded into His will for our lives. We aren't perfect, and won't be until He returns for us. But our walk forward toward Him, will provide the witness that you seek other to see. His light will shine through you as you continue in your faithfulness. That doesn't mean without depression, but in spite of the darkness of depression.

 

[Ironfoof]

Proverbslady. I have been there myself. Learning to stop put other peoples problems on my shoulders. Learned I was so worried what they thought I lost myself. I needed everyones approval. I need all kinds of encouragement. My self esteem was shattered yet I paraded around as a know it all and untouchable. I let that blind pride dictate that I was unable to show my heart. I let a lot of things creep in and slowly erode what Jesus did with me. I put my focus on the cares of the world, and slowly, they began destroying me. When my God so gently and graciously allowed me to fall, and then gently began teaching me and showing me what I did wrong the pressure started coming off. I cannot save the world. I am not perfect. I am human, although I am called to be more than human. I cannot change people from making deadly mistakes. I can only encourage them. I have to let go of them to let them fall if they need to. Then be there when they need me. Forgive them, and not hold nothing against them. I have to stop trying so hard to be what people want me to be, and start being what I was called to be.
As my focus fell off the world, it drew closer to God. The closer it gets to God, the better I feel. Instead of focusing on what I did or did not do. I am focusing on Him. He is making my paths straight. That is HIS promise. I just need to keep my eyes on HIM and not my cares. Be blessed, and be the light. Let love, His love warm your heart and soul.