MAybe your expecting to much to fast? I dont know..Do you really think you will go to Heaven if you commit suicide though? Just asking, hope I'm not being to nosy or prying.
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I guess no timing is really like His own, so too fast won't really apply, in that light... But, WEARY & TRIED are definitely the words to describe this for me. The growth I have known in the Lord over the course of time that I have walked next to the one who soooo burdens me is so much fuller on my part than theirs. Not really as a judgement, as an observation by many others, including me. I can not believe that someone could walk with the Lord and seemingly avoid growth so well. FRUSTRATION is HUGE for me.
I feel like I can take no more and abandonment of this one seems wrong, so 'out of here' seems inviting! VERY!
Honestly, I do think I would go to heaven if I committed suicide. NOTHING can seperate me from the Love of God. Does He wish that end for me?
I do not believe so today. If He is Omniscient, which I believe Him to be, then were that my end, He has continued to have the relationship He has with me with knowledge of that already in Him. No thing could convince me, or those close to me, that my relationship with the Lord is not real and vital.
I guess it is one of those questions that could drive a lot of opinionated discussions fostering division, so I'd rather not labor on that one. Though your comments are welcome, I feel I have no further. Unless you stir some new thoughts.
At any rate, thanks for answering my concerns, and I continue to lift up Jon, hoping his life is thus far spared an end by his own hand in pain. I'm still here, too. The Lord Jesus show favor on us all, Shachah.
