strugglingwith thoughts (former SI'er )

[joyfuljudith]

Hi....

I am in my 40's and started SI in my late teens ... yikes! .... I started off by cutting ... did a bit of binge drinking ..... then onto taking a few too many painkillers (not o/d but I've done tha as well) ..... and then I stopped ... for a few years ... I did start binge eating and that was a form of self-harm as well..... but I have been free of actually cutting/tablets for years....

I am struggling... I know when I get stressed... I have "thoughts"/"ideas" "voices" that try to tell me that self harm would be a good idea. I'm on meds... but still the "thoughts" come through...

I try to remind myself that I am a loved child of God ... there is no way I would act on my thoughts... but I feel tempted ... I wish the thoughts would go away....

any bright ideas?

Judith

 

[Everlasting33]

Sounds like you have struggled for a lot of your life. It can be tough and exhausting to struggle with pain and life, huh? Well, don't give up. Remember that you are the same precious, worthwhile, and loved individual as you were when you were a baby.

Tell me, why do you want to hurt yourself?

 

[bubblefish]

You are doing great Judith!

I know the temptations can be hard to move through and I am not sure if they ever go away but have you got support in place for when you are tempted? Someone you can talk to about it all? I have found that talking to someone close when I am struggling can be a great help.

I am sorry that I can't help more but you really are doing so well!