Even worse, I'm struggling with trying to find the opposite sex attractive.
I cannot seem to find a single person of the opposite sex attractive unless they extremely androgynous and tomboyish.
And trying to push myself further into femininity attraction feels like lust, but if I try to ignore it, then when I do have feelings of attraction, they feel homosexual instead of heterosexual.
It's making me start to wonder at this point that my way to best following God's path is just to avoid any non-platonic thought at all, avoid physical attraction feelings, and spend my entire life remaining a celibate virgin.
I cannot seem to find a single person of the opposite sex attractive unless they extremely androgynous and tomboyish.
And trying to push myself further into femininity attraction feels like lust, but if I try to ignore it, then when I do have feelings of attraction, they feel homosexual instead of heterosexual.
It's making me start to wonder at this point that my way to best following God's path is just to avoid any non-platonic thought at all, avoid physical attraction feelings, and spend my entire life remaining a celibate virgin.