I was saved / born again last year, in the summer. Became a Christian a bit before that.
Before I was saved I had two fetishes; one was a rainboot / wellington boot fetish and the other a diaper fetish.
Struggled with both, they would come in patches, I could go weeks without it and then it would crop up. The rainboot fetish came first. I used to wear rainboots / wellies when I was younger all the time around the house. I recall wearing them even in my grandma's house--she passed away when I was young too.
In actual fact it was with wellies, that I first experience masturbation with. My mum had reluctantly bought me some for a school trip and I kept them in my room at my dad's house. (parents were divorced) so I didn't think much of it until one particular day. All this was of course was before I was saved, back when I was about 16 or 17.
Since then I must have spent hundreds on buying wellies.
In fact it got so strong that I couldn't get turned on by a women without the boots on...of course that isn't the case now so much......
The diapers came in a bit later , when I was 19 / 20. When I was watching something and the person had on adult diapers. And something clicked in me then. So I started doing that too. I'd get a kick out of wearing them--I actually went as far as watching vids, looking at pics, and then found out that some people used them for their intended purposes--so I tried that. Again all before I was saved.
So after I was saved, it kinda fades away especially the diaper fetish. Until recently when i'd forgotten what it was like and that temptation came in January or December to try it again, and I did it again.
I'm currently fighting an urge to go up and do it again with the boots...and im fighting the urge to buy diapers...Don't really want to wear diapers....I do feel safe / secure / comforted while wearing them. I don't really want to stop wearing the boots ...but I want to be able to wear them without the feelings....
Not sure what to do....so I found this site and joined...
Before I was saved I had two fetishes; one was a rainboot / wellington boot fetish and the other a diaper fetish.
Struggled with both, they would come in patches, I could go weeks without it and then it would crop up. The rainboot fetish came first. I used to wear rainboots / wellies when I was younger all the time around the house. I recall wearing them even in my grandma's house--she passed away when I was young too.
In actual fact it was with wellies, that I first experience masturbation with. My mum had reluctantly bought me some for a school trip and I kept them in my room at my dad's house. (parents were divorced) so I didn't think much of it until one particular day. All this was of course was before I was saved, back when I was about 16 or 17.
Since then I must have spent hundreds on buying wellies.
In fact it got so strong that I couldn't get turned on by a women without the boots on...of course that isn't the case now so much......
The diapers came in a bit later , when I was 19 / 20. When I was watching something and the person had on adult diapers. And something clicked in me then. So I started doing that too. I'd get a kick out of wearing them--I actually went as far as watching vids, looking at pics, and then found out that some people used them for their intended purposes--so I tried that. Again all before I was saved.
So after I was saved, it kinda fades away especially the diaper fetish. Until recently when i'd forgotten what it was like and that temptation came in January or December to try it again, and I did it again.
I'm currently fighting an urge to go up and do it again with the boots...and im fighting the urge to buy diapers...Don't really want to wear diapers....I do feel safe / secure / comforted while wearing them. I don't really want to stop wearing the boots ...but I want to be able to wear them without the feelings....
Not sure what to do....so I found this site and joined...
