struggling with "emotional" depression

[rockwell]

Hi, I’m a 20 y.o. guy, Christian who loves the Lord with all of my heart and wants to become a better person each day.

My problem is that I feel pretty empty inside now after having problems with a great friend (girl). I have prayed to the God “Lord, you are my everything, you are my life and my thoughts. Why can’t I feel that you fill my entire life?”

I want God to reveal his plans to me in some supernatural way but it’s just not happening. I know that God’s ways and thoughts are special and supernatural and not vague and subjective like ours humans. But although I have all the theory I’m my head I cannot feel that fullness in my heart that my God is my everything.

-I have doubted in my heart that God’s plans are perfect if they aren’t what I want them to be.
- I want to walk in love and not struggle anymore. Be strong, courageous, brave little soldier, love and trust my creator with all my heart, thoughts, soul and spirit, knowing that his will for my life is perfect and that he has only the best in store for my life

Any ideas?.

 

[Lilly of the Valley]

-I have doubted in my heart that God’s plans are perfect if they aren’t what I want them to be.
- I want to walk in love and not struggle anymore. Be strong, courageous, brave little soldier, love and trust my creator with all my heart, thoughts, soul and spirit, knowing that his will for my life is perfect and that he has only the best in store for my life

Any ideas?.

Proverbs 19:21
There are many plans in a man's heart, nevertheless the Lord's counsel-that will stand.

You need to trust that the Lord's plans will turn out for your benefit. What the Lord has planned for you is far better than what you can plan for yourself. Trust in Him and He shall direct your paths. ( also try reading Isaiah 14:24) Also, give the Lord complete control in your life. If you try to be in contol of your life, it won't turn out how the Lord wants it to. Ask the Lord to help you trust Him. Also, study scriptures about trusting in God. The Lord won't always reveal His plans for you in a big amazing way. He reveals them to you little by little. If He showed it all to you at once you'd be overwhelmed! It all goes back to trusting in God. I hope I helped. I had the same problem with trusting in God.

Job 13:15, Psalm 28:7, Psalm 31:15, Psalm 131:1-2, Isa. 43:10, Jeremiah 42:1-22, Heb. 2:13, 1 Peter 5:7

 

[Rafael]

Don't be impatient. Very soon, you may be like me at 52 looking back and seeing where God was and where I was at every turn and crossroad in life. He is there, and developing strong character and faith only comes through living. Be steadfast and faithful in this life and find God's will for your life and do your best to give Him your best. Be like Paul and don't be discontented with situations, but know that they are all, each and every moment, an opportunity to live for the Lord, letting Him live through you.
Find out what gifts you have from the Holy Spirit and grow in then and His grace. Renew your mind, daily, and overcome the sins that so easily beset us with the blood of the lamb and your testimony. Your testimony is that you will fight the good fight for the Lord in this life and through His blood and love you will overcome and see victory and be with the Lord someday.

Romans 12:2 And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.

Hebrews 12:1 Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us,

1 Timothy 6:6 But godliness with contentment is great gain.

Hebrews 11:6 But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him.

James 1:12 Blessed is the man that endureth temptation: for when he is tried, he shall receive the crown of life, which the Lord hath promised to them that love him.

1 Peter 1:7 That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ:

1 Timothy 6:12 Fight the good fight of faith, lay hold on eternal life, whereunto thou art also called, and hast professed a good profession before many witnesses.

 

[Alternate Carpark]

My problem is that I feel pretty empty inside now after having problems with a great friend (girl).
-I have doubted in my heart that God’s plans are perfect if they aren’t what I want them to be.

Am I right in seeing these two are related?
What we see and what God sees are vastly different. He sees much farther than we can, and what seems wrong or illogical to us is not always how God sees it.
I could not understand the value of my whole world collasping around me ( aka Job style but not as severe) for a couple of years, but I trusted His wisdom and will for my life and now I see what He saw so many years ago.
This has built great trust in me regarding God's perfect will for me.
And a great love for Him that I could not obtain any other way.

I have prayed to the God “Lord, you are my everything, you are my life and my thoughts. Why can’t I feel that you fill my entire life?”

As raphe said, patience and perseverence. The road is long and when you declare to God your desire for Him, He is not slack concerning it. He will not withhold Himself from anyone who seeks Him.
But He does not prematurely change His timetable for anyone.
If your desire is to be immersed in God, keep walking and He will fill you little by little, He knows exactly how much you can handle.

I want God to reveal his plans to me in some supernatural way but it’s just not happening. I know that God’s ways and thoughts are special and supernatural and not vague and subjective like ours humans. But although I have all the theory I’m my head I cannot feel that fullness in my heart that my God is my everything.

You are searching for a deeper walk with God.
You want God to be an intense reality in your life and not mere words in your head.
Ask and you shall receive.
I walked a similar path for 10 years as you describe.
"Where are you I would cry out", even though I had been a Christian for 10 years, He was not "real" to me, not the 'real' that I saw the apostles or the early church experience.
So I asked, "God, I want everything you have for me, I want to be everything YOU want me to be"
Well, He answered that cry from my heart 2 years later.
That was 9 years ago. And He is still filling me little by little.

- I want to walk in love and not struggle anymore. Be strong, courageous, brave little soldier, love and trust my creator with all my heart, thoughts, soul and spirit, knowing that his will for my life is perfect and that he has only the best in store for my life

Tell God, your Heavenly Father, your desire for Him and at the same time allow Him to tell you His desires for you.
Then give Him permission to transform you into what He chooses you to become when He chooses to do it.

And then watch the Glory of God unfold in and through your whole being.
Your relationship with God is built little by little, day by day.

Do not think God is an instant miracle worker. Every instant miracle you see or read about has taken God a long time to set up.
So it is with every one of His precious children. He restores us daily, but we only look at the exact time the transformation is complete.
We forget about all the work God has done to bring about the transformation.

Seek and you SHALL find.
Ask and it SHALL be given.
Knock and it SHALL be opened.
Just not as quick as we would like, but at the perfect time that God chooses to.

 

[Rafael]

Adding a little to what A.C.'s post said, we are created unto good works. Not saved by them, but unto them - so use your gifts and talents from God to go into the highways and byways of life to being in the lame, blind, deaf, and poor so they can hear and be fed.
When Jesus returns, He only asks if we fed Him, clothed Him when naked, visited Him while sick, or gave Him shelter when He was a stranger, So, you see that there are great challenges in this life where we can see the miraculous, but we have to step into the river Jordan by faith before the waters will part. Don't be discouraged. God has a plan that envolves a lifetime of exploits and good work, and as A.C. said, each moment should be observed as a miracle of life and a gift from the very hand of God. If God is glorified in our faith, them let us be steadfast in it, and if He is glorified in a miracle, then let His will be done. Personally, the farther I get away from the fleshly lusts and desires of life, the more I see and stand in awe of what we have been given with each new day. Perhaps joining a group that visits the homebound in nursing homes or those that minister and help handicapped would give you a new perspective for prayer and thanksgiving....? Again, I pray you will grow strong in His grace, keeping His peace and finding His perfect will for your life.

 

[PottersClay]

Seek and you SHALL find.
Ask and it SHALL be given.
Knock and it SHALL be opened.
Just not a quick as we would like, but at the perfect time that God chooses to.

Wow, I really like that! (Mind if I use it sometime?)

 

[Alternate Carpark]

Freely I have recieved, freely I shall give PottersClay...by all means

 

[rockwell]

Thanks guys & girls, I guess I have lived in fear all this years thinking than God is not in control and/or that my ways could be better than His. It is just now that I’m seeing even when I look back in my own life that God has always been there every step of the way.
Even the fact that I found this forum I see it as from God who wanted me to find some support I guess.

Well, I feel really good now and I guess I will just start trusting God, my creator, knowing and believing that He is in control and his ways are super-perfect!!! and about the emptiness and all that i think was all probably related to fear and anxiety.

I sought the LORD, and He heard me, And delivered me from all my fears (Psalm 34:4)

Also I want to thank: Lilly of the valley, raphe and Alternate carpark for your messages and support, God Bless you all.

 

[Caelum]

You are facing one of lifes many trials that God delivers to you. Persevere and win. To take your mind off of her, try reading the OT Book of Job. It correlates to exactly that, trial.