Strength...

[Leafmistress]

Hello to all of you. This is my first time here. I am quite new to Christianity, I grew up in a strict Catholic home and I am glad to say that I have finally found God. I have 3 beautiful children and a wonderful husband, but I also have a problem. I am afraid that I am not doing God's Will. I will try to keep this to the point. I am 27 years old and already lost a daughter to cancer when she was only 2 years old. (given birth to 4 children) I swore that I could never have another child, but my 3rd daughter came 2 years ago. I begged the Lord to send my baby back to me, and I feel that He has through my 2 yr old. I felt blessed to have her, she is the spitting image of her sister and does everything like her. But at the same time, I have been feeling very weak, tired, and in pain. My daughter wants so much from me. I have to be close to her at all times. I feel guilty if I don't because the last thing I heard my baby say to me was, 'Mommy hold me." I feel like I am not being a good mother to my children. People would probably tell me to speak with a Dr. or that I am too young for all of this, or that the pain is all in my head. My husband had an injury and I had to care for him for almost 2 years as well. But here is the real dilemma: my pain goes away when I take medication. I can move around all day if I am needed to. My back does not hurt. I am not depressed, I am loving to my children, I can clean the house, I feel like supermom again! This scares because I believe that all I need God. Does this make any sense? I know that He is coming very soon, but I feel that if I cannot gain my strength back on my own, that I will miss my chance to be with Him and my baby. I am to the point where I am ashamed to need medication just to get up in the morning.....

 

[silentpoet]

God has provided us with Doctors and medicine for a reason. I do not look down on anyone who needs help from them to live a healthier life. I thank God we do have the blessings of doctors. For example I have allergies, earlier this year I was very close to losing my job because it kept turning into bronchitis. Well finally I got a strong enough antibiotic to clear out the bronchitis. And also I was able to get some control over my allergies with another medicine. This very directly affected my quality of life. It is much better. All because of a doctor visit or two and some pills. Without the pills I would probably not be able to help as many people, and I certainly would not be here caring about you.

Do not feel guilty that you are not perfect, do not feel guilty that you are not living up to your ideal you. Jesus bought you on the cross knowing all this. Jesus took us up knowing our flaws.

I pray you will be lifted up.

 

[angelwind]

I pray you will find peace and rest like silentpoet suggested...be glad for the pills at this time...let yourself resr in His provision. I pray you will become more established in your faith...hearing and reading the word daily...enjoying all your children. I also pray the grief of losing the one will become less painful...

 

[free2b]

You have already been through so much! Don't put yourself through more! God doesn't expect perfection, He knows your heart and it's intentions! He knows your guilt and shame. He'll guide you through it!! Lean on Him...trust Him. Your salvation is in Him and your little one is waiting for you!!

Praying for your Peace!!
Hugs and Blessings!!

 

[luv4godremains]

Don't feel guilty about what you are going through. Everything happens for a reason, and God has given us doctors and medications for a reason. you have been through so much, and just as Christie said, don't put yourself through more. Your need to try to put your trust in God and lean on him for comfort and support. have you found a church that you can call home yet? if not, then it may be a good idea, that way you can get more fellowship and people to help communicate God's words to you. Do not give up on yourself and trust God to lead you. For all that you have been through, i pray that God, your father would lift you up now, give you the strength and energy you need to live a normal healthy life. that he would heal your wounds and place people around at times that you need them the most. i pray that you would be able to call out to him in times of need and now that he loves you and has a greater purpose for all that has happened, and he only has plans to do you good, he doesn't want to harm you. Amen

if you need to talk, send me a message and i will be happy to listen or chat or whatever! God bless. xXx

 

[lady_of_god]

You have already been through so much! Don't put yourself through more! God doesn't expect perfection, He knows your heart and it's intentions! He knows your guilt and shame. He'll guide you through it!! Lean on Him...trust Him. Your salvation is in Him and your little one is waiting for you!!

Praying for your Peace!!
Hugs and Blessings!!

She is right... perfection is something we'll never reach. All God wants is for us to do our best and put every effort into what we do. He knows you better than you know yourself. You won't be turned away by the Lord as long as you seek Him first He loves you I'm praying for you

 

[JPPT1974]

Lord give this person strength as well as lean on you for guidance and comfort in you precious & holy name, amen!!