starting over, day 3

[wells14]

I was sober for over 2 yrs and have relapsed a couple days ago and the first drink felt fine but I could not stop with just 2 drinks. I binged all day long, I wanted to hide it from my husband. I haven't had a drink since

It's taken me 3 days to feel better. I don't want to go back to drinking and to try to drown my emotions in alcohol. I read the bible and listen to different Pastors on the internet that I like, most do talk about our addictions and weakness's. I find if I get bored I want to drink to forget my loneliness and boredom.

I started to go to a Calvary Church that I like. I had to end my old friendships because they still drink and party and hope to make new friends at the church and have fellowship. I would like to make friends on this forum who also struggle with alcohol.

 

[Autumnleaf]

Go to AA if you want to quit drinking.

 

[wells14]

I do go to AA meetings. I found a meeting I really like, some of the meetings I didn't like.

 

[JCD1284]

I was sober for over 2 yrs and have relapsed a couple days ago and the first drink felt fine but I could not stop with just 2 drinks. I binged all day long, I wanted to hide it from my husband. I haven't had a drink since

It's taken me 3 days to feel better. I don't want to go back to drinking and to try to drown my emotions in alcohol. I read the bible and listen to different Pastors on the internet that I like, most do talk about our addictions and weakness's. I find if I get bored I want to drink to forget my loneliness and boredom.

I started to go to a Calvary Church that I like. I had to end my old friendships because they still drink and party and hope to make new friends at the church and have fellowship. I would like to make friends on this forum who also struggle with alcohol.

Wow, well I'm actually on my third day being sober again. I was sober for months and feeling great. Then last week I lost my job. I started to drink again. Normally I would just get as much in me as possible until I passed out. I mean the first sip was good but after that I felt dead inside like I let myself, my family and God down. I'm happy that you stopped and are trying to stick with it. One of the biggest enemies is boredom and loneliness. That's when the sauce whispers into your ear "It will just be to kill time". That is the biggest lie and addiction can tell you! Gotta stay busy.

I really hope it works out for you. Stay strong.

 

[wells14]

Losing your job is a tough one to deal with. I agree with dealing with the loneliness and boredom, makes the alcohol seem so tempting. The relapse made me feel like such a loser, I felt so weird buying that beer after over 2 yrs and I knew I shouldn't be buying it. My husband wasn't to upset with me, because he knew I was going through a lot with my mother and the nursing home. That just set me over limit and I drank.

I'm trying to stay strong, and I've been going to this one bible study where the asst Pastor used to drink and do drugs, and he helps me stay strong.

 

[Chaplain David]

Losing your job is a tough one to deal with. I agree with dealing with the loneliness and boredom, makes the alcohol seem so tempting. The relapse made me feel like such a loser, I felt so weird buying that beer after over 2 yrs and I knew I shouldn't be buying it. My husband wasn't to upset with me, because he knew I was going through a lot with my mother and the nursing home. That just set me over limit and I drank.

I'm trying to stay strong, and I've been going to this one bible study where the asst Pastor used to drink and do drugs, and he helps me stay strong.

It's great that you have that Bible Study and Pastor as a helping resource. If you feel that you need more help I'd also recommend AA. It's helped me stay sober when everything else failed. I'm praying for you. God bless you.

 

[wells14]

Dear Chaplain Sacerdote

I found an AA meeting that meets at 9a.m and it was started by stay at home moms and my Calvary Church on Friday nights offer the Excellent Way meetings too. I used to hit the liquor store at 8 in the morning and binge all day. But, I haven't done that in over 2 yrs.

I'm doing good, it's been a month now since I relapsed, but I always have to be on guard. Thank you for you your response.

 

[JCD1284]

Losing your job is a tough one to deal with. I agree with dealing with the loneliness and boredom, makes the alcohol seem so tempting. The relapse made me feel like such a loser, I felt so weird buying that beer after over 2 yrs and I knew I shouldn't be buying it. My husband wasn't to upset with me, because he knew I was going through a lot with my mother and the nursing home. That just set me over limit and I drank.

I'm trying to stay strong, and I've been going to this one bible study where the asst Pastor used to drink and do drugs, and he helps me stay strong.

Relapse definitely makes a person feel horrible. It's like....to me it's literally scary because when you are in that situation it's as if you have lost control. You know what you are doing is wrong. Everything within you tells you it's not going to be good but there you are doing it regardless. I'm happy though that you are staying strong. I've been listening a lot to my favorite Pastor's as well. Definitely helps!

 

[wells14]

I listen to my favorite Pastors on line too. I'm very fleshly, and I have to deal with shopping to much to occupy my time and I can't do that, because I'm in credit card debt. I used to enjoy having a beer and shopping on line. I got such a high off of it.

Then the package would come and I couldn't remember what I bought, I was probably to drunk to remember what I bought. I know the last 2 yrs being sober felt good and I didn't feel guilty. My relapse brought about a lot of guilt besides feeling sick for a couple days..

I've been doing good this last month, but I've been looking for a job also.

 

[wells14]

It's nice being on a forum that I can talk about God and Jesus helping me and not being persecuted for believing. There was another alcohol forum that I was on and they did not like Christians.

 

[LoG]

Some older members in meetings and forums are hyper vigilant about too much "God talk" for fear it might scare off newcomers who have some issues with God and or religion. They rather get them in the door and sober up a bit first before introducing too much of the spiritual aspects.

 

[wells14]

One forum I was on actually told some members they hated God and wanted no Christians. When I read some of the things written I wouldn't want to be on that forum.